Astrids POV
Have you ever felt as if you were slowly drowning? Like your body is done fighting and the darkness is begging you to let go. I thought I feared death because I thought it was a painful process.
But I knew a time would soon come when my body would shut down. I felt as if I had let myself down. I had promised my mother I would be safe and that I would make it out alive. But as my breathing started constricting I felt my heartbeat getting slower.
My energy was burning out. My eyes rolled to the back of my head and I felt myself slip into a dark place. A place I was not aware existed. I wanted to hold on a bit longer but I was tired.
I was tired of constant fighting over things out of my control. I was tired of trying to make myself be someone I'm not. I was tired of bringing the people I care about most into my mess. All I wanted was to be at peace, to be free of this turmoil.