Repentance

Dia's POV

        How could he just command me?but,as there was nothing I can do except obeying his commands, I just obeyed him and went to the kitchen. However what is the food he wanted to eat?Something named Jacchae or somewhat,but how dare he command me to cook?While I was going to the kitchen thinking about these things I just got a call.It's him!Oh,at last you got it's wrong .

It is good you call me otherwise I will have done it,I answered to call while thinking these things in my mind.but,what happened?he told me,"My PM please hurry and bring me 2 plates of Jjapaguri insted of Japchae and the Queen is also going to come over."

Then finished the call.I just wondered and I felt like queen is gonna caught me so,I should rush.So,I ran through the kitchen and when I entered an old woman came and asked,"Are you the Private Mate of our prince?" So,I answered as "yes mam" and some other maids who were in there started to laugh.

Then the old woman told "I am not a mam ,little girl.I am Maria and I am just a chef in this castle.Follow me.I'll show you the kitchen items you want and this is your recipe " while giving me a piece of paper and she showed  me everything like where is this,how to use it ,etc. by 5 minutes and after she went I started to cook.

Even though I haven't cooked that food before(Actually ,today I heard it) I felt like I have cooked it before.(May be in my past life) but,without thinking about these things I finished cooking Jjapaguri from like 20 or 25 minuts so,I rushed and went to Phoenix's room with these two plates and when I came to the door as the two plates were o my hands I couldn't open the door so,I  said,

"Excuse me prince,may I come in?"

Then I heard he said,

"Who is this?"

So,I answered,

"I'm the private mate sir,I brought you,your meal" I knew it!This bastard know who I am but bullying me by keeping me outside as the Queen was in.

So,he asked, "Who's private mate is this?There are a lot of private mates ."from me in a funny way.So,I answered him patiently and politely,"I'm your Private Mate sir,May I come in?I bought your meal" ,Then he opened the door while smiling.Then I entered while expecting queen is there.but,There were none!!!!!!

Phoenix's POV

           After she said,"I 'm your private mate" I couldn't continue my bulling. So,I opened the door and saw she was out with an angry look on her face.When she came in she just looked around the room and asked,"Where's the queen?" Then,I got it,have she really believed what I said was true? So,I said ,"She told me she won't come " as I didn't want to hurt her.but,it looks like she was angry with me so, she just put the plates contain Jjapaguri on the table and went out but,I stopped her by touching her arm so,she turned while trying to release her hand.So,I yelled"Please don't go,What can I do,about the queen's not coming?" I know,I lied but,to me there wasn't any other answer .

Then she looked like understood ,so I released her hand. She went out but,I knew she has another problem so,I asked "Are you still angry with me for the touchy thing?" I knew it was. Even though she didn't tell me it has changed her a lot. It was just something that I shouldn't ask but,it seems like it was unbearable to her.Tears started to came from her eyes.She ran away from my room and I heard she closed her room's door loudly.

I just wanted to yell.I couldn't understand what has happened to me.Without thinking about it anymore,I ate a plate of Jjapaguri she bought me and it was really delicious.I felt like I had eaten this tasted Jjapaguri before but ,I don't wanna think about it anymore.I only ate one plate I send the other one to Dia by a maid.I want to stop it but,I couldn't.I tried hardly but,I couldn't stop it.Why am I still think about her?

Dia's POV

             I can't keep it up anymore.I really hate him.I always wanted to forget about what happened and forget about this touchy thing but,I couldn't.I knew I was bothering because of it but,I don't want to pretend like nothing happened.However it was the truth and I had to admit it.I jumped to the bed and started to cry.

While I was crying,I heard a knock on the door so,I went and opened it.There was a maid and she gave me a plate of Jjapaguri!!!! Without telling anything,I brought it and closed the door.I didn't want to eat but,I ate as I remembered in my past,my best friend used to say"Eating is more important than anything" as I couldn't remember my past very well, I always tried to keep my past safety by remembering it.However that memory helped me to warm my self so,I just slept after changing my clothes.

