The terror builds up

*guys sorry in advance 4/8 drafts I'm writing right now are sad. So many of you just have the most amazing story lines and most of them are pretty dark or just really really sad so anyways. Thanks for the idea Maria!

TW: language, abuse, vivid depictions of SA

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-SB

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Draco hated being treated like lesser just because he was a civilian. Yeah sure he wasn't an auror but so what? It was his boyfriend that was missing and he'd be damned if he sat around while they got to go search for him. He slammed into Kingsley's office.

"I'm coming." He stated.

"Draco we've talked about th-"

"No. No shaklebolt you don't know them like I do. He's out there with those... those monsters and I can't stay pent up in here. What they're doing to him right now... I can't go home and do nothing Kingsley, and you can't stop me from coming with you."

The head auror sighed, leaning back in his chair.

"Alright kid you can come. But let me be very, very clear. You, Mr. Malfoy, are not in any way in charge of me or my men. You are merely coming along."

Draco nodded. "Loud and clear."

***

'Die. Please. I just want to die. Diediediediedie'

That's all Harry was thinking as he stood here naked on a stage, men examining him like some kind of toy.

"Is he pure?" One man asked. There was a glint in his eye, a wickedness that scared Harry out of his wits. Harry knew him from somewhere. He was a death eater maybe?

"Yes sir he's a complete virgin. First use has a two hundred galleon added cost because you'll be paying to break him in.." The man who had beaten and taken Harry said.

"Lovely. What's the top price so far?"

"Ten thousand galleons sir."

"I'll triple it."

"Sold." The man grinned.

Harry shivered.

***

Draco slammed the door open on two men with one helpless girl laid out under them. She screamed and thrashed as they held her down. Two aurors use electric shocks to knock one out, Draco grabbed the other man.

"Where the fuck is dolohov?" Draco snarled.

"Oh. Hey kid. Miss your little lover huh? Antonin is really enjoying his company by now. Heard he sold for thirty thousand galleons." The man snickered. Draco's eyes twitched, his wand drew to the mans head.

More aurors disarmed him, taking the man away. Draco hissed, sprinting from the room. That was the fourth one, and still they were no closer to Harry. Draco was about ready to break down. The thought of dolohov taking Harry's innocence, raping him. It made Draco want to die, cry, implode. His little Harry. Sweet, kind, loving Harry, pinned down by that pig. Draco slammed his fist against the wall so hard the plaster caved in around his knuckles. The rest of the team caught up with him, trying to calm him enough to continue.

***

"Please. Please n-no" Harry whimpered, stumbling back against the wall. Dolohov grinned wickedly, stalking towards the brunette. He grabbed Harry by his hair, using a spell to lock his wrists down against the ground. Harry struggled, screaming as dolohov loosened his belt from his pants. Harry's hands were pinned to the floor, Harry on his stomach. Dolohov forced him to his knees.

"PLEASE!" Harry screamed so loud his throat ached. Dolohov drew closer. "SOMEONE HELP." A blindfold wound tightly around his eyes, a gag tightening around his mouth, and he struggled to screamed.

"You look lovely. Arse up in the air like that. Im going to enjoy this. I'll savor you first though." Dolohov grinned. Harry choked on his sobs through the blindfold trying to struggle his way out of the restraints. Dolohov dropped his pants, stalking over to where Harry was pinned.

"Lube? Nah. I like it better when it hurts them. You won't like it so much, but who cares?" He laughed bitterly, his hands tracing up Harrys shoulders to his hips. Harry sobbed again. He just wanted Draco. Draco's hands were the only ones that touched him, Draco's hands were the only ones his body could ever even partially trust. He had wanted Draco to take his virginity, somewhere special, somewhere important. Now he was just praying he got out of this.

"MMMMFFFmglapAKCKDK" Harry tried to scream as dolohov touched him. His fingers tightened around Harry's erection, snickering when Harry screamed through the mask. Dolohov traced back in between his legs and up to his tail bone. Without hesitation he stabbed his finger in harry. Harry shrieked.Tears poured down Harry's face. It hurt, it hurt badly. The feeling of dolohovs now two fingers wrenching in him made him want to puke. The man's finger nails scraped the walls of his body, making him convulse.

***

—flashback—

"Harry I won't ever rush you. Ever. If you're not ready we'll wait." Draco cooed, his fingers holding Harry's hips gently.

"N-no I want this. I want you." Harry whispered, shaking.

