Chapter 9

Confused is how she felt.

She knew what she felt for Jack was much more than what she felt for Rou but when she thought everything was going to turn out to be ok, on track, the whole reality turned upside down and now she had to go back in time, a time she had no recollection of and pretend to love someone she was going to leave.

She could leave, but she didn't. Maybe out of guilt because she felt like it was her duty to help Rou because he did the same when this happened to her.

After leaving the hospital with Jack, she didn't talk to him for the next few days and this was not because she didn't want to talk to him but because she didn't know of what she was going to do or was supposed to do.

She knew very well that Jack would support her if she was to pretend like Rou's old wife that she herself had no idea of, but she also knew that that would hurt him eventually and she would get hurt eventually too.

With all these thoughts racing in her mind she had a drink or two and fell asleep at the couch in the living room.

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○.•°•.☆.•°*•~°☆°•. LILI's POV .•°☆•°~•*°•.☆.•°•.○

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I woke up in a different place, it all was blurry. I was laying on the bed in an unknown room and My head hurt so much, I was trying to open my eyes but they wouldn't stay open.

I tried to reach for the water on the bed side but before I could hold the glass, my hand trembled and the water jug fell down and broke into pieces, leaving behind the echo of it's breaking.

Someone rushed in, they were talking

"Lili are you okay?" "Lili How are you feeling?" "Lili... Lili...Lili....."

All those voices seemed familiar and something came to surface but it just never could reach the shore until I heard

"Lili, Mom is here okay my love, Mom is here....."

and with that it all blurred out and faded away into distance..

I woke up panting, I was fighting for air and my brain was trying to make sense of this dream that I just had.

Mom... my mother.... I couldn't see her face but her voice sounded familiar and it all felt like I lived it. It was like a lucid dream, I wasn't sure if it was just a dream.

Once I got a hold of myself, my head was hurting but unlike my dream where it felt like my head was hurting because of falling down, I knew my head was hurting because of the drinks that I had had last night.

While standing up to go up, my eyes went to the piece of paper that laid on the table beside the alcohol bottle. I picked it up to read it and the text written on it made me lose my strength, It had "You are living my life, Lili." written on it.

Even though I had drinks last night but remember correctly not having written that on the paper. It was not even my hand writing.

What was happening to me? Why it was happening to me? I wanted to know the answers to all these questions but How? Where should I look whom should I talk to? I wasn't ready to talk to Jack and Rou had lost his memory and he was the only person who knew me in the past, who knew.....

No.... That woman from the office seemed to know me too..... but the last time she saw me, she wanted to kill me and if I even tried to reach out I didn't know if she would help me in this in anyway or I wasn't sure if I could even tell her even a percent of all that was happening to me. But she seemed like the only person who could know anything about me.

I had to at least try to find the truth.

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Lili had to go to the hospital to look after Rou, She then planned on going to The Woman.

She hadn't talked with Jack yet but she knew she had to. Everything was an unwanted mess now and she was struggling not with the outside but from the inside.

Her own mind was playing games on her with realistic dreams that took her to a very different place. And that note of which she had no recollection of.

She just wanted to disappear and go far far away in some other place even universe.

When she reached the hospital, she was nervous, she still had that vivid image of that dream or vision she had that day when she saw Rou with some other woman.

Still she moved her feet slowly without wanting to really do that, when she got on the floor of Rou's room, there she was The Woman standing outside of the room.

Lili slowly made her way to her, she was distressed and still hadn't turned to look at Lili. But as Lili got closer to her, standing right behind her, she saw she was looking at Rou in the room, sleeping.

The woman turned, and looked at Lili without warning she spoke

"Are you happy now?"

"Are you happy that now he is back to being Your Rou as he used to be, devoted to you while you were busy living life?

Does it feel good to have everything you could ever wish for?

It must, It really must feel good to have everything in the palm of your hands."

She spoke softly, though her words made no sense to Lili, she could see that in past her behavior and actions might have made Rou and her distant. That this woman standing in front of her was really in love with Rou, that everything had just twisted and twisted that the tangled mess that they all were in was just too hard to get out of.

"That day...

On Rou's accident I was... there to tell him that I had heard him speak to you last night when he came home drunk.....

That I too had no feelings for him and that he could live his life as he wished and allow her to do the same....

(at this point she had started crying...)

I was in an accident couple of months ago and I remember nothing, nothing at all..... It was hard... Rou at first did try to take care of me but.... He was busy way busier in his work or some other things... I was just trying to find out who I was.... He kept saying that I've changed but... I don't.... don't know that.... how would I?...

No one I knew no one, Rou introduced himself to me as my husband so he was and is the only person whom I know to have known me.

That day when I saw both of you something happened in my mind.... I saw something.... but it wasn't about Rou but that feeling that the vision gave me was similar to that of that hit me from the scene.....

I..... don't..... know... anything

I wanted to try and make it all work but now this... I didn't wanna lie but here I am

I just wanted to start over forgetting the past but look at the situation..."

The woman stood there in shock because the Lili she knew would never cry for anyone, would never think of anyone but herself, she understood that tje person in front of her really had lost her memory..... now she didn't know how to explain her situation to her...

"I..... am Maria....

We... umm.... used to be friends...

But.... you were not the you that you are now..... and so the things back then were different.....

you had broken off the friendship after knowing the truth about me and Rou."

Lili wasn't feeling betrayed or anything, the fact that her own friend did this to her, made no difference. She was at peace knowing someone was here who knew her before, someone, a friend.... Maybe she could help....

She started crying while she promptly hugged Maria.

Where was Lili's life headed now?