kiara

My mom has been very happy these past few days I think she has a boyfriend the other day she came back with 365 roses and all sorts of lovey dovey things. We don't really communicate mainly because I find it difficult to communicate with others and well I am a not peoples person ever since my uncle raped me I find it hard to love others or be there for them emotionally. I do go for therapy every week at my mother's asylum it helps well I am making progress I even told my mom that I care about her which is something I have never said to her. I think deep down she blames herself for what Mike did to me but its not her fault I hope one day I can tell her that. Riley is at my crib at the moment you can call me a pervert but I cant help but look at her boobs they are literally calling me. "hey my face is up her" she said that after noticing me staring "lets do some algebra I heard it will be in the test" I was not really concentrating I just wanted to fuck her real bad but I was interrupted by a call from my "boyfriend John" "hey babe" he has a sexy voice I could tell that Riley was getting uneasy so I left the room. "we still on for saturday right" he seemed uneasy "yeah of course we are" I reassured him then I hung up before he could tell me that he loves me I try and avoid that topic as much as possible. I know he is trying but I just cant maybe another lifetime another earth. I went to lock the door and made sure to leave the key behind the door just in case my mom walked in bitch I am about to sin right now. I walked to my room to find Riley butt naked this is what I like about her she doesn't questions. I started kissing her while pushing her onto to the bed. This girl is another thing her moans are soft but dangerous I started eating her up "Kiara ahhhh please" her waist was now moving to the groove of my tongue. I then inserted two fingers in her pussy and started going faster which drove her to the edge till she squirted all over my face. She was trying hard no to moan out loud but she failed miserably after coming back to earth she tried to touch me which is something I hate with a passion physical contact with humans is hard for me its harder to make them understand. "Kiara please I want to touch can I at least get that opportunity" honestly this relationship came with a lot of rules she is breaking them all. "No we spoke about this already I don't like being touched" she looked like she was going to cry making me feel kind of bad for pushing her away but that wasn't enough for me to tell her about my issues. After studying a few chapters she left she didn't look too happy about going back home but I didn't want to ask her any questions. My mom is usually home at this time I wonder what's taking her so long maybe she is with her secret lover. There is only one way to find out where she really is I put a tracker on her phone so I can find out where she is at all times. I am not insecure she is the only parent I have left I need to keep her close very close. One day I will tell her how much I love her I know she is dying to hear it. As I was about to track her she walks in carrying our dinner well at least I don't have to cook today. "lifesavverrr hey mom I don't have to cook" she was now smiling I guess she loves to see me happy "hey missy you still have to make dessert" I literally forgot about that well then I will have to keep it simple jelly will do. She dished out the food and we watched tv for a while I felt like hugging her but I couldn't do it its hard I don't even hug my teddy bear. My therapist said this stage is the most difficult of them all. I believe that it's like you want to do something but you can't I am not holding onto the past I just have issues. I still have to decide on what I will wear on Saturday how did I even get here having a boyfriend and shit.