Chapter 4

The day passed when my aunt and uncle arrived and we immediately left the country to get treatment in New York. Only Aunt Elise and Uncle Cesar said goodbye. Shane and I have a seminar in Baguio. I also gave a resignation letter and Shane did not know everything. I know I hurt her for what I do but I don't want to see Shane cry because of me.

Yes I know I going to hurt her more but the pain doubled when I saw her. Besides Jc is ther to comfort her and take care of her. Jc looks fine and Shane is happy with him. Before I left, I talked to Jc not to tell Shane about of this. I also ordered what Shane should and should not eat such as she is allergic to strawberries, shrimp, siomai and so on. He also promised that he would take good care of Shane and not hurt her. I also mentioned to him everything and he understands my situation.

At first I thought Jc was arrogant, rude, and only a womanizer but when you know him well you will find out that he was very kind, caring, and loving person. You can see in him that he really loves Shane. I couldn't do anything because she was with Jc wanted last I just told Jc before we finished talking.

"I wants to make others happy, but I do not want to see.

It hurts for me to see her happy with others,but I can't do anything I have to accept everything until I'm just friends until now.

"Are you okay?" my aunt asked me

"Of course auntie" I forced an answer

"Are you sure? Is something wrong with you? It looks like the depth of your thoughts" aunt asked gently but she was obviously worried for me.

Can I tell her? she can understand me?

"No aunt. I'm fine" I replied to her.

"Alex, you know I'm just here, I'm ready to listen to everything. Do you want to say something, do, or buy? Just tell me don't be shy" aunt was very kind so I can't quite figure out why she lost her child . You have nothing to look for in her, she already has everything.

"Aunt, is it bad to like other women?" You know in her face is shock but also immediately lost and the sweet smile showed.

"It's not a bad thing Alex. The bad thing is that you can't admit to the person you love that you love her/him because you are afraid of being rejected and hurt. I do have acquaintances who both love each other. You can't blame yourself for why you like to your fellow woman or man. Because at first you will not be able to dictate to your heart who you will choose and love. Even if you are still addicted or blind, binge, lame, thief, vassal and your high expectations will lose your ideal man / girl all that will be lost when the heart itself dictates. Do not pay attention to what others say because that will ruin you and your love. Do not let anyone else interfere in your life "Aunt Anna's long explanation seems to understand me .

"Auntie I love Shane" she was not surprised by what I've said I knew she knew this.

"Did you say that?" The concern was obvious on her face.

"Auntie, I'm afraid she might not accept me and maybe our friendship will be ruined" I replied to my aunt.

"From the beginning, Alex, there is a possibility that your friendship will break down, but this is all I can say, you will accept her decision. Do not let everything get caught before you admit everything to her. Oh, btw i will take care of our food first and also i will call you if the food is ready. Call me if you're not ok or something you feel not good ok?. " Auntie said

"Yes Auntie thank you" i said

"Think about what I've said earlier Alex" Auntie said.

Before she continued to leave. Maybe auntie is right I have to accept Shane's answer and decision. I need to get my plan about confession about what i feel for her. like how much i love her.

I was left stunned in the room thinking about what might happen in the next few days especially when I confessed how I felt for Shane. My decision will not be easy. I also do not know what answer I can get from Shane. I'm afraid that everything will end in nothing, especially the friendship between the two of us. I read a lot and watch that when you confess to your bestfriend they become boyfriend or girlfriend but unfortunately others end up with nothing. I do not know which of the two I will go to once I confess to her.