Chapter 23: The hotel, Part 2

I tried to walk by the front desk as quickly as I could.I could feel her eyes on me.On the brown bag.She knew it wasn't wine and she knew I could not wait to open what was behind the paper.She had seen my kind before.The drunk, checking in alone at one of the year's most popular holidays.No family.A sad soul.

I wasn't a drunk and she didn't understand.Who the hell was she to judge me!She had no idea what I was going through, what I was feeling.Feeling?What was I feeling?Anything?Everything?Nothing.As I opened the door to my room, my stomach sank like I was riding a rollercoaster in Disneyland.Emptiness consumed me.I placed the Privacy Please sign on the outside door handle and slipped into my room.I twisted the latch until the door was locked and slid the chain into its secured position.

I turned the hallway light on and looked around.I stood motionless for a few moments and listened to the silence.The rain scrapped at the window like a dog wanting to come in from the back door.