Chapter Six•Pinky Promise(Breakable Vow)

Honestly, I don't even know how to start, I mean this boy who came into my life, I thought he was gonna be someone that I saw myself with for a long time, but not in marriage terms, his name was Cameron Redstone, I met him after my breakup with Miles, well more like months. He was so much different from him, Cameron actually made me feel older, aside from the fact that he was a Sophomore in High School and I was still in 8th Grade, but somehow he seemed to be really okay with me being younger since he thought that I was a Freshman which in a way was a compliment because he thought i was more mature than the other girls in my grade. He came in from the Coast over a couple weekends so we can get to know each other more since we've only been on video chat so we can know that we're not catfishing one another. One of my friends, Rhiannon saw a picture of him and she thought he was cute, I mean who wouldn't with that brownish-black hair swept to the side, killer smile and those brown eyes, he was a heartthrob and I thought it was so cool having a boy like him notice a girl like me. When he drove over, he told me that he was staying at his aunt and uncle's place for the summer, he gave me his snapchat when we first met, I gave him mine as well, we texted each other all day and most of the day, he was….he was a really great guy, I was able to talk to him almost about anything,"Texting that boy again?"

"Something wrong with that Rhi?"

"No, no I mean a soon-to-be Junior texting a Freshman, that's actually really cool if you think about it, you get to have your first time with an experienced boy who knows his way around human anatomy" I nudged her for that.

One night when we were texting each other, I wasn't sure if I should text him about you know, sex because since i have zero experience in that area, I was only 13 then, so I winged it

Text Conversation

Have you ever done it?

Why do you ask?

Just asking

Yeah I've done it, have you?

Tbh?

Yeah tell me

No I really haven't

Are you saving yourself for someone?

Not really

Have you thought about you and I?

Like doing it?

Have you

Yeah I guess I have

I can swipe some money from my aunt and uncle to buy a motel room for us

Really?

Are you up for it? I mean we don't have to

Yeah I'm up for it

Text Conversation Ended

My first thought was to lie to my mother about staying at Rhiannon's house for Friday Night and meet up with him again. It was Friday and I got the approval from my mother about staying at her house, Cameron was waiting for me in front of the school, Rhiannon, Casey, Alexa and Ryan(Girl) was with me,"Ooh someone is gonna get lucky tonight" I sighed as I chuckled in amusement,"Make sure he pulls out!" Ryan was always the girl that had no filter, but sometimes it gets a bit much. Cameron did know his way, he was being chivalrous, he didn't take me straight back to the room, he took me to an early dinner and we walked around until we went to this bridge over the river, it was nice really,"Yeah I just told my aunt that I'm gonna be staying at Matt's house"

"Who's Matt?"

"Just one of the guys that I'm pretty chill with, they know him, he's covering for me" I nodded as we walked around and we went to this river as we continued talking about whatever,"What got you thinking about having sex with me?" He asked me and I just leaned against the fence not too far from the river, I thought about it because all I ever thought was I just wanted to do it, but instead I just said,"I feel you could be my first, you are different from the guys I've dated"

"That's really sweet and I would be honored to be your first"

"W-Wait, why do you want to have….?" I couldn't say it, my heart was beating faster each time I thought about it, he got close to me,"Because you're different also, you are everything that I've looked for" He put one hand on one side of my face and he leaned in for a kiss, my mind was in another place, he did know how to kiss, I wrapped my arms around him and when we stopped,"Are you positive about your choice?" I nodded,"Yeah" I said softly to him and we drove back to the room, when I went in the room, there was a bed made nicely, a bathtub with shower curtains, back then it looked luxurious,"D-Do you have protection?" He pulled it out of his bag across the room,"We don't have to get right to it if you don't want to"

"I do, but I think easing into it could…" I was nervous, I was afraid of what might happen, will it hurt? How bad am I going to be? He instantly got closer to me and he pulled me in for a kiss, we slowly backed up to the bed, he towered over and took my jacket off, that was when everything around me was….gone, it was only him and I, I was scared if it was going to hurt, he was gentle when he went inside me, did it hurt? Yes it did, but surprisingly, not a whole lot like some of my older friends made it sound like. I somehow knew how it worked, Cameron was amazing in bed, after we were done, we cuddled and it was one of those moments that I never wanted to let go ever

The next morning, I woke up before him, when I looked over at him while I was still in his arms, he looked like an angel sleeping, this thought ran through my mind: I know I lost my virginity, but why does it feel like I haven't been one like at all?' and 'I can't believe that my first time was with a Sophomore in High School' then I went to go take a shower, I turned on the warm water and took off my remaining clothes, I stepped in and started cleansing myself then I heard these footsteps,"Sabrina?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm coming in" My heart jumped because I wasn't really naked in front of him the night before, he came in slowly and got close to me, wrapped his arms around me from behind,"You're so beautiful" I looked up at him and he kissed me, running his hands slowly over my body, when he got to my waist, I backed up into him because I was ticklish there, but also kinda sensitive there,"Sorry"

"It's okay, I think it's cute" I smiled lightly, so we just stayed in there for a while until I got a text from my mother asking me when I was gonna be back at the house,"Please stay here for another night?" He asked as I was putting my shirt on,"Do you even have enough money for another night?" He nodded, I sighed and shook my head,"Cameron, I told my mom for one night and she hates it when I tell her last minute that I want to stay for another night" He groaned as he slowly rolled around the bed,"Please...for me?"

