Chapter 4

The next day I went to meet the owner or should I say, landlords, I am not quite fluent with English although I have learned the language, it a bit hard to speak it like American themselves, I decided to walk there since it did not far from the maps I saw before walking was quite something I love doing it gets my mind off things but in some areas, it could be dangerous to walk because you don't know what could happen to you, I had that type of fear since Li Wei assault, I was quite scared when walking I prefer walking in the day where there is a lot of people than walking in a dark in an empty street. It was Christmas was coming soon that why while walking I could see the beautiful trees and decoration, it was quite cold so I wore some black leggings and I white jumper and my brown coats just to be comfy

I arrived at my destination and all my attention was on the house, it seems small from the outside but when I was shown the inside I was more pleased with what I saw small 2 bedroom house but cozy on the inside, there were few things in already but I needed to add some more furniture I signed the contract and he left since there were cleaning set I decided to clean it before painting the walls, not knowing how to was the hardest part since I did not know people here in America I had to do it by myself.

Throughout the week I was watching YouTube videos on how to paints rooms, I ask Li Jun for some advice and that old man know quite a lot of things and after hours of listening to the instruction on what needed to be done and not I have finally known what I needed to do so, I decided to paint it finally. It did come out quite good that I have a video called LI Jun and Li Qiang to see my masterpiece.

" so what do you think my piece of work," I said to the both of them while showing them the room sometime I spoke to the English since there have been to England before so English was not an issue, Li Qiang is English so her English name is Clarissa jones but after living in china with her husband she changes her name

Clarissa smiled and Li Jun clapped his hand and said "well-done sweeties who could think that you're a great artist" he grins at me

" Are you mocking me or praising me," I said

" praising you, of course, you have done a very good job finishing it in one day even I could not do that," he said sincerely

"thank you I couldn't do it without your amazing teaching," I said praising him more because it was quite true if it was not for his help I would have failed it

"good kiddo maybe we could come to see you next year what do you think," he said

" that a good idea," I said and Clarissa smile at me I told them to call tomorrow and hang up and left the house.

By Sunday I started to be furniture that was already brought in the house since the following week I would be too busy with work and schools, I had applied for scholarships and was accepted so far most of my life been working fine without my parent and by Friday I were to start going to school.

Today was Monday I went to work quite early since I was so excited when I arrived I was shown the whole place and was told what to do since I was new I was given less work than others.

After a few weeks of working there, I had gotten used to it since the café was in the city there were many business companies nearby and their comes quite often to buy the meals or coffee and today I was in the cashier three men came forward to order something they seem to know each other the first one ordered than the rest of them since there were more occupied with the phone.

"excuse me what can I get for you two" after saying that I notice that they all look straight at me this made me a bit scared and panicked about why they were looking at me like that, then James came and told me they wanted me at the back, I knew he did that on purposed seeing I was quite influenced by these businesses men and I quite appreciated that.

After what happened last time I try not to be in the cashier again, now I had to worry more about school college was hard but I was doing great I found out that amelia and James go to the same college as me so we hang out most of the time this had made us closer to each other, I found that James was gay and he's parent did not yet found out about it. It was quite nice having a friend open up to you I told him that I would support him no matter what situation he comes across.

It has been about 2 months now it was November the 26th and it was thanksgiving, Patricia the owner of the café had invited everyone to her home to celebrate it, in the evening James drove us there and there was everyone that work in the café I got to know few of them and it was a good day for me since this was the first time I could interact with so many people and not worrying that they could harm me.,

"you know the guys that you were scared by are super rich you are quite lucky they never come when I'm in the counter but they came when you were in the counter I would love to see them just smiling at me," said Esma one of my co-worker who loves rich guys I was not interested at these kids of things that why I did not bother to respond her

"Our Rose is pure stop filling her ears with your dirty thought," said amelia taking me away from her while laughing when she saw Esma's face later that evening we decided to leave for the night.

