Losing myself

_Fate,fate.

I opened my eyes to meet my aunt's crying eyes.

Where Am I??

_fate!

I don't have the strenght to speak.

I don't have my voice.

I don't have myself.

I had lost myself.

While searching about my Fate,the fate was looking for me to break me .

to destroy me.

to kill my belief.

_fate!!what happened baby?

I wanted to open my mouth,to speak,to say anything,to cry.

BUT can't.

CAN'T

CAN'T

My aunt,was crying in pain.

_who did that to you my pure child?

I want to say who,I want to speak,I want to rise my voice ,I want to open my mouth,But my voice is hiden,broken exactly like myself.

lost my mother,my father,my childhood,my happiness,my favourite doll and now myself.

_Fate?

closed my eyes again,I don't have the power to look at her eyes,I have seen the lost of her dreams,I can't bear this shame.

Hearing a little noice made me open my eyes again,and it was night,some touches on my hair interrupted my sleep.

My eyes are meeting his eyes,how does he dare to show me his mangy face.?

_My kid.

why can't move my body,this time I won't give up.

_Are you happy?

and he was smiling his mangy smile.

He tried to do that again but I scarcely was able to push him away from me.

_go away.

Trying to escpae ,I was like a bird trying to escape away from the cage.

It was hard for me to move my body,but I couldn't leave without giving him a little gift which is a wound on his eye.

A scar ,I wish he will remember it forever.

He will remeber that always.

_whenever you try to rape a grl,just remember Fate,that destroyed your fake royal shape.

Running for along time will cut my legs ,I'm not able to continue anymore,dad.

Father,where are you?

plaese save me,please.

I need your lap,your hug ,please.

On the empty road,I was walking alone,feeling lonely,fear,cold,I'm a broken bird.

I was free ,free ,but that stupid fate had destroyed my life,I was crying and cursing that old woman who told them I will be a queen.

bad people in the road started to run over me,begging me to have me.

_help.help.

nobody can hear me,Don't they have daughters ,why are people so greedy,why do they follow their greedy desires.

GOD,I AM A BROKEN SOUL.

sleeping under a tree was my fate.

sleeping feeling lonely and fear was my fate.

sleeping without safe was also my fate.

Fifteen years old and I should face all of that alone,I fear night,I fear the sounds of night,I hate night.

but now it is my only way to hide myself and to save my broken self.

why can't find someone to help me?

why my life is so bad!!.

where is my good fate?

_______

he was under this dark sky seeding the seeds,

under the rain.

seeding the seeds ,feeling broken.

broken.