"You know that I would if I can, but…" I wrapped my arms around him,"Do you wanna go next round?"

"Yeah sure" The second time was more rough than the first, I mean I'm not gonna lie, I actually liked it rough.

When he drove me back to the block of my house because he did not want to be seen by my mother which I'm not gonna lie, I didn't want my mom to see him,"So when can I see you again Cam?"

"I can make monthly visits, sure my parents won't mind" I nodded,"Hey…" I looked over at him,"How about we do this every time I come here?" I smiled as I looked down,"I'll be honest here, I actually like doing it with you"

"Me too, you aren't like any of the girls that I was with"

"How many have you been with?"

"Just 2, you're my second" I nodded as I took it as a compliment,"Should we be boyfriend and girlfriend then?"

"Sabrina, I like you, I do, but my mother has this rule about dating, I dated once and my mom grounded me for 4 months because of that, I want to date you, but we can't" I nodded,"Understandable, I gotta go" He nodded and said bye to me.

My friend Rhi asked me how it was, of course I did go into detail about it because again, I was 13, I mean Cameron was my first and he was really cute, he was irresistible, it was like every time I thought of him and in bed, I wanted more of him like crazy bad, I wanted him to move over here and we can just do it whenever we want. Rhi was so into what I was saying about Cameron and I,"So you gonna see him again?"

"Well i mean, I don't know, we aren't dating, but we always talk to each other online" She nodded as we were walking to class,"But you seem like you got over Miles" Okay well I didn't exactly then because first love is always something that you can't seem to forget, well Cam and I did go days without texting each other since we've been busy with school and homes, we did become a little closer. He made it to town again, when we met up again, we walked around as usual, we went to this store that had some pretty cool things, it was the weekend again in the afternoon, we made a plan again, I agreed to tell my mom that I'm gonna be with Casey for the night and Casey promise to cover for me whereas Cameron actually came into town telling his parents that he's gonna be at one of his friend's house, we went back to one of the hotel rooms which this time he was being fancy. I came in with a bag and everything was luxurious,"Oh my god, Cameron" He was standing in the doorframe,"I can't believe this"

"Believe it" I smiled as I was looking around,"You're really sweet Cam"

"Anything for you Sabrina" He wrapped his arms around me from behind,"There's also a bathtub in there if you want to" I turned around and tugged on his shirt, I pulled him into the bathroom and we began stripping our clothes as I was turning on the warm water for us, when we got in there, I was in front of him when the bubbles gathered around us, he held me closer to him as he was kissing my neck down to my collarbone, I started breathing heavily and ran my hand through his wet hair wishing to God that he would just take me right there right now.

It only lasted for 2 months, I never told anyone else besides my friends, but they never knew why we stopped talking. After the second time he made it to Seattle, we went for 5 days without texting which was okay until I started getting the symptoms, I was nauseous, it was everything really and it scared me for a week until I decided to text

Text Conversation

Hey Cameron-Sabrina

Hey-Cameron

How's it going?-Sabrina

It's going pretty good, you?-Cameron

I don't know-Sabrina

Wdym-Cameron

I think...-Sabrina

?-Cameron

It's complicated-Sabrina

Again wdym-Cameron

I think I might be pregnant-Sabrina

Oh-Cameron

Well?-Sabrina

Well no offense, but when I saw you, I thought you were pregnant-Cameron

Cam-Sabrina

I said no offense-Cameron

Why would you say something like that-Sabrina

Idk-Cameron

Fine-Sabrina

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I didn't talk to him since then and I think that I might've been, but only Lord knows since I was too chicken to take a pregnancy test

Cameron, you weren't my first love, but you were the first guy that I was ever with sexually, I was comfortable with you, I felt like I was able to talk about anything with you, but turns out that you were only listening to me just so you can get into my pants. You were sweet, but you were also a fake and I pray to the woman who decides to be with you. I want to say thank you for making my first time easy and gentle, now I know how to choose carefully so I can prevent myself from getting hurt physically and emotionally. I know that not all guys are gonna be like you Cameron Redstone, show a girl a good time just for your own needs