Chapter 367: I've Failed

Ella's POV:

I've failed. I don't know how to be what either of them needs. It's the day before Christmas and they are both trying so hard to make me smile. Every time I don't, I fell like I'm failing them all over again.

I'm supposed to be the one looking after Thomas, and yet I'm leaving that responsibility to a guy who barely knows him.

It's Christmas. This is supposed to be the happiest time of the year and I can't even put a fake smile on my face for the people I love.

Tonight, they are dragging me out carolling. Apparently, I have no choice. Every time I want to say no I hear Thomas's voice in my ear, you're my miracle.

Some miracle I am...

I'm making a right pig's ear of this. I'm currently sat on the edge of my bed allowing Tristan to put my coat on for me, like I'm the child in the house not Thomas. He wraps a scarf around my neck, plonks a hat on my head and begins to put my hands into my gloves.

"I'm sorry," I tell him.