Rash

The nurse looked around the waiting area as she said, "Mai is next."

I looked up at her kind of mad but I knew this was my fault. I walked to her and she asked, "How are you?"

I took off my shoes as she was going to check my weight and I responded "I'm doing pretty bad."

She chuckled as she wrote down my weight and said with a pout, "Sorry, to hear that but you should feel better anytime soon."

I put my body against the wall as she checked my height and I didn't say anything to her lies.

She gave me a soft smile and said, "Come with me and the doctor should be with you any minute."

I put my shoes on and said "You better hope so cause I don't think I can handle this anymore."

I followed behind her as she led me to a room and I felt like I was going to die any minute. I took a seat on the medical bed and she started to write some stuff.

I let out a nervous sigh as I asked her, "Do you know if it's the same doctor that attended me last time I came?"

She looked at me sad and said "No, I'm sorry he already retired."

I looked at her shocked and asked, "Really? Why? It feels like I just came not that long ago."

She laughed and said "Mai, last time you came was when you were around 18 years old and you never came back."

I looked away and said "It's only been 6 years."

She said "Your suppose to get a check-up every 6 months not when you feel sick."

I nodded my head as I looked at her and said "I will try to come in the next 6 months."

She nodded her head sideways and said "He should be with you any minute. Ok?"

I asked "Is the doctor a woman?"

She said "No, I'm sorry we don't have any women doctors available today."

I sighed and didn't say anything.

She said as she left, "I'll be around if you need me."

I rolled my eyes and felt my face get red. I wish that old doctor was here because he had poor vision and was very quick.

*Around 15 Minutes Later*

*Knock Knock*

I felt my heart beat thump faster than usual as I heard the knocking on the door. My eyes widen as I saw the young figure come inside smiling and I seem to have forgotten my hearing.

"Mai?" He repeated.

"What did you say?" I asked kind of embarrassed.

"After turning 24 you decided to come back. Why?" He asked with a smile of his face.

I didn't smile because I was going to get very uncomfortable any minute.

"I'm your new doctor Min Yoongi but you can call me Suga." He added.

He came and stood in front of me to check my blood pressure.

I said kind of mad at myself "Something is happening to my skin."

He smiled and asked "Is that why your wearing a jacket?"

I nodded and he asked "Could you take it off so I can take your blood pressure? It would really help."

I didn't want to but I had no choice.

I waited for the blood pressure machine to beep and it did. I couldn't help but to watch his expression. He looked like he wanted to smile really hard but he held it back.

"Your blood pressure is a little high but I'm sure it's cause your nervous you're here. Since you haven't been here in so long." He said with a soft smile.

I just nodded my head as I didn't even know why I was nervous. If it was because he was so handsome or I was there in the first place. He checked my temperature and informed me that I was ok. He went to sit down on the stool to write down the information on the paper.

He stood up again and asked as he tried to examine my body with his eyes "Where's the problem on your skin?"

The question that I didn't want him to ask had been asked and I wanted to die.

He walked in front of me and asked "What's wrong?"

I let out a sigh and said "I have many small circle marks all over my back, neck, stomach and chest area."

Suga nodded and asked with concern "Why did you just come today?"

I looked away and said "It didn't bother me until last night that I couldn't stop itching and now it's spreading every where."

Suga asked "What are you allergic too?"

I looked at him confused and said "Cheese and milk."

Suga went his notes and said "Your lactose intolerant."

I asked "I'm what?"

Suga said "You can't eat anything that contains milk."

I said "Oh yeah someone told me that."

Suga let this out really nice and sweet "I'm going to have to ask you to take off your shirt."

I brutally asked quickly "Why?!"

Suga said "I need to see what kind of rash it is and how bad it is. I need to examine it because not all rashes are the same."

I looked away and said "But I told you where it's at."

Suga said, "I'm sorry, I know but I really need to see."

I wanted to punch him so bad. I knew he would turn out like the other doctors. They're always trying to find ways of touching you and looking at your body parts. I felt my blood boil at all these thoughts coming to my mind. The worst part was that every time I came to the doctor when something happened they would say "Sorry, there's no cure." I felt like they always knew and just wanted to use that excuse to do whatever they wanted.

Suga stood up and said, "I just need to see if they're all the same from every section you got them on. Actually, if most of them are the same then you don't have to show me the rest."

I didn't move as it didn't make me feel better or comfortable.

Suga said "I'll check your neck, stomach and back. You can just lift it up enough for me to see."

I let out a very long sigh and sat up straight. "If you do this then you can leave and never see him again. Maybe he won't even remember you after this because he's seen many girls like you." I tried to motivate myself as I lifted up my head.

He put on some gloves and tilted my head a little.

