The beeping sound of the heart monitor was the only thing that soothed the anxious storm crashing within me. Not even the shot of sedative theyd given me before coming to the hospital had worked. I could barely blink. I could barely move, afraid any motion would change the steady rhythm of the beeps jogging across the roomif you could call it a room. A square piece that boxed you in with sharp scents of bleach and alcohol and lifeless colors wasnt cozy in any wayfour identical walls, four equidistant corners, all layered with the same pale shade. White-gray flooring, ivory sheets, eggshell curtainseverything screamed insipid and dead.