Chapter thirteen Trust

Chapter thirteen

Trust

As mine and SZ's friendship grew, so did his lies; I was just blinded by them.

It had got to the point where me and SZ hung out as much as possible and we even shared cakes with each other at lunchtime.

His lies grew though and I wish I could have seen it at the time.

"So I spoke with my girlfriend about what JF did to you, and she feels sorry for you,' he looked at me and paused 'she feels so bad that she has said there's a way to prove her wrong, that you aren't a virgin; she trusts us and only us to have sex with each other and that we won't cheat on her"

I was shocked. Didn't having SEX with him mean that we were cheating on her...?

Oh man, I was so confused... What was I going to do?

It didn't end there though.

I go to Duke of Edinburgh with my friend NS and she told me something that shocked me.

She said that he had asked her for sex too.

This made me angry.

You'd be surprised what anger does to you.

For me though, it was like people plant feelings in my head, this has happened all my life.

So you can imagine what came next...

I didn't have sex with him but he was very convincing...

He kept saying that its make me feel better, that my headaches would disappear, that he'd be gentle, etc...

I nearly walked in front of a car on a road because I was so distracted by what was saying...

The next thing that happened was he asked me if I loved him, now, as I said - I feel like people plant feelings in my head; so you can guess what my answer was.

"Yes"

And of course, this put me further into my downwards spiral, and down and down I went