The next weeks has been the same routine work, school and home since my house was finished I got to live in it comfortably and today was Christmas eve and I heard the doorbell, when I opened it I saw James at the door crying I knew somethings was wrong since it rare to see him crying he came in and still couldn't stop crying so I decided to call Amelia in which she arrives at my house quite fast and we were waiting for James to calm down and explain to us what was happening

"I finally told them" then I and Amilia look at each other because we understand what was happening but we let him continues what he had to say it good to have people who could support you when you have a problem but by keeping it in it will just suffocate you and even kills you.

" but my dad called me a monster, he said he doesn't want to see me calling him dad anymore," he said crying it was even worst been called a monster for who he is many other people suffered from this because they are gay and been called horrible word by your family is one of the most painful things because people that you called parent or family can turn on you in one day because you are different or what you are.

"it okay let it all out," I said to him I know what It feels like when your parent turn they back on you

After that night he stayed at my house till he gets a house I had the guest room fixed for him and all his luggage and things were put in the room we watched a movie to cheer him up and also his boyfriend also came after hearing the news so we decided to leave them on they own.

Amilia left since she had things to do and I decided to call Clarissa and Li Jun to know how there are and I told them what happen and if there had any other advice that they think I should tell him to make him feels better, there were quite happy to know that I had friend and people to rely on they said I would be less worried now that my friends can help me.

Things have been going just fine James parent still did not bother to talk to him so his family completely disown him, Amelia, on the other hand, has been dating someone and she is living her best life, whereas I study more to get my degree I wanted to be successful then worry about other matter later.

Wang Chu: Huan father

Ever since I heard that Huan left I have gone mad this girl thinks she can leave her parent and run away as she thinks, I had a great deal to obtain 3000 yuan just by selling her now I can't even do that she decided to be a bitch and run away. Her mother that old slut is worth nothing if she was worth something she would have been sold already now I own these people's money and I don't know how I can pay them.

I knew that those café owners where she worked were the reason she runs away, I hated that couple so much so I decided to follow them that night when they left their café, I speed up the crash by them after that I just drive away with my care when watching them.

I arrive home and I saw in the news what was happening how they were pulled out of the water and there were both dead this made me happy knowing that my slut of child has been living with them instead of her parent and the facts that she runs away when I could have made so much money from her I lot of people wanted her forbidding yet she creates a mess in my life. Should have told these men to come and rape her in the house so maybe I would still have the money to buy myself a drink and cigarette her mother has not been coming home for a year now and doesn't answer my calls, I had a feeling that women were cheating on me now it even conforming. I should just go in the street and pick up a random girl to satisfy my wish what my wife doesn't know is that I was paid to let them have her I knew she was raped even if she did not say anything. I did not care about how she felt as long I got the money that I needed she was just another toy that I played with just like all these girls I had ruined and that made me feel good that making money was this easy and I did not care if those women wanted to kill themselves for getting raped or what they will suffer from it as long I get what I want I was satisfied.

Huan

I had a day off today in work and there was no school today since it was quite hot I decided to stay with some short and shirt, it was quite hot in April and humid I loved it like that. While I was relaxing I receive a call I knew it was from china just by looking at the phone number. But what I heard on the phone broke me to pieces Clarissa and her husband had an accident and there are dead, after Hung up I have broken down to tears, in one day all happiness I had come crushing down I could not believe it that there gone I started crying that I did not realise that James was there comforting me.

Now I understand what Clarissa was saying It felt good to have people comforting you knowing that someone is there to help you through anything, this was devastating "I just talked to them yesterday they said they had everything ready to come today" I said crying more I couldn't accept it this was not happening at all I thinks this all could go and there will be here the next day but only to realised there were gone forever and will never come back.

Christian

Today was a long day at work not only that my mum called crying that her sister who went china died in a car accident, I know how my mum loves he sister so I had to go back home for the funeral mike and luke also came. My mum was crying hard as a son I did not know what to do much since it was the first time seeing her in this situation

"I can't believe this happen now I heard she was coming here in about two days, how could this possibly happen," my younger brother jake said with a tear rolling down my aunty is from Britain just like my mother but she lives in China with her husband from what I know she was supposed to come in two days she said she had someone she wanted to visit in New York when she was about to come to meet her sister

After that, we left because there was a call in the office that we needed to go to London and it required that I was there it was quite hard but I couldn't leave it like that I needed to leave so I told my dad I wouldn't make it to the funeral and he said that was okay after finishing talking to them I left then called blake to investigate the death of my aunty a bit more since it was quite unclear on what happens the police said the person who crashes to them disappear.

