༓》 Reasons To Cry《༓

~The good kind of bad

How much I love all that's bad

Does it feel good to fall off my bed?

How good it feels to dig deeper with a blade.

Never knew how fun it was to draw with my blood

To make art from it's wasted color

There's no strength or power in red

It's a sign of failure.

How good high heels can hurt,

while I wait for a friend who I didn't know liked being a ghost.

I laughed with panic in my eyes when I heard she's sending her goodbyes.

Sweet heartache fills every empty memory

Bittersweet midnight

And since all is beautiful from a distance

you better stay away from me, I want to be your beautiful.

Step away and take a seat

from across the room where you can't see

the agony within me.

But don't you take the attention away from me

For your eyes on me is why I wake up and how I fall asleep,

Dreaming if my secret lover liked the lipstick I wore today.

Dreaming about the day you find me crying,

so I can finally pour you my pain

In a glass

and throw it away; I won't let you taste the fire that burns my eyes and ignites my heart

I'm sure it'll burn you; I wonder how I survived.

I fantasize about what type of sweet you are

what words will you whisper to me as I cry?

How much will I trust you?

How much could I tell you?

Love me and bring down your walls

Be my friend and let emotions thicken between the lines.

Saturated hearts and memories of when we laughed

I relive the sensation of the heavy wind blowing in our face

I could've sworn you whispered 'I love you' but the wind dragged it away

We were called to get inside but I wanted to stay, even if it rained.

How come the moment I long waited to be the one you're rushing with? Leaving me sore.

These clouds won't carry me to heaven but you could

so I beg you to please stay

Do you have any idea how happy you make me?

Love me and don't leave me when it all runs out

I don't want to sell my time to someone else.

I don't want to be with yet another person, to swim in a different ocean

Fills up my heart then leaves me to drown.

Please don't be my reason to cry, you were my 'one last try'.

.comfort.