Real World in Fashion

My days are getting frustrated in the way , finding a way for me where I can survive and do my work in a better way and help myself . I am making my way to be a better person in my life . A life of a criminal is not so easy , its painful in such a manner that our hearts wants relief in such a manner that it become a unstoppable force on the way , so we should help ourselves we may not get caught and can escape from the world . Life through this way is such that our force should be strong enough to defeat our enemies and we betray them in the worse way , and they don't come on us again . Feeling angry with myself and feeling depressed with my work . Asking questions to myself , so why am I doing this in a way which is not better , and which I don' t want to do in this way . Is there something which hates me a lot and don't want to look surviving me in this world . But why it is so , the things I do are matter of my perceptions and matter of fashion which I want to place in this world but not for them , its just for me and for us and for my family . Yes I am a unique person with a unique character and habit that I am absorbing in my body so that I become a fashionic model and one of the fashion icon of the world . The things so that work with me are well and I dont want to have bad habits with me which can harm me but some hates of this world is making me in a way that bad habits are getting it survived with me . But do I will be in this or there is some other world which will help me and make me survive in this world with no bad habits and no harm and hatred on me and people will love me in a manner of peace in mind . I am thinking so , so let's now I want to start a journey , a journey of a good boy , a journey of a good person in life with no hatred of someone which is really not necessary in my world , and I can absorb love in my body . The way I am searching and the world where I want to live is coming in my way but I just need to be patienet and accept what are the results of my life . I will start my journey I need to escape with bad habits with which I am living , I need to become a good and a fashionable person . I want success in my life , I want to live with success in my life , and no failures should step on my way .