I'm berating myself hours later as I make my way to Thorpe's for dinner. My best friend Aurora and her new boyfriend Landon invited us all out. I'm going to have to share my secret quiet place with Cam and Rory. The idea of that alone makes me feel sick to my stomach.
Cameron walks beside me and rests his hand on the small of my back as he lets me enter the restaurant ahead of him. That small little act of kindness sends fear through my veins, and I have to remind my lungs how to breathe.
I glance at the bar, but he's not there.
My eyes search the restaurant, but I cannot spot him anywhere. I'm surprised by the disappointment I feel. The lack of electricity in the air around me ruins the restaurant for me.
It's no longer my safe place. It's just another restaurant on another street.
I take a seat at the table with my friends. They are all talking animatedly, excited about all the good things happening in their lives.