"Are you one hundred percent sure?"

"Y-yes." Harry whimpered.

"Ok. If you ever, ever want me to stop just tell me ok?"

"Ok."

"Alright sweetheart I have to touch you first."

Harry bit down hard on his lip as Draco's finger just barely slid into him.

"Harry? Are you ok."

"Mmmhmm, just a little uncomfy" Harry grunted, trying to ignore the pain.

"Ok baby. I'm going to put two inside you ok? This'll hurt a little more."

Draco peppered Harry with kisses to distract him from the pain, but Harry cried out when the second finger pressed into him. He choked and sat up, Draco's fingers sliding out of him.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry Draco. I know I keep stopping you I-"

"Harry James Potter don't you ever apologize for that. Not ever. You just aren't ready, that's ok sweetheart." Draco kissed him again, pulling Harry in his arms.

"I'm such a wimp though. You're so ready and-"

"Harry, darling you are not a wimp for being uncomfortable with it. It's not easy love. I mean it's literally someone going inside of you, it hurts. And I won't even be mad or sad or disappointed in you for not being ready yet. Ok?"

"Ok." Harry whispered, whining until Draco's arms wrapped tightly around him.

"Besides, it'll make it all that much better when I get to make love to you for the first time." Draco whispered, kissing Harry's head one more time before drifting off to sleep.

***

—flashback end—

Dolohov was not sweet. He wasn't even ok. He was pure evil.

"Damn. Let's see if I can get three in you at once without breaking your pretty arse."

Harry cried and shook when Dolohov jammed three fingers in him at once, forcing his hips back and forth.

"Ok. I think you're ready for my cock. No lube of course. You'll have to learn to like it rough." Dolohov laughed, smacking Harry's rear hard. His erection pressed onto Harry's arse.

"Alright let's see how much you can take in one go." Dolohov said with a grin, slamming into Harry with one quick Thrust.

Harry's scream made a small crack form in the lens of his glasses, but dolohov only kept going. The rough thrusts made Harry shake and sob, begging through the mask to stop but it only came out as "PLSLEMEOWFT"

"Oh yeah. Damn you're tight. I'm totally wrecking your arse by the way." Dolohov laughed.

Harry convulsed, his bones turning to jello. The sharp agonizing jerks made him cry out. Dolohovs rough hands were the only thing holding him up. The pain was almost unbearable, making Harry's eyes burn.

Unfortunately, Dolohov made the mistake of leaving the door unlocked...

***

Draco slammed through the door, expecting another woman to be pinned to a bed. He did not expect to see dolohov, his hand fisted in Harry's hair, Harry's screams muffled by a mask. A blindfold round his eyes. Dolohov smirked as he raped the boy below him, looking up to see the aurors. He jerked from the brunette.

"The stick." Draco said blatantly.

"Draco-" shacklebolt tried to argue

"I won't ask again."

Kingsley handed him the night stick, backing away. He closed the door to keep the others from seeing Harry. When the door opened again dolohovs face wasn't visible. There was too much blood.

"I only stopped because he passed out. I

Intend on killing him very, very slowly the second he wakes up." Draco snarled. His voice was a low growl, even and hostile.

Scariest of all, his voice was truthful.

Harry tried to break the chains away, hearing Draco's voice. The blonde eyes narrowed, his teeth clenched. Draco dropped to his knees, charming the chains away. Harry couldn't stand, blood stained the floor.

"Harry are you bleeding?" Draco choked. He used his wand to shut the door, turned Harry on his side to look at him. His butt had marks all over from fingernail scratches, and there was definitely blood on the inner parts of him, but now Draco was too busy with Harry's mental state.

"Harry are you ok??? God Harry I-"

Harry's arms wrapped choke hold tight around Draco's neck, the brunette sobbed.

"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry Draco I swear I-"

"Harry. Don't apologize for this. Ever. Never ever. I... god are you ok? Did he really..."

"It was horrible. Draco I wanted to die. He... he didn't even use lube, or protection. He was so rough and mean and, and strong and... please don't ever leave me again." Harry broke off with a loud sob.

"Never. I'll never ever leave you again. I swear"

***

Harry couldn't walk, the pain was too horrible.

Instead Draco carried Harry into the house, up the stairs, and to their bedroom.

"Baby you'd feel better if you took a shower."

Harry shook his head, still in Draco's arms.

"Well what if you took one with me? I'll help you wash."

A soft nod and a little whimper from Harry had Draco carrying the boy towards their bathroom.