Huan

I had exams that day so I couldn't attend the funeral but I did a small ceremony for them in the café with all my co-workers, it was Patricia idea I was planning on having the ceremony in my house but she insisted that it was fine if I do it in the restaurant. The ceremony was small we light up candles everywhere in the room while praying it was a very good occasion for me to mourn and I was quite happy and grateful for them to help me this much.

It has been four months yet I still feel the grief of losing them till now so I have isolated myself I just couldn't cope with everything I spend most of my days in my house if is not work or school, but today it was different it was my birthday usually I used to spend it with Clarrissa and her husband but now I can't do that anymore thinking about it made me cry so much it was painful thinking about it. I was broke out of my thought when the front door open and James and amelia enter with wrapped gifts.

"happy birthday baby girl," James said and they started to sing for me hearing that made me even cry more because of all the memory flooding back

"hey stop crying," Amelia said while the hugs me

" how about going out that will help you relax a bit what do you think," they said I was not quite in the mood to go out but I wanted to make that effort to at least enjoy myself

"okay help me get ready then" both of them nods then follow me to get ready for the night I decided to wear a black pleated satin off-shoulder dress, Amelia was wearing a Black Mesh Satin Midi Dress and James was wearing a sleeve polo shirt in sparkly mesh in black and rip jeans after getting ready we decided to leave for the club, we took a taxi then headed to the club it was about 30min drive for us to reach there. When we arrived they were a long queue

" This will take longer to enter why not just go home and celebrate it there" but all I got was a big no from them I mean no everyone like going to things like that I prefer going to the library or staying at home, I quite don't understand what made me accept their offer to this place.

"Don't worry I know what to do?" Amelia said then goes to the security guy then say something to him that he let us pass without a problem

"What kind of magic did she used on him," I ask James getting confused

" That a girl magic babe," he said then again it was quite understandable why he let her in, Amelia was a beautiful Caribbean woman with a body of a goddess that no one can resist I was quite slim compare to her. When we enter the club we were hit with the loud music it was quite new for me to see this I normally heard of it but I never experience it till now and the truth is that I could not take it I wanted to go home but the look I got from them stop me from thinking about that

"Don't even think about it, Rose?" James said how can they understand my thought then Amelia when to get us drinks when I try them it burns my throat but I continued to drink it then I didn't even remember anything else that night since we were dancing and drinking.

Christian

Today was annoying working with these investors from England is quite hard they seem to be full of themselves but they are quite good at what they do which is why I wanted to work with them, they were better than those Russian at least I can trust those English investors, after a long day at work we decide to hit the club even Luke came this time saying he needed a drink, when we enter the club we were hit we the loud music so we decided to go in my office I own this club and my office is the better place to have a drink without getting disturbed.

"Well today is quite packed," Mike said to us while looking at the windows in my office it quite has a view of the whole club

"and they are a lot of pretty girls, so I will see you guys later," he said while waving at us we knew what he meant by that

"He doesn't even know how to control himself and he wants to get married," Luke said shaking his head while going back on his phone

"I have a feeling that his wife will be the shit out of him for looking at other girls," I said laughing and Luke nods it was true James can never control himself when there is a woman next to him he has to date her for at least 2 weeks the leave her that is just how he lives. I look at the window at saw this girl she was quite pretty and cute she was wearing a black satin dress she was dancing with her friend I thought, looking at her please me and I wanted to take her home today, I put my drink down I left the office to join her at the dance floor we were dancing for long that everything's went so fast that we were kissing yet she seems new to this but she still ended in my bed as I planned.

Huan

I woke up with a headache I must have drunk too much when I open my eyes I noticed that this was not my room I must have gone to James room then but this was not how James room was I felt a movement in the left side of the bed when I look at the person I almost screamed but I maintain myself what have I done how could end up In a stranger bed, I started moving slowly trying not to wake him up when I got dressed then left the place never looking back.

