Chapter 181

“My sadistic side had never known love. I had never known love, not for someone that wasn’t family. You showed me what it could be like to have someone love you even if it wasn’t directed at me. I’m not a good man, Renee, no matter how hard I try. I admit that but I have tried so hard to be at least a decent man for you. Yes, I kept you under threat of bringing harm to Kevin, but I didn’t want you to leave me. No, at first that wasn’t the case, but then I was just selfish and I knew you would stay since you knew how I am. I realized I can’t have what I want no matter how hard I try with you. Even when you didn’t remember everything you still wouldn’t choose me because you wanted to,” Jesse said as he laid his forehead against hers.