Hurt

An ordinary day, I felt something going wrong but I could not know what , I felt that it was the last day that I should enjoy, perhaps it's the end, a smile on my pessimistic face, which I did not see for a long time, how much I hated I saw the reflection of my feelings in the mirror, I was afraid of it as if it was a monster waiting twice as long to overwhelm me

I wore my best clothes, and the joy still adorned my face. What will they do today? Will he walk beside me as usual?

I got out of my house, hurrying to get the last bus, I saw him walking far away so I tried to run , his step was quick. When I saw him, my smile reached my ears, and my eyes suddenly filled with these clear pearls. I do not know why I feel this feeling now.

~ Who are you? Did the Aliens kidnap you ?

~ i was kidnapped by the vampires and became like a waterfall of blood

~ Did you laugh?

~ Obviously, yes

~ Ha ha ha

I was walking behind him while he was trying to walk slowly. The horrifying school road became short and a paradise when he was with me. Taste me recently on the meaning of life and the meaning of longing but despite all this bad feeling occupies me, perhaps because I just didn't have the habit to give him more attention, I let him go to his friends while I was heading to my closet. I saw some people forming a circle around me, but I didn't give them much attention either, as my slogan today is don't care about anything , it's just my imagination manipulating my nerves.

I heard some of them whisper and silence when I walk near them, they give me that look that makes you suspect of yourself, that makes you carry all the blame of the world on your shoulders, a look of disgust and contempt when I opened my treasury I fell and fell out of it embossed a few words but it spread in my being anxiety, fear And all the feelings I usually carry with her except today

It was the worst day of my life. Yes, worse than before. They kept pushing me, throwing things at me, and trying to beat me, maybe even killing me, though there was, for my sake, trying to stop them and defend me while I surrendered to it, he knew what was going on but he refused For fear of hurting my feelings, he used to repeat to me whenever I asked about the argument and the proof that I do not need to know that. I just have to hold out for a little while forgetting his role. I was an easy target for them.

I asked the teacher if I could go to the bathroom for a short time because I didn't feel well, and he ended up accepting against his will, I locked the door on my soul and my tears started to roll without a reason, maybe there is, but I did not want to admit to myself I was just a coward abstract and powerless, I asked as a river on my eyelids making it blush as if I was drunk I sat there for a while that I could not appreciate, I think of Everything and in my sample life without finding a solution or meaning, when I went out, there was a group of girls talking to each other, when they saw me suddenly with silence and a mockery smile on top of their sinister and mysterious features like hyenas in front of their prey

Someone pushed me back ~ What's wrong with everyone today, did someone post something inappropriate or incited them against me? ~ I thought for a moment while another one pulled me from the strands of my hair to drop and ran to the toilet where my head dipped inside without being able to take my breath, one after the other, roles rolled to torture my dead body, the corpse that is exposed and the masses photographing it, a corpse that no one can Get to know them. The ugliest mutilations have been distorted. What they are doing now is the biggest crime that should be played against, but why does he care about my dead body? Perhaps they will bury me in a forest or throw me in a river Where will my body float until I eat or burn me, I no longer feel my organs, I surrendered and walked the easy way which is death easily, I began to lose consciousness from the large blood that splattered around me while I fell into a coma I heard a voice From afar, the voice of a man I know, I was shaking with fear whenever I heard the notes that made his rough voice

~ I warned you, you will regret your life, the life of humiliation that you are living, go to hell

I tried to move, but there was no point in that. The colors started to darken, and here I am fainting in the middle of a pool made of my own blood.

I feel a strong headache, my body hurts, and a bright light makes me faint sunlight, vampires in some fairy tales, but it was not just fiction, when I opened my eyes I was still there, in the same position that I had left earlier, in my pool of blood, torn apart My clothes but I did not remember that one of the girls tore them violently but when my eyes fell under my stomach and I saw that this part was bloodstained I finally understood what happened to me, I cannot realize and understand, my mind did not want to work more, my body refused to move and my tears began to fall.

I was there in the middle of that pool lying down, unable to move and unable to speak, all I could think of was my cursed life full of trouble and no longer like this when no one believed my story, my nose is red and my eyes started burning me from the severity of the accumulation of tears, a sea of ​​tears that It expresses my grief and compassion for myself, if I hadn't resisted last time and hadn't even lived ...

Black thoughts started with the arms of the night flooding my mind and making it flood with many of them. I got excited about it and gathered the last of my forces around my body to stand on the toilet and move myself forcibly away from me. I was fighting myself.

The first place I thought I could escape to is my roof, and here I am standing on the edge, but I can't just go like this, what about it? I look a little selfish but I do not want to go without saying goodbye, I took a prominent coating and wrote where we used to sit a whole that made me cry and burn from the inside, a phrase that expresses the past and the present without forgetting the future, I put a sheet inside the blanket so that he might find it or throw it and then again stood on that The edge, some people think I am a coward for not facing others and fleeing like an inventory, but that has exceeded my strength for many years and I will not be able to more. Sorry, O world, I am just a mistake., I just want to fly high in that sky.