"If it hurts just tell me." He informed me.

I didn't care though I just wanted to leave forever and never come back. I looked down at his eyes just to see if he wasn't examining something he wasn't supposed to be.

"Lay back please." He said.

I did and he asked "Can I lift up your shirt?"

I said in my head "No!!!" But in reality a hard "Mhm" came out of my mouth.

He examined my stomach and pulled my shirt back down.

"Alright last but not least your back, please." He tried to say it really polite but it just wasn't sounding so pleasant.

I sat up and he lifted up my shirt. I felt my face get really red as I felt his gloves roaming around my bra area.

"PLEASE DON'T TELL ME TO TAKE IT OFF!" I shouted in my head like a nightmare.

"Right where you hook up your bra that's where it's really bad. I suggest when you get home to take it off because that's causing it to get irritated." He informed me as he still was behind me.

He finally put my shirt back down and came around me.

"I'll be right back, Mai." He said before leaving the room and taking off his gloves.

I put my hands over my face and said in a very negative tone "He must be disgusted with my body. Only if he saw the rest of it." At this point I wasn't even mad anymore. I was now very depressed that I wanted to cry because of how ugly my body was.

*Knock Knock*

He came in and I immediately asked "What pills should I take?"

He didn't even smile when I asked him and that's when I knew. There was no cure and now I had to live with these scars on my body forever just like the others.

Suga tried to smile but it looked like he felt bad for me instead.

"I'm sorry, Mai but theres no pills that will fix this." He said upset.

I didn't say anything as I felt my heart beat slow down like seeing a car crash in slow motion.

He looked away and said "I still have good news for you though. Your rash seems to be the same throughout your body and it's actually really unique."

I looked at him confused and asked "How?"

Suga chuckled and said "There's a symbol in the middle and it looks exactly like a Christmas tree. It's something really unique but rare to see."

I felt myself sadden more to the thought of him remembering me every time Christmas were to come now.

Suga continued as he said "The cure I have for you is a cream."

My eyes lighten up as I heard him say the word "Cure."

Suga said "But it can take days or weeks to get rid of some of the rash."

I didn't like what he was saying anymore as I repeated "Some?"

Suga said "In most cases usually rashes leave scars on your body. Like at night you can't control yourself from scratching. You like the feeling but you could start bleeding, which tends to leave a scar."

I got off the bed and asked "So, this cream is the only thing that will help me from scratching and keep the rash from spreading?"

Suga scratched the back of his neck and said "It just prevents it from spreading."

I looked at him with disbelief before shouting "WHAT?! You have to be joking right?! How do I not scratch at night or even in the day?!"

Suga said "I know it's hard but at night wear mittens or tie your hands on your bed. I suggest not wearing clothes because that rubs against your body which tends to activate the itchiness. In the day sit on your hands and keep your hands clean! If you scratch another one will appear. Try not to touch yourself or eat cheese."

I whispered as I looked down defeated, "No cheese?"

I quickly looked up and asked "When can I eat cheese again?"

Suga said "Never."

I whispered in shock "Never?!"

Suga stopped talking and looked how upset I looked at the thought of never eating cheese again.

Suga spoke again and said "Your mind is the cure to your rash."

I looked at him confused and asked "What?"

Suga smiled and said "I myself have got a rash and use this cream. Within maybe an hour I don't have anything and you know how?"

I nodded my head sideways.

He smiled and said "Our minds are very powerful they tell us everything. Tell yourself you won't have a rash anymore and let that thought go. Before, you know it the rash will leave and disappear."

I looked down at his hand he was holding a sticky note that had the name of the cream on it. He handed it to me and I got it. I was going to leave but he stopped me.

"If you don't notice any change say within three days maybe, then come back." He said while thinking.

I walked out fast and went to the lobby again.

"How much is it?" I asked while biting my lip.

She smiled as she said, "It's 89 dollars."

I tried to hide my shocking face but it was pretty hard. I gave her my credit card and looked at her hand as she swiped it. Suga came from behind her and I quickly looked down at my phone. I was very embarrassed so I acted like I was doing something on it.

Suga said "Mia, I got you a doctor excuse for your job or school. It's for three days so you can recover a little faster and don't worry it's not contagious for others." He smiled as he handed it to me but it faded away.

"No thank you I'm fine. I don't need it." I quickly said as I received my receipt and turned around to leave.

I walked to the elevator and pushed the button multiple times so it would hurry up and get me as I felt stares.

I went inside and took out my phone. I lifted it up to my ear to make a phone call. I lifted my head and saw Suga looking at me. The lobbys walls were see through glass. The doors closed and I made my way down. I informed my boss I would be there once I got my medicine. I walked to Walgreens and looked around for the cream.

