I Deserve It

Narrator

After that day Yuri and Viktor hung out more. Yuri continued to keep his little secret and Viktor continued to have a "familiar feeling" each time they met. Viktor continued to go to Femboy Hooters for Yuri, or should I say Eros. Overtime Viktor started to get to know Eros a little more, and they actually became quite friendly with each other. Eros would tease him a lot, but in the end they would both end up laughing. Yurio started working and was doing really well, so after about 2 months he got promoted. Now he's a real Hooter. He would complain about the outfits that he would have to wear all the time, but secretly he didn't mind it that much, he even liked crossdressing a bit. Little did he know, a very hot boy would visit Hooters for him only, but gets to nervous too start a conversation with him.

But... this a Victuuri story, so you'll find out about that later ;)

Yuri's Pov.

"Yuri~" Viktor comes out of his dorm room and gives me his usual morning hug. I flinch a bit.

"What took you so long?" I push him back.

Viktor frowns, "Yuri~!" "Give me affection!" He starts sparkling, "Plus, it takes time to look this good." I simply roll my eyes.

"Whatever you say, sleeping beauty," we both giggle. "Come on, or we're gonna be late," I motion for him to come along. We both walk to class and chat about, well... life.

"Now that I think about it..." Viktor pauses his speech. "You haven't really told me much about job." "What IS your job exactly?"

"Umm, well..." I pause.

"I don't want to lie to Viktor, but I don't want him to know my secret, or he'll... hate me."

"I guess you could say I'm a waiter," I state awkwardly.

"Oh, really?" he sounds excited. "Where do you work, have I been there, can I see you in action?"

"Umm..." I hesitate. "The place is crappy, I don't do a good job, and I get nervous when someone I know is there." I continued to ramble. Viktor frowned a bit, and I start to feel guilty as I make up more excuses.

"It's okay, I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable," Viktor smiles. "I won't ask you anymore." I see sparkles surround him.

"What is he, a god?"

...

The answer was yes...

Obviously

"Thank you," I smile a bit. There was an awkward silence between them as they walked outside of the building, until I break the silence.

"So... do you have one, a job I mean," I ask.

"No, not yet at least," Viktor states. "I'm waiting until I'm done with college." "I did have a job back in Russia, but..." Viktor pats the back of his head. "I guess you could say that didn't work out too well," Viktor awkwardly laughs.

"What happened?" I ask as we walked up some stairs.

"My boss treated our coworkers horribly, but not me for some odd reason." Viktor starts.

"Was she a friend or something?"

"No, I never met her outside of work."

"She would cuss out my coworkers, if they made the slightest mistakes, but if I made the same mistake, she would just tell me to "do better next time." I didn't mind it at first, but then I started feeling guilty, because she would treat me better than others. I tried defending my coworkers more but that just made it worse. One day I finally figured out the reason, apparently she had a crush on me, even though I had a girlfriend at the time. She asked me out one day, and I obviously denied, saying I had a girlfriend already. She acted pretty fine about it around the time and left. I thought the problem was solved, but I was very wrong. She started flirting with me at work and in front of my girlfriend. I could deal with it, but the final straw was when she groped me. I'm a pretty nice person, so I didn't snap at her, so I just gave her my letter of resignation the next day, and left without a word."

There was an awkward silence for a while.

"That must've been hard," I frown. Viktor pats my back while smiling.

"Hey, don't get all sappy on me now, the past's the past," Viktor points at our class. "See, we're already here."

"Hey, I'm not getting sappy!" I yell.

After classes~

I start walking towards the bench I usually eat at for lunch when I suddenly get pulled into an alleyway.

Why don't you take a guess who it was?

...

JJ, it was JJ

"Hey dude, could you be a doll and give me 100$?" he asks me.

"Why?"

"Some food for me and my pals," JJ laughs with his pals.

"What are we in high school?" JJ pauses his laughter.

"Getting confident now aren't we?" "What happened to you, good sex?"

"Not like you could get any any," I retaliate.

"What did you say? JJ gets closer to my face.

"What, you want a kiss or something?" I mock him.

"Eww, I'm not some fag like you," JJ turns his face in disgust. "No one would love some crossdresser like you anyways."

"Oh, right." "I forgot he knew about that."

Back when Yuri was pretty confident about his job and walked outside in his work clothes. JJ was one of the first to recognize him and ridicule him for it. He uses this as blackmail against Yuri, and since Yuri is very insecure and he couldn't defend himself for years. But hanging out with Viktor gave him confidence.

"Well, your personality isn't gonna get you a permanent girlfriend anytime soon!" I yell at him. He punches me in the face.

"Woops, my hand slipped," JJ laughs profusely.

"Weak" I thought, but my brain amplifies the pain. JJ and his friends continuing to beat me up, calling me names like "fag" or "pig" until they eventually got tired, took my money and left. I... just let it all happen.

(This next part gets confusing because Webnovel doesn't let me indent, bold, italicize, or anything so... just read it on Wattpad)

You could've stopped them at any time

I know

Then why'd you let us get hurt!!!

We deserve it

You deserve it, not me!

I simply smile while a line of blood comes out of my mouth.

Tsk

Just let me free, I can't take this anymore!

Huh?

Just die

Right here

Right now

On this filthy concrete, next to garbage, like you

Let yourself bleed out

Then both of us would be free

...

Why

Why not!

No one cares about us anyway!

The only thing that'll care about your death, are the rats and bugs that get a good meal out of your corpse.

"Maybe you're right," I shed a couple of tears.

I think this would be a fitting end to my life.

As I lie down in that same spot in the alleyway, I think about where my life went wrong. Maybe it was when I stated college, maybe when I started crossdressing, maybe it was when I started making friends, or maybe it was when I started coming out to people...

...

Who am I kidding

It started when I was born

I start to feel my vision fade out.

"Ha," I cough up some blood.

I hope hell's ready to accept me

A/N

I have no excuse for my laziness, besides the last A/N

Okay, bye 😗✌