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I walked back to my room to see her lifeless body with the mask that was helping her breath over her nose. What I saw in her journal and Levi’s words hit me so hard. I wanted to get close to her but I was scared she would wake up and see me. 
I didn’t deserve to be close to her after all I’ve done yet I couldn’t stay away from her. 
I went to the bed and feel on my knees, the tears in my eyes had made my vision blur so I blinked to let them flow freely. 
“I’m sorry Elisa,” I mumbled, my eyes on her burnt hand….the same hand I burnt. Looking at it brought all the memories back and I fucking hated myself. I hated myself for everything I had put her through and I just wanted to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger.
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Marrying your seventh grade crush and first love was a dream come true for Elisa Davis. She had been in love with Nikolai Smith since she bumped into him in seventh grade. Who wouldn’t fall in love with him? Nikolai had the looks, popularity and money. 
So when she found out that her father had sold her off to pay the debt he was owing Nikolai’s father, instead of being mad, she was rather ecstatic because her dreams have finally comes true. But Nikolai feels the same way she feels? Will he ever feel the same way he feels? Will he ever reciprocate his feelings? 
Why are there too many secrets? Can the couple handle what life throws their way?

In HOLY Matrimony

My gaze met hers as I began to recount the past, a hint of nostalgia in my voice.

"Back in high school, Elisa, I didn't know your name, and I did have feelings for you, but I was afraid to admit it to myself. At the time, I was caught up in a web of expectations and peer pressure. My friends had this whole plan for me to date you and I didn't see the need to though. I am sorry about that though."

I paused, remembering those days when the pressure to conform had been overwhelming. "I was young and foolish, and I allowed myself to be swayed by their influence. I thought it was easier to go along with their plan, even though it meant hurting you in the process."

Elisa listened intently, her eyes locked onto mine. "I regretted my actions almost immediately," I continued.

"Is that why you use to give me those pet names each day?" She asked with an unreadable expression on her face and I knew immediately she was hurt.

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