Skipping. Again?

Sept. 9th (Thursday)

As I walk through the halls of my high school, I take the time to think over the week.

Monday passed in an agonizingly slow pace, Tuesday and Wednesday being the exact opposite of that. Now that it's Thursday, I can't help but feel like the week has passed by quickly.

I sigh just as I arrive in front of the school's office. Before going in however, my eye catches a mop of brown hair being, slightly, pulled by a familiar face. Instead of continuing, I can't help but feel curious from what I saw.

What if someone is getting bullied? What if something bad happens but I can prevent it? These thoughts quickly solidify the decision to check out what I saw.

Upon arriving at the end of the hall, where I saw the two guys, I can't help but feel a little disappointed with what stands in front of me. Straight through a door leading outside stand two guys a little older than me.

I sigh and stare at the duo, feeling even more disappointed than before, and walk through the only thing between us.

"Oh! I didn't see you there Soul." Aseo smiles, eyes looking into my own.

"Oh shit." Ezial mutters under his breath, quickly putting a cigarette away.

I can't help but sigh again, "Aseo."

"Yes?" He questions.

"Are you skipping…again?" I ask, and I'm worried that he can hear the disappointment in my voice.

Aseo casts his gaze to the floor, arm going up to the hold the other, letting me know he did hear it.

I sigh, yet again, and quickly try to explain my thoughts to him.

"I'm not mad, Aseo, just a little disappointed. This is your decision, but, I hope you're not doing this because of Ezial. You're a good student, a good person, and I don't want you becoming like him." I finish off by moving my head in the direction of my brother.

At the mention of his name, my brother begins to listen.

"Say what?" He asks, and I can't help but shake my head.

"Nothing" I respond.

Aseo stays in place, actually, no one moves.

It stays like that for about a minute and I feel like I should probably go.

I turn myself around and begin to walk away without another word. Sadly, I can't say I'm not surprised. I mean, who would choose an old friend, maybe even a mere acquaintance, over a crush, maybe even a love. I know I certainly wouldn't and I'm quite sure that Aseo won't.

I make it halfway through the hall when a sudden wave of emotions hit me. Well, in a way they aren't really sudden.

It hurts, though.

No one can deny that they'd be hurt if this happened to them.

The person you love doesn't love you back, that hurts, but it doesn't hurt as much as seeing them choose another person over, and over again.

Especially when said person is the worst out of the whole human race.

I know that hidden under all those layers, my brother is not who he appears to be.

He wasn't always like that, though; from what I remember, before I left, he was a great person. He cared for me, played with me, and loved me. He gave everything and expected nothing, however, somewhere along the way of us being apart, he lost that love. Sometime during our time away, he lost himself and I'm not sure if he'll ever find it again. I'm not even sure how he lost it, either.

It hurts to not be loved by someone romantically, and it hurts to lose the love someone once gave you. Thing is, it hurts the most to see the two people who don't love you, together.

I know my brother and Aseo aren't dating, but it brings me so much pain; to watch Aseo, my love, and Ezial, who no longer loves me, interact, brings me so much pain.

The day went on, yet I barely remember what happened.

After the skipping incident I didn't pay much attention to anything else. The whole thing kind of dropped my mood but I tried my best to not let it effect others.

Things didn't go as planned, though.

On my way home, I decided I'd relax and do things that would make me happy. I actually smiled while thinking of fun things to do. What awaited me at home, however, was something I should've seen coming.

When I walked in, I greeted my parents; they seemed surprised, yet content with my new mood.

Walking further into the house, I walked past my brother's room. Curiosity took over and I peeked in to see if he was home. What I saw? Aseo, of course.

Ezial was sleeping on the bed, Aseo looking up at him from the ground. He stared at my brother with such a loving gaze, it hurt. Those deep, beautiful, blue eyes held so much love, but the little pain in them didn't go unnoticed.

He was going through something similar to me; he was feeling the pain of unofficial rejection as well.

Staring at him only made my mood go down, so, with a heavy heart, I turned away. I made it into my room, wishing I had never looked inside the other, and threw myself onto the bed.

It's quite funny how someone's will to do something can disappear much quicker than it arrived.

It's funny how two people can have the same problem, just with different people.

Life works in funny ways. Love hurts in them, too.

So many things are ironically funny that it's not funny at all.

There are so many types of love out there, yet they all had to come with prices.

Romantic Love? Hurts. Family Love? Hurts.

All love hurts, so, is it really worth it?

My thoughts are cut off by the sound of a ringtone. I barely have the will to pick it up, but I manage.

I wait for a second but hear nothing.

"Hello?" I ask, bored.

"Hey Soul! I've noticed you've been kind of down lately, so I was wondering if you'd like to hang out tomorrow?" He made the last part sound like such a question that I couldn't help but chuckle a little.

"I made you laugh! Good!" He says

"Sooo, is that a yes?" He asks, again, and I can't think of declining.

"Yes." I confirm. He lets out a cheer and we decide to text more later.

"Bye!" He says.

"Bye, Aseo."

I take the phone away from my ear and stare at it with a soft smile. Love hurts….so how can it heal as well?