Chapter 267: What If He Doesn't Want Me?

Telling my brother was easier than I'd expected it to be. Several days have past and I'm now sat in my bed wondering if I should try and tell Jarrod too.

I can't tell Jarrod.

What if he doesn't want me, when he knows?

What if he thinks I'm too broken?

Too damaged? Too tainted?

He won't want me when he knows what Rick did. Who would?

I can't tell him.

My phone beeps.

Jarrod: Hello Sweetheart, I miss you. You've not been to the restaurant. X

I don't know how to reply. I don't know what to tell him.

If I can't tell him what happened, how can I ever let him in?

If I can't let him touch me, how can I ever be in a relationship with him?

I consider not replying at all, except I really don't want to do that. That is the last thing I want. I want him, except I can't have him.

Tallulah: Hi. Sorry. I've had a lot going on. X

It's an excuse. A terrible, almost unbelievable one at that.

Jarrod: Fancy lunch tomorrow? X