Tears poured from Harry's eyes, dripping down his face, the water trails visible through the grime on his face.

"Jesus Harry... I- I can't believe this happened... are you going to be ok?" Draco choked, looking at the cuts on Harry's neck and shoulders and chest.

"I just want you to stay with me. And never let me go." Harry whispered, crying into Draco's shoulder while the blonde rubbed his bruised back.

"I will Harry. I promise. Now come on love." Draco hoisted him back off the counter by his hips, pulling the naked boy into his arms.

"You need to take your clothes off too." Harry almost whined.

"Well, yes I suppose I do." Draco breathed with a small smile.

When Draco had removed his clothes and helped Harry into the shower the brunette whimpered, hardly able to move without pain in his abdomen and lower parts.

"We'll just have a bath instead." Draco said, noticing Harry's limp. The shorter boy nodded graciously, letting Draco carry him to the bathtub. It filled pretty quickly and soon they had both plopped in. Harry nudged Draco until he was leaning back against the bath wall, and then Harry turned around and lay back on Draco's chest. He whimpered, pulling Draco's arms around him.

"Feels better in here." Harry mumbled, he turned again, wrapping his legs around Draco's waist. He gasped at the friction he caused accidentally, and shifted away from Draco's nether regions.

"I agree." Draco grinned, leaning up to kiss Harry gently. "I love when you sit like that." He said, adoration clear in his tone.

Harry gave Draco a questioning look, sitting up a little.

"I love when you sit in my lap like that, you're so cute and tiny." Draco said with a huge smile, taking Harry's small hips in his hands. "Missed holding you." Draco's smile faded into a remorseful frown. Harry tilted his boyfriends chin up.

"I don't want to think about that. I don't want you to think about that. I just want you to keep holding me like this, and maybe help me wash."

Draco's sad smile made Harry kiss him. The blonde looked so torn.

Draco was torn.His beautiful boyfriend had been taken from him. And-

"I hate it. I hate knowing that he-" Draco's voice broke so he stopped talking.

"That he?" Harry prodded, his voice a small whisper.

"I hate knowing he has that part of you. I hate knowing that you, my beautiful, brilliant, adorable, perfect boyfriend, had such an important piece of you taken. And most of all I hate..." Draco broke off again, tears pooling in his eyes. He shook his head, his hands tightening on Harry's hips.

"Draco." Harry grabbed the blondes face in his small hands. "Tell me."

Draco shook his head. He cleared his throat "it's nothing."

"Draco." Harry whimpered.

"I hate knowing I wasn't-" the tears spilled over and now Harry understood.

"You hate knowing he took me first."

Draco looked up at him with agony in his eyes, he nodded once and then his resolve seemed to harden, and his expression became pleading. His hands clenched tightly around Harry's hips as if begging him to stay.

"Harry please understand that I'm not ashamed or angry that he took your virginity, it was out of your control. I hate him for-"

"You hate him for taking a piece of me I'd sworn to you. Draco I do understand, and I hope you can forgive me."

"That's just it darling. There's nothing to forgive, it just hurt that that... that monster took something that was ours-yours to decide when you wanted taken."

Harry had fresh tears spilling down his cheeks now.

"I love you. A lot. And I still want you." Harry whispered.

"I love you too. And I want you too." Draco whispered, kissing Harry gently. "We should probably get you washed."

Harry laughed through his tears, grabbing a soap bottle and squirting a small amount of body wash into his hands. He tilted his hand, letting the soap drip down his fingers and onto Draco's chest, the fluid slipping over sloped muscles and soft skin. Harry grinned.

He slowly massaged the soap all over Draco's chest, shoulders, and the parts of his stomach that weren't underwater. When Harry moved onto Draco's hair the blonde shifted, taking Harry's small hips in his hands and holding him closer. The brunette blushed, dropping his soapy hands into the water.

"I love you." Draco whispered, pouring more of the liquid into his palm and carefully beginning to wash over Harry's cuts and bruises. The boy whimpered, cuddling into Draco while the blonde washed his back.

***

When Harry was clean Draco tugged one of his own jumpers over the boys head, helping him step into a pair of clean underwear.

"Are you ready for bed sweetheart?" Draco asked, brushing Harry's hair away from his face and kissing him gently.

Harry nodded, letting Draco scoop him up and take him to bed, the brunette fell into a dreamless sleep, his guardian angel keeping the nightmares at bay.