When I went back home James looked at me with a worried face and Amelia with a smirk

"where were you we looked for you everywhere yesterday," he said hugging me he such a cry baby

"you should have asked more how was the night and who was the lucky guy," Amelia said looking at my messy clothes

"Just don't ask how I ended up in someone be," I said going to my room and they both follow me asking me to explain to them what happen I have told them the whole story and how the guy was good looking but I left in hurry to remember him and that I wish not to meet him again. I decided to get on with my life I was about to be transferred to France in 3 weeks baking has always been my dream now going to work there was a dream come true. I decided to start parking already since I would be living with all my friends I should at least spend more time with them it was the most painful thing to do leaving them then going to be alone again.

Today was the day I had to leave I was provided with a house already in Paris and where I would work today was the day I would leave all of them again but we would stay in contact.

"do you have to go can you not stay with us," Amelia said crying while we just hugged James, on the other hand, did not say anything he knew how much this meant to me and he respected my choice

"don't worry we will come for a holiday in Paris, et on vas mange ton gateaux," he said with a French accent that made us laugh (and we will eat your cake) at least he tried

"Okay I need to go or I would miss my flight"

" Okay have a great flight bae" they both shout and I wave at them

After 7 hours of flight, I finally arrive in Paris, it was beautiful just like in books and movie they were already a drive for me when I was the apartment[1] I was gonna leave-in I was even more delighted. The living room was simple, they were a grey couch with yellow and white pillow, a small TV but what I loved the most was the carpet.

The apartment was cozy just like my house back in New York, I fell in love with Paris straight away I started getting putting all my stuff away, then decided to go for a walk but when I went outside it was raining heavily outside and it was dark as well this was beautiful that I feel like dancing in the rain. After getting wet a bit I decided to put out the umbrella I brought after a long walk in Paris I decided to go home and sleep on the way I decided to grab something to eat. After that, I went to bed dreaming about how I was about to start a new life but I did not know that all the happiness was about to fade away soon by a big News that I got.

It has been a week now that I have moved to Paris and things been going quite good although I have gained quite an appetite and I am more tired, I thought at the beginning of work I would be quite ready for it now I feel like a pregnant woman when I thought about that I realized that my period hasn't come about two months now. I run to the pharmacy that was closer to me to get the pregnancy test maybe it was just my imagination

"please be negative I can't deal with this right now," I said but it seems like my prayers were not answered because what I saw in that stick brought tears to my eyes It was positive I couldn't take this I took my back and call for a taxi heading to the hospital, I was not ready to be a mother at 21 this was too early. When I went to the hospital I was told it was not appropriate to abort the child since it has grown already, I did not know what to do now I was lost but what made it worst it what I saw on social media it has been about 6 months now since Clarissa and her husband died the person who crashed to their car was arrested but I did not think it will be my dad, I couldn't believe it how can all the things I try to avoid are hunting me till now. I could not believe it he was also arrested for rape and other crimes mentioned I couldn't even look at it anymore this was a disgrace, my father was an evil criminal the man I live with for 18 years of my life turns out to be a rapist and murder. I cry all night the next day I call my work and told them I couldn't make it I was too sick to even leave my bed after the call I made sure to call Amelia and James they said they would take the first plane tomorrow to come and see me. I slept again that night crying my eyes out for the whole day I couldn't eat anything because I keep on throwing up in the afternoon I heard the doorbell ring and that was my two friends hugging me

"hey don't cry baby it gonna be all right," they said comforting me that made me cry even more after calming down I explain to them everything

"so what do you plan to do with that baby" James ask me

"I don't know," I said flooding my legs and then looking out of the window I had no idea what I should do with this baby now that I can abort it I could only keep it

"Maybe you could keep it at least, that just my opinion maybe this is a blessing in all the bad things that happen to you," she said maybe what she said made sense but I was confused why now it could have come when I was stable enough I stop feeling bad and blaming the child it was my mistake and I was going to fix by raising this child and giving it the love I had never had, maybe this is a gift from God to make up for the suffering I went through after that though I finally made a decision

"I am gonna keep this baby," I said looking at them seriously.