Twenty: MTOABB

MTOABB

It hadn't even been a week and Juliet and Zack were already back at -- doing what they do best.

This time I wasn't mad, as Juliet had given me the heads up.

Can you really call it a heads up when I saw a post of him and her at the beach.

I wasn't upset - I broke it off so I can't be upset-- I shouldn't but every time I see them kissing I can't help myself but to roll my eyes.

Maybe this is me being in denial, and trying to hide it in the best way I know how. The madness that goes through my mind would have you wishing I was just like every other girl.

And this is the part where we can all relate to being insecure of our stretch marks, but somehow not all of us can relate to a heartbreak caused by a boy - and his name happens to be Zack Daniels.

"Are you still upset?" Cassandra asks. She has her hair perfectly tied up into a ponytail, her blonde ringlets cascading down her back like waves of a thousand waterfalls.

For one second, I envied - I envied how she could still have Zack’s heart till this day. How it was so easy for her to snatch him away from me, and in the midst of me believing that everything was going good and I had finally gotten all that I could ever want. I let him use me like I was a fool's gold -- so I guess I was never what he wanted.

"Excuse me, sir?" I raise my hand into the air, my burgundy nail polish out on display for anyone, who is interested, to see as I wait to have the teacher acknowledge me.

"What is it Rossita?" He asks.

"I'd like to be excused," I say, as I glance to stare at Cass. She raises her eyebrow at me, as she continues to stare at me.

"The bell is about to ring, Rossita. You can wait till then."

I sigh back into my seat and close my eyes. I didn’t want to talk to her, not right now and not anytime soon.

"I should have told you, okay?" Cass says.

"You shouldn't have done it. You knew I was with him," I whisper under my breath.

She should have known better - No, she doesn’t owe me anything, so instead of me holding in my breath till I turn blue - I erase the expectations I hold in place for the people around me, although they are not many.

"You clearly are into my brother so I see it as I did you a favor," she says, and I chuckle, shaking my head in annoyance.

"So it doesn't bother you that he is back with Juliet?" I ask.

"No."

"Oh really?" I arch my eyebrow. I close my books and shove them in my backpack.

"Yeah. If I want him, he'll come back to me," she says nonchalantly, as if those words weren't already unbelievable.

"I believe you - sense my sarcasm."

I grab my bag, seconds after the bell has already rang.

I saunter to my locker to have Gomes waiting for me.

"What is it?" I ask him.

"About last night."

"I know, I'm embarrassed." I cover my face in my palms.

Asking to be his Molly -- that must have been the top most cringeworthy thing I've said to him.

"Don't be."

"What does that mean then?" I ask, curiously.

"Let's explore -- see where our little ship takes us." He shrugs as he stares at me with his crystal clear blue orbs.

"So we're in 'a ship'?" I ask, amused.

"Only if you want us to be," he says, shrugging his shoulders.

With all my thoughts floating into space I lean in to kiss him - here in public for any wandering eyes to see.

I, Rossita, would have done no such thing, so this new girl, we are going to pretend to not know who she is.

He stops me as our noses touch and my lips are so close to having him that my stomach is turning.

"What's the hurry?" He asks.

"Hurry? It's not as if we haven't done this before," I say as I turn to open my locker.

He hugs me from the back and gently nibbles my earlobe.

I squirm, but not wanting him to stop.

He pulls back and laughs.

"Is your sister giving you a lift home?" He asks.

"She should be, why?" I ask.

"Maybe I can take you."

My type of a Bad Boy

"Where were you?" Mom asks, as I step into the dining room.

"I went out with Gomes for some ice cream."

"Who?"

"It's Prinse, mom," Chloe interjects.

"Well as you can see dinner is ready, so sit down and eat."

I nod, pulling a chair back and taking a seat.

I ended up washing the dishes by myself. Mom had already gone to her room and Chloe was watching reruns of Younger.

"Want to join me?" Chloe asks as she pops into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water.

"I'm good, I've got homework to catch up on."

I dry the dishes in silence, making sure to place each plate in the right cupboard. I grab a packet of chips in the top shelf as a form of reward for a job well done.

~~

It was already eleven by the time I closed my books and threw my body on the bed. I reach for my phone to find an image sent to me by Cass. She had sent it four hours ago. I open the picture to be faced with her and Zack -- I guess the girl has game - we need to appreciate it.

I scroll up to find a text that was sent an hour ago from Gomes. My body riles in excitement as I tap into his message.

Are you up _Gomes

Are you still up _Rossita

Yeah _Gomes

I want to get to know you _Rossita

Already jumping into it _Gomes

That can't possibly have been too fast - I thought I was strategic on how I asked.

Well isn't this what you want _Rossita

I do... I obviously want to get to know you on a deeper level.. all your dislikes and likes and everything in between, but most importantly I want us to enjoy each other's company and take things VERY SLOW _Gomes

I couldn't help but get confused. This was the same boy who kissed me in front of his house -- the same one who rides a bike.

What do you mean very slow? We're already on a ship _Rossita

I want this to work _Gomes

Me too _Rossita

I expected a text to roll in just as quickly as I had responded to his text.

the nights are so lonely without you and I wish I could wrap you up in my arms so tightly _Gomes

My eyes were halfway shut by the time his text came in that I dozed off.