After, awhile I saw it and it was a small wide cream. I looked at the price and to my luck it was 4 dollars. A negative thought flew in my head as how cheap it was maybe it wouldn't work at all. I rolled my eyes as how negative I was towards myself like I didn't need anyone else to bring me down. I went to the check out and paid. I walked home to put on the cream and it didn't smell like nothing. I put it on my skin and it was like if I didn't even put on any. I quickly went to my closet and got my apron. I got a turtle neck sweater which I knew it would be so uncomfortable but I had to hide these nasty looking marks on my body. I rushed out my apartment and went to my job.

"Hi Laura." I said with a smile on my face.

Laura my coworker smiled back and said "We work together tonight?"

I smiled as I responded "Yes!"

Laura asked "You feeling better?"

I said "Oh yeah I got medicine and should be feeling better anytime soon."

Laura raised an eyebrow and said "Wow! That's so good to hear."

I smiled and said "Atleast alot of people don't come to the coffee shop in the evenings that much."

Laura asked "I wish you could change to this shift instead."

I said "I can't that would mean less working hours."

Laura sighed and said "Ah, don't worry about the money and just enjoy life."

I prepared a coffee and said "I wish I was like you in how you think so good about life."

She chuckled and said "The less you worry, the less stress you'll have and you won't go to the doctor."

We laughed and I went to the table that asked for the coffee.

*Closing time*

"I'll see you tomorrow when I arrive at the job." She said with a comfort smile as she waved me goodbye.

I waved goodbye to her as I rushed home in the dark night. When I got home I quickly took a shower and made sure no scented soap touched my skin. I got out and rubbed the cream almost all over my skin. I put on some shorts and a shirt. I looked for my winter gloves and made myself some soup.

I was done eating and I headed to bed as I knew I was going back to my normal routine of working. I worked early in the mornings since almost everyone got quick breakfast there. I laid down and made sure not to think about my rash. Soon, my face became red recapping Suga examining my body. I turned to my side and sadden. A sigh came out and then a pout was formed on lips. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

I kept waking up in the middle of the night catching myself trying to scratch every inch of my skin and it was killing me.

It was finally morning and I was actually sitting on the restroom counter. Rocking back and forth in tears of how horrible I felt. My alarm went off and I didn't want to go to work.

"These bills aren't going to pay themselves! Come on you can do this! It's only a few days!" I shouted to myself.

I changed into another different turtle neck sweater but I knew it was going to be so hot again. I changed into a shirt instead and put on a jacket. I got my cream and put it on again. I put it in my purse and rushed to the cafe.

My boss was there already and said annoyed "3 minutes late."

I said "Sorry."

I rushed to the back and put on my apron. So many people were already filling up the place and the lines were getting bigger. Usually, it was like this in the morning as the day went by it got emptier.

My boss said "Alright, seems like you can handle it from here."

I nodded my head as I watched him leave the cafe and disappear. I walked around the empty tables to see if they were clean and usually they were. Sometimes, I wish people were a little more dirty so I could have something to do. I went back to the cashier spot and waited for a customer to come. I started to remember my rash and that's when I wanted to scratch again.

I heard the bells on the door ring for attention and I looked to see who it was. I widen my eyes as I saw my doctor come in talking on the phone. I heard his laugh and everything seemed to fade away. He hanged up and looked up at me. I didn't say anything as I couldn't believe what earth was doing to me now.

"Mia?" He said with a surprised smile.

"Doctor, how can I help you?" I asked trying not to have a conversation with him as I didn't want to become close with him.

He smiled and asked "Are you feeling better? I know it's been about a day but I hope there's a small difference."

"This isn't getting any better actually. So, what will you be ordering?" I asked kind of mad as he was talking out loud and felt like someone would walk in and stare at me.

Suga said "Don't worry you will see a difference soon. May I see?"

"What?!" I kind of shouted.

Suga asked "Can I see your neck to see if it's fading?"

I looked at him like I wanted to murder him but he would tell me if it looked normal or not. I unzipped my jacket a little and pulled my shirt down a little. He leaned in and looked at my neck.

"It's looking better don't worry." He said nodding his head.

I asked "Mhm. So, what will you order?"

He chuckled and said "Oh yeah um I'll order two coffees and two croissants."

I repeated confusingly "Two?"

He received a message and he looked back at me. "Oh no! Sorry, make it 4 of each instead." He shyly said.

I walked to the back and said in my head "This guy is married and have kids?"

I made his order and went back out to the front. I looked down at his hand and let out a sigh.

"Is everything ok?" He asked kind of concerned.

"Oh yeah! It's just, it's a little slow today." I said kind of convincing.

