Chapter 9

Carlos narrates.

I have been in the hospital for two hours, and no doctor has stopped to tell us how my sister is, I spoke to my parents on the way to my aunt's house, my mother cried and said that she would come in the first plane she found, my father did not You can come on business, I take it very badly since Lina is the light of your eyes.

Aaron is desperate not to get answers that he wants, he has asked every nurse he sees going in and out of the door where the doctors entered with my sister.

The truth is I understand since I am desperate, not knowing what happens inside those doors has me bad, I have already warned Natt to tell Maria and Irina about the event in the cinema. I already want Natt to come to hug her and be able to feel peace since only with her can I forget the problems around me, the truth is that I love her more than I want to accept. Only that the situation with Angelique does not make me feel safe to open up with another person, but I know that Nat can take care of my heart for that as soon as my sister recovers I will confess my feelings.

I get out of my mind when I see the doctor come out and ask about Lina García Santillán's family, Aarón and I got up on a rampage, the doctor told us that our parents' signature was needed to operate on Lina since they had to stop bleeding, I don't know which organ, I stop listening because Maria and Natt have just entered, when she is in the room I lose notion of time and I stop listening to my surroundings, her presence relaxes me and makes me feel safe and lucky but at this moment it only helps me to cope with this situation, as my kind little sister, oh God my sister, I just hope that she gets out of that surgery soon and recovers as soon as possible, so we can go back to what we were before.

Narrates Aaron

Good heavens, this anguish and despair is new, never in my twenty-seven years had I suffered this type of feeling, this fear is greater than the one I felt when my father suffered a heart attack three years ago, I know he is wrong, since he is my father But this fear corrodes my soul and makes me want to change my place with her so as not to see her in such a weak, defenseless state, but I know that she will recover and soon, God will recover first and we can get married.

Think positive that is what my mother told me when I talked to her telling her about the accident in the cinema, "think about good things and you will get good things", that is what my mother said, and no matter how much I think about good things, I am still concerned about the fact that something could happen to him, and that would be my fault, since if I had not met Eleonor that day on a business trip to Germany, none of this would happen. Unfortunately, you can no longer go back in time, now you just have to wait for the operation to finish and they tell us how everything went.

Narrates Natt.

Today in the morning everything was going excellent, dawn with the man you have loved for years and finally turns to see you, and now this catastrophe will be a sign, it will be that I have to get away now or get more involved than I already am in this relationship to later not get hurt, or I have to conquer Carlos, be more expressive and send him signals so that he finally realizes how I feel for him for a long time, tonight I had planned to make a reservation at a restaurant and go to dinner the two of us and talk about things, propose that we try, but it is a very great fear that he will reject me, that my thoughts and emotions are a sea and a tsunami together I have nothing sitting but of something I am sure that this love is true and i want to spend the rest of my life with him. And no one but him.

I only hope that he feels the same but I will accept my father's proposal, go to Spain and finish university there, I know I would leave my friends and family here, but I see it as a maybe, if nothing is achieved with Carlos, just for I am considering that. The good thing that nobody knows this, not even my lifelong friends know it, and I feel bad not being able to tell them, but if something bad happens with Carlos, what I would like is to be alone and think well what continue, since my career is the only good choice I have made, it is the only stable thing, and I don't even let that crazy, I know it sounds like immaturity, silly and childish thoughts, lack of sanity, but so much has happened in My family that no one but Lina knows, I have not been able to tell anyone else, because I feel like they would judge me crazy, someone depressed or I don't know what. I was fine, this problem started fifteen years ago, I was only five years old, it was before I met my friends today, since I met them in elementary school, they were already friends since kindergarten and as who says to me Cole in that group of friends, but well that's another story.

The problem was that my mother was like a normal mother, she was loving, affectionate and we always did things together, until one day of just like that she changed, she became sharp, strict, moody, and we stopped smiling together, we stopped make food and desserts together, everything became so strange and dark for a five-year-old girl, I don't know what problem there was that my parents made the decision to separate, my father kept my custody and my mother, well she left and since then I have not heard from her. I only have a vague memory of a week before everything changed.

Flashback

I was with my mother in the usual ice cream parlor, we were talking about how when we got home we would make a cake and many cookies to give to my classmates and teacher in kindergarten and the cake would be for my family because it was my grandmother's birthday paternal and we would celebrate his birthday as a family.

- Mommy I want the cake to have a lot of chocolate, to have chocolate chips and for the frosting to be chocolate.

- But heart remember that your grandmother is allergic to chocolate- my mother told me.

- It is true, well then that it is vanilla flavor, three milks with orange flavored bitumen and has a lot of fruit as garnish- my grandmother loved that cake.

- It seems to me, we will make that cake- my mother remained static looking ahead, as if she had seen a ghost or someone, I was going to ask but she stopped so quickly that I couldn't.

- Sweetheart, do me a favor, don't move from here, I'll go to the car for something, don't move and most importantly don't turn around, or talk to strangers, okay.

- Yes mom, here I wait.

I stayed there eating my ice cream and thinking of asking my mother for a puppy, because a colleague has one and says that he is very playful and that he is her best friend. So I think I'll ask my mom for one as a Christmas present. I will tell him to help me write a letter to the child God so that he can bring it to me as a gift, because I have behaved well so far this year and I do not do many mischief.

-Natt, let's go or we'll be late.

End of flashback.

It's all I remember from that day, I remember going to my grandma's party that night and the next day bringing a lot of cookies to kindergarten, but from then on it's so confusing, it feels like it's a dream, and I notice it strange but do not comment because I thought it would pass. How wrong I was because it was only the beginning of the storm.

To date I have been to psychologists but I don't know how to stop being a chaos in my thinking and how to do so that that does not affect me any more, however I cannot and it is something so frustrating that if this with Carlos comes to a bad end I do not know What will I do since he makes me feel safe and stop being a disaster in thinking so much about the sentimental.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn't heard that my cell phone has been ringing, God will know since when, he's my father, I don't wait any longer and I answer.

- Well, dad, how have you been?

- Well thank you dear, and you? How are you? How are you and Carlos doing?

- I'm fine, thanks, with Carlos everything is going well, only, Lina is injured and we can't find each other at the hospital.

-What! but what happened?

- I don't know much daddy, I only know that Aarón Carlos and his sisters were going to go to the movies, Lina was waiting for him there and it just happened, Carlos didn't explain himself much and there hasn't been the opportunity to talk about it, I don't want to harass him with questions, I'd better wait until Lina is better and find out from her, because Carlos is very damaged, even if he doesn't say it, I can see it.

- You do good heart, give him his space and when he is ready he will talk to you, well my girl I have to go, I have a meeting in five minutes, I just wanted to know how you were, you greet Carlos and when you see Lina you send my regards and that get well soon, I love you see you later.

- From you daddy, see you later.

I stop talking to my father, when I feel that someone takes my place next to me and it is my mother, or by God it is her.