Thirty-four: MTOABB

MTOABB

Do you ever just wonder back to the person you were a year ago, a month ago or even a day ago?

I can't believe I'm that same girl who cried in bed for a boy - not that I don't do it anymore, this time it was for a different boy. I knew exactly what I wanted, but life had a way of surprising me.

Am I happy?

Maybe a few hours ago, I would have said yes -- that this has been the happiest I've been in a long time. But no, I'm confused - the kind you want to creep into a corner and bawl into a fit of tears. But I am not sorry for myself - my choices - even when they didn't make sense, I made them.

"Rossita?"

Cass and I both turn to the sound of his voice. He called me even though she was standing next to me. I let it sink in. My eyelids close and I part my lips, inhaling and exhaling.