He smiled and said "It's going to be a long day for me but good thing I have off tomorrow. Maybe I'll come and visit you-"

"I'm not working." I quickly lied so he wouldn't come.

Suga looked at me and smiled again "Oh then we can hang out some-"

I cut him off by asking "Do you need help taking this to your car?"

Suga's face turned serious and said "I came walking sense it's not that far away from here."

I said "Ok have a good day."

I turned around to walk away and Suga said "I'll see you around and try not to get bored."

I didn't say anything as I wanted to end our conversation as soon as possible.

*Next Day*

There was a few people sitting here and there. A customer came in but it was a in and out thing. No customers bothered me and it felt like I was in the cafe alone. I walked around in the back awhile to get the blood in my system pumping. I heard the bells from the door ring but I thought it was that little boy playing with the door again.

I heard someone shake the bell by the register and raised my eyebrows as how shock I was that someome was actually there. I smiled as I made my way to the front but I got really shock.

"Hello? How can I help you?" I asked trying not to sound nervous.

Suga gave me a soft smile and I examined his outfit as he looked different.

Suga asked confused "I thought you said you wouldn't work today?"

I said "Well, with these jobs you never really know when they'll call you."

Suga observed my face expression and nodded.

"Ok I'll have a water and some fruit." He said as he paid with his card. I handed it to him and he took a seat. He took out his computer and I guess he worked on it. Two hours past by and he was still there working.

I reorganized the cups in the front and walked around the small cafe to see if they all had napkins.

"MAI!" His voice echoed in the cafe and I couldn't resist in rolling my eyes as he knew I didn't like when he did that.

I walked behind the register and ignored him.

"Mai? Oh my are you ok?" He asked with concern.

I chuckled and got really serious in seconds as I answered "No!"

Jimin looked around and saw Suga. Then he glanced back at me and whispered "Did he do something to you?"

I looked at him annoyed and said "No but you did."

Jimin gasped like he was hurt and asked "How?"

I said "By shouting my name at the top of your lungs. What if my boss was here?"

Jimin laughed really loud and said "Quit and I'll get you a more entertained job."

His laugh always made me want to smile and laugh with him.

Jimin smirked and said "Ufffff your so gorgeous when you smile like that."

I smacked his arm and covered my face. "Stopppppp Jimin." I said with a pout.

Jimin cupped my face and I stepped back.

"What will you order?" I asked trying to keep a serious face.

Jimin asked "If you were in my place what would you order?"

I got serious and walked next to him to look at the menu.

He laughed really loud and gently pushed me. "Why do you act like you don't know what's on the menu?" He asked with a big smile on his face.

"Cause I don't." I responded.

Jimin's eyes disappeared as he laughed again. I started to laugh out loud and held my stomach.

I quit laughing when I heard the cafe phone ring. I rushed to it and it was Laura.

"Hey what's up?" I asked with a smile on my face.

Laura said "I'll be there at 11:30 so you can leave before lunch break."

I looked at the time and said "Ok bye."

Jimin asked "Who called us?"

I chuckled and asked "Ok what will you order?"

Jimin said "A piece of strawberry cake for me and a piece of chocolate cake for you. With a glass of wine-"

"Oh shut up dude." I said as I wanted to laugh again.

He paid for the order. I got the pieces of cake as no one came and some water for me and coffee for Jimin.

Jimin pulled my hand and said "Come and sit. No one is coming anyways."

I went to go sit with him and Suga was in my view every time I looked up at Jimin. He kept starring at his computer and I couldn't help but to glance back at him a few times. He looked more attracting in his gym clothes then that doctor lab coat.

Jimin got a call and said "I have to go already. This cake was so good looking like you and I hope to see you again."

I looked at him unbelievably to what cheesy things he was saying. "I believe this cake affected your brain and heart." I said as I looked at Jimin and glanced back at Suga who was already looking at me.

I stood up and Jimin hugged me. "I may not see you tonight." He said as he made his way to the door.

"Ok bye." I said as he left.

I picked up the plates and went to go wash them. I heard the bells from the door ring and thought maybe finally Suga left. I went towards the front and it was Laura.

"Hey! Wow! Your here already?" I asked with a smile on my face.

Laura said "I see you had fun with Jimin today."

I said "Poor him he didn't get to see you today."

Laura gasped and hushed me.

I chuckled and saw Suga packing up his stuff.

Laura said "Ok take care Mai! Use this day to get healthier ok?"

I nodded my head and grabbed my purse. I went out of the cafe but didn't see Suga. I walked down the sidewalk and started to think about my rash. I gasped as I had forgotten all about it which a big smile appeared on my face.

"Hey?" A voice came from behind and I came to a stop.

Suga walked infront of me. I quickly got nervous and my smile faded away.