Next day morning,

            I woke up by the sound of the alarm and as I was hired as a student,I got every morning free from my work.So,I washed myself and wore my new uniform.Actually it brought me an uneasy,as even though this academy (B.W.T - Best Werewolf Trainers ) don't have much exams but,have an uniform.(ok,I know I am really stupid)

              After I came out from room,to get my breakfast(yesterday,Maria told me she would prepare my breakfast) I saw a lots of maids are crying outside from the Phoenix's room so,I asked from them,"Why are you crying?"and they said me,"Prince isnot waking and if he late to go to school today as well,Queen will fire us all" .

I just felt like my body is burning.How dare he just.... I opened the door and went insid therokm while closing the door. "Who would you think that you're" I yelled at him and I just started to hit him by one of his pillows. Even though he didn't wake up,and as I have nothing left to do too,I just pour the glass of water (which was on the table) in to his face.So, as I thought he woke up suddenly and I just rushed and tried to went away from his room before he saw me,but I couldn't. He caught me."Why are leaving so,fast?" And he asked from me but, without answering,I went out.

After went to the school,

          It was a really nice academy a lot more than my previous one. I really like it.As same as my before academy,any of the girls didn't talk with me but,boys did.In our class the monitor was "Rafael"and his best friends were "Sam,Daniel and Victor " They were really nice and they even told me about their girlfriends. But,the problem was all these guys' girlfriends were trying to be the girlfriend of Phoenix!!!!!!

I was really exited,after hearing it but,I tried hard to not to show any difference in my face.So,I just evaded the eye contact.However,I didn't see him all over the time.May be we aren't at the same class.

After school ends,

         While,I was going to the bus stop,I could feel like someone is coming after me.So,I turned and shocked after saw him.

Phoenix's POV

            I knew that was she.I waited for her to come and woke up me but, I was really upset as she threw water to me.However,without thinking about it,I went to the dining room after I got ready, to caught her but,she wasn't there.So, I didn't eat and I asked from the grand mom that why my private mate is not there when,I am taking breakfast but,she said me that as Dia was a still a student she could avoid the 1st half of the day for her educative purposes and when the queen heard it, she said,"If you want her to be there in the breakfast, She should be".From after what happened in the past,this time firstly, I felt like I really needs her help but,could I asked for it?No,I shouldn't.I have great experiences where I asked her help but,this time I should do this by my self.

I went to the school and wondered seeing that Dia was talking with some boys.It seems like she was totally enjoying our school as she looked so much happy.(ok,ok I know I was spying on her but,is it a fault?)Then after the school,ends I followed her and while I was following her ,she just turned suddenly and she saw me.Then she asked,"Why are following me?" and I just said truth this time."I want to pay back you for what I have done.Tell me what should I do to repay?" I asked from her and she just smiled loudly.

She said,"You wanna pay me back ,huh" while walking towards me.Then unexpectedly she grabbed my chin and pulled me towards her and I felt my lips touched her slty lips and at the samr movement I just shifted bodies with her.Then she ran towards her bag and got a knife from his bag.The she putt off my shirt and just draw a line on my stomach by the knife.blood started to flow and even though I was in her body I felt the pain.I couldn't bear it.I started to scream and then ahe came near me and she again pulled me towards her and My lips felt hers again and actually it helps me a lot.Even though I was bleeding, I felt her lips.The feeling which was risen from my body stoped the feeling of pain.

"If you want to pay back,then cut yourself until you get fainted" she said and She started to go.I knew she was so much sure of what she was saying.but,I wanna prove her about my self,actually from my entire heart I was not regretting about the touching thing because I truely new that I didn't did it for enjoyment.From my entire life, I wasn't confident about anything I did as doing this.

"You want me to do it.Then there you go" I said.She just stopped and turned with a question look on her face.I started to cut my own stomach and the pain started to rotate on my body. but,I continued it as this was the only way I could do to pay her back. And even though, I felt I can't bear it anymore I didn't panic. I continued to cut myself. Everything around me started to be dark but,the only thing I considered was the feeling that I had when I kissed her.