Prologue

I don't know why I'm acting in this way and it feel something strange to me.

I can't determine who am I now, standing and staring in front of the mirror.

I'm frequently staring at it to see my reflection where I'm regretting the day I saw myself, wearing a white outfit of gown, walking in the sanctuary where both side of runways are surrounds by various kind of flowers and other stuffs, people are cheering to both of us, while the guy, my fiance is in front of the altar, waiting to his partner which is me.

While walking, I saw my parents crying in happiness and adoration, but unlike the feelings they felt for me, I don't feel the same way.

Marrying a guy you didn't know is such a dread and mortification things happened in my life, as a woman and individual.

They deprived my freedom of speech, my freedom to choose and my freedom to live freely.

I don't want to be involve in the life where things become messier than my past life.

But I don't have any chances to fight for the right or maybe to speak to hear my voices, to hindered them.

I don't want to be against in their decision 'cause I'm the only one who will suffer at the end of the day.

It seems like I'm paying indulgence by marrying a strange man.

*sigh*

I remember the day where my dad called me to announce his important announcement.

"Twilight, I already saw the guy who deserve to be your husband. He's the son of my friend in company back then. He's too massive, elegant, rich, and especially, a handsome guy that fits to my beautiful daughter, my only unica hija, you Twilight" he said one by one by his flowery words.

He commended those guy 'cause he will benefit to this agreement if ever I agreed with his proposal. And as usual, he's not my father for nothing. He wants all things flows according to his plan and I don't want it 'cause it will affect me, especially the decision I want for myself. Tsk!

He's searching for a long time to a guy who will make my decision changed, but he never succeed to his plan, never and ever he can changed the decisions I made for myself! I always ignore his proposal. I've always find a way to disagreed in his proposal.

As a matter of fact, I don't like arranged marriage from the start, especially to a guy who didn't exist in my life then will appear in an instant in front of me to declare that he'll be the one who will be my soon to be husband, like wtf is happening?!!

In exasperation, I immediately respond to his non-sense announcement.

*sigh*

"But Papa, I don't like a guy you proffer, all of them is just a waste of time and a burden in my life" I reasoned out. I answered him in a rage tone from the other line.

I heard him sighing after he knew my response and I felt his mood become more serious than earlier.

"Twilight, listen to me.!" he said without considering my respond.. With his baritone and dark color in his voice, it makes me feel shudder 'cause of the depth on his tone and ofcourse, his serious aura.

"According to Mr Müller, if I can't arranged the marriage between you and his son, he will cancel the agreement we made, and you know that they shared a big funds in our company. It will be a big loss in our company if they cancel the business proposal. So please, make a way for the betterness of our company, don't be too selfish darling" he added. It feels like he's convincing me and tricked by his sugarcoat words.

"But Papa, how many times do I have to tell you that I'm older enough to make a decision for myself?! Aside from that, its not on my business to deal with that thingy. And one more thing, I can't see myself now marrying a man in an altar... All I want now is to pursue my goals, to reach my dreams and to explore around the world. So please, considered my decisions too and don't make me a bait in the fish you desired!" I exclaimed in anger.

"You're too selfish!! You're too irresponsible, how dare you to answer me in that way?"

"But Papa!"

"Stop Twilight!! Don't make me mad. I woke up with a good mood, please don't change it by your vexatious response!"

"But—..."

"But, but, but, I said stop! Whether you like it or not, you're destined to married the son of my friend. You will follow what  I want for you or else you'll sleep in pavements! Do you understand?" he shout at me then he ended the calls afterwards.

I was left thinking the last words he said.

"You will follow what I want for you or else you'll sleep in pavements! Do you understand?" it repeatedly plays in my mind.

In astonishments, I become speechless and I did nothing to protect myself.

The line between my father and I ended after he got mad at me.

I sighed in dissapointment and loneliness. I tried to forget our wrangle and the tension it made to both of us.

I get back into my room to lie down. I currently ascending on the staircase when my phone rang.

I get it inside my pocket.

There's a text message that was sent in my number!

So i read it.....

To Twilight:

Mr. Müller's son will visit you three days from now. I sent to him your address to easily find you. Hija, don't make me feel disappointed to you. Show your worth in our company. Don't make me mad, understand? I trust in you! I love you, my unica hija!

Ps: Be prepared. Show to him the Seleste's charm. Make him satisfied. I believe in you darling! Bye. said by papa.

I shake my head because of his statement. He's doubtless to the decision he made and it can't change by anyone once he declared what he want.

I lie down in my bed and close my eyes, hoping I can forget this day.

Three days from now, those guy referred by papa will come in my house and wedding arrangement is destined to be happen.

For him, the agreement he made is okay but he didn't care for the feelings I felt towards the guy.

He didn't considered my decisions instead. He decided based on the benefits he can get. He didn't treat me as his daughter, so I don't know where I stand from the start.

Understanding his decision is the hardest thing to do.

I'm thinking on the result of our relationship if ever I married to that guy.

My mind asked me.....

What will happen to our relationship if we induced our feelings to love each other? It will last for a year or it'll give up after all??..... Forcing ourselves will leads us to sorrow and pain or it may lead us to another way?

I didn't see the guy they offered, we personally didn't know each other and I can't feel any affection or atraction towards the guy.

We're not lovers to considered since it's so called an arrange marriage.

If ever we enter in a relationship, it will be a shallow and a forcefully relationship. Plain and simple.

But for now, one thing is for sure, I don't love the guy and I hate him, from head to toe!!

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