Chapter 1

I went home right after to bond with my Church friends.

When I got home I immediately fell asleep because I was tired. My life is sad but not porket I am sad my world will stop. Somehow I did not give up on what I went through even though it was painful I still pursued all my plans in life.

Yes, I don't have a family but my past is not an obstacle for me not to continue what I started. Over the past year I have learned to decide on my own because I want to be able to kill myself so that I can stand alone even without them, even without support.

Back then when I went to a Boutique I still had to look for a cheaper price so I could buy clothes. I used to wear clothes even if they were cheap, it's okay as long as I have clothes. Back then, I used to not complain even if my mom insulted me, even if it hurts to think but it's necessary. I needed to get mommy's heart but I was still frustrated I was always being pushed away.

When I was turning 18TH I never experienced that I would dance with a lot of people. I didn't experience the debut once I wondered why the world was unfair. I always get hurt every time mommy pushes me away.

When I turned 20 years old I thought everything was okay even though mommy always teased me, it was okay with me somehow calmed down.

'Graduation day' was my fun then because I graduated as a Doctor. I feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world because I can fulfill the dreams I've had for a long time.

I found out that mommy will attend my graduation day, I'm happy, because my dream will come true.

At the same time I was celebrating because I had finally graduated. I can do what I want. Until one night I will never forget, that mommy kicked me out. It hurts me that your parents reject you even though you know in yourself that you have done nothing wrong.

I don't think anyone will be hurt by how I feel over the years. I thought everything was okay when I found out I had amnesia for some unknown reason. But now it's all clear to me why mommy doesn't like me why I'm being pushed away. Why I once saw in the eyes of my older brother with anger. Now I understand that I once wondered why I was unlucky.

Sometimes I only get happy when daddy and my grandparents are there but sometimes I see in their eyes that deprivation. I just don't pay attention to their deprivation of me, it's important that I'm happy because somehow they accept me. Accept as a family even if it hurts to think that you are not comfortable facing them.

I love the creditors of my life so much I can't even say it personally and at least I know in myself that I love them so much. When it comes to daddy, I even once thought that he had a big shortcoming in me, the word 'lacking' did not prevent me from loving my daddy. At no time did I think he didn't love me. I really feel that even if we're only together once because he's always busy with business, he'll still think of a way for us to bond.

Sometimes I thought that only my daddy cared about me. He always understands me. He secretly supports me in what I want. He doesn't care if he and mommy fight, the important thing is that he made me happy.

When it's my birthday, he always greets me. Even though his schedule is hectic he still has time to greet me. I only have daddy. Sometimes I wondered why only daddy paid attention to me. I once thought that I did something wedding to make them angry ?.

Now I remember that everything is clear to me. Why did I have an accident, why did you 'amnesia' me !.

It's only now that I'm hurting. That's why I have amnesia because I found out the truth, that I'm the daughter of Daddy's other woman.

Sometimes I thought that the staff at the mansion might be unfamiliar with me because I was daddy's illegitimate child. Whenever I think of the word 'son' I'm on the outside. It hurts me every time I remember why my older brother was mad at me. Because her mommy is hurting.

That's why only my father understands me because I am a 'son' of his mistake. I'm just going to think that I'm hurt, why is it that the unfair world hurts me when they make me look like I have no place in them.

My father was the only one who made me feel welcome in the family because my grandparents, at first glance, looked like someone else.

In short I am a 'Bastard child' ....

Suzie came home late from church for her Welcome party. His joy could not be matched because somehow there was a friend who supported him. Sometimes he thought of just giving up but because of his friend he was given hope to continue with his start because if you give up how can you fulfill your dream if you have just given up? so that better be strong than to give up. The word 'surrender' is not in his vocabulary because as long as he lives he will not give up.

Zie's sleep was disturbed when Yuji Medical Center called the hospital where she was temporarily admitted and she didn't really think about staying here in the Philippines. He wants to take a vacation first so he can rest because since his family rejected him he has not stopped working because he wants when their paths meet again he has his own money and a job that he can show them even if he is no longer in the power ofhis parents he could live alone.

Zie quickly got dressed when she found out that the hospital was missing a doctor because of an emergency. When he arrived at the hospital, he could hardly enter because of the influx of patients, many were injured. Others had difficulty breathing due to chest and abdomen injuries because the bus collided with Edsa, leaving many injured. Many begged that they should take precedence, the corner of the hospital was full of tears caused by the incident. The doctors did not cheer because many patients came to the hospital and he was one of the doctors who did not know what to do because of the many injured. They gave first aid to the injured patients one by one.

He was distracted by the old man lying on the stretcher because he was familiar with the old man lying even though his body was full of blood. The co-doctor handled it quickly so he also came to confirm if his suspicion was correct. As he approached he could not understand why his chest suddenly tightened. When he confirmed who was lying on the stretcher, his chest suddenly tightened on the witness.

For the past three years he had no news he was not angry he understood why he did that.

In the past year, he has become more and more irritable, so he took care of the patient himself, who is none other than his Father ....

His father had to undergo surgery because his wound was deep near his heart and his father's head was twisted due to the incident. His co-doctors are unaware that he is taking care of his father because it is in the protocol that it is strictly forbidden that they should not take care of the patient especially if he is a family member. He didn't care because no one knew that his patient was his father.

After his father's surgery. He was able to breathe somehow because even though his father's wound was deep, he was still able to save his father from the brink of death. So he was very grateful that his father was safe.

He didn't even think to show up. He is used to that until he just thinks. Sometimes he wondered where his real mother was. If his real mother is in good condition.

She was eager for the caress of the real mother. So he couldn't blame himself for why he was so anxious to have a mother to be with. Despite her past she still continued whatever she started.

So he was not discouraged, so he sought out his real mother. To let him know why he hadn't been with her for so long.

The thought of ringing his cellphone signal with a call was interrupted.

It was as if he was drenched in water when he looked at who had called. He was forced to answer the call when his cellphone rang repeatedly.

"Hello ... Kuya !!!?" Mentioning the word 'brother' makes him close his eyes.

By the time he had to re -mention words he had long since forgotten.

He doesn't know when his older brother called him last, it's been a long time since they last talked on the phone.

"Zie knows if you're home ..." ehh what now if I'm home what do they care about me.

I did not respond to what my brother said. I might be embarrassed again so I just ignored it.

"... Please comeback home !!! I miss you ..."

I called my older brother to death because I was disgusted with him after all, he said he was teasing me about what an extraordinary life would do.

I'm not so lucky with my family and now I'm going to get into trouble.

Hayyysss .... it's tiring when you're always paying attention.

You always adjust ...