Dear Diary: 23/01/2012 23:10pm

That's right. The holidays are over. The festival that my dad had taken us to on the first of January, had been legendary, the roads had to be closed. When we got to the beach, there was a naked coupling, drunk off their ass and having sex in the bushes. I kid you not. I was so fascinated, and I couldn't look away. There was great music and the drinks were flowing, it was a great night.

Tomorrow my brother and I have to go back to school even though school starts on the 25th, which is a Wednesday, but with us being prefects, we have to prepare for tomorrow night for the grade 8's orientation.

Real Exciting stuff.

What I am really excited about is seeing Scott James, Oh, how I have missed him so. I have even forgotten the exact shade of his eyes. But I have never forgotten how he makes me feel. Never. I didn't see him once over the holidays, guess he was too busy playing happy families with his girlfriend Cassandra. I did get to see my friend's from school. We had a lot of beach days and bonfire nights. Mark (a boy from school) and I had a definite flirtation going on. At every gathering, he sat next to me, and we spent time together. This other time when we were at Charmaine's house, who btw keeps a pet snake, and if anyone knows me, knows that I am petrified , like PETRIFIED of snakes. Something about them is just-I mean why else would they be the evil thing in the bible??? Ugh! Anyway, to get to the backyard where the party was, I had to go through the house, the very same house where the snake was in. Everyone tried to get me through the door, but I was literally hysterical. Someone tried to use my weakness against Scott james and said Scott James was on the other side and I think I said something along the lines of "Scott James can suck my dick", but I am not 100% sure. I would have said anything. It was the fear talking. Mark had to carry me through the house and once I had a few drinks in me, I even forgot that there was a snake in the house probably lurking by the windows, just watching us…Amy and Jade, who are my close friends from school, were there, they are best friends. Amy is The Thandi to Jade's Melissa. You feel me?

Dean thought it would be funny to put Vodka in the hubbly rather than water. Well it went through me and Amy's head. Amy's more so than mine. She ended up in the pool looking for, and I quote "fishies", I was about to join her because I really wanted to see what the fuss was about the fishes. I was pulling up my shirt over my head and Charmaine came and pulled my shirt down. Mark complained and was like :

"No, Let her finish what she was doing, Charmaine" and he was giving me this wolfish grin.

I didn't get to see the fishies because jade's dad came and he was there to pick up Amy and Jade, and Amy couldn't even walk, she was swaying and couldn't stand upright. While they were trying to get her inside the car, she bent down and threw up on jade's dad's shoes. I sobered up real quick after that.

Anyway, Mark and I kept our flirting game strong, we were very touchy. Mark is cute, He has cute brown eyes , tan skin and curly brown hair. He's not as fit as Scott, but he was more lanky but there was definition there. I didn't realise that one girl in our group was also into Mark and didn't like what was happening. When Amy, Jade, Charmaine, Sharon, Stha, Melissa, Dean, Darren , Mark and I went to The Mall for Sharon's birthday lunch at Spur, and at some point I was sitting on Mark's lap, then Melissa told me to watch how Stha was giving me death looks from across the table. Mark kept tickling me and teasing me and he had his one arm firmly on my waist and I was HERE FOR IT HONEY. The sensations, my little virgin self couldn't handle it. When Liss and I went to the toilet to retouch our make up, Stha followed us. Once the door closed behind her she looked at me and asked:

"what's going on between you and Mark?"

"Nothing, we are just friends" I said, my voice stunned, because this kinda felt like we were gonna fight and Stha was known for fighting but then again…So was I. But it was something I stopped because since I started hanging out with the popular people, that kind of thing was too hood for their little hearts so I handled conflict like a lady ( you know-talk about someone behind their back).

"Please, I am not stupid. Friends Don't act like you two do! I wasn't born yesterday! So tell me what is going on?"

I could actually see spit flying out her mouth, and I wear glasses. And I wasn't wearing them at the moment but I could still see the spit.

This is when Liss jumped in, :"Dude, what the fuck is your problem?? She said Nothing, now back off"

This is why she was my best Friend.

I looked at Stha with her frothing mouth and it clicked.

"Stha, do you like him??"

"I don't know, maybe. I just wanted to make sure , you know" She shrugged, her anger dissolving.

"Babygirl, go for it. I mean we flirt and stuff, but we aren't a thing. I am not about to fight you over a guy"

And it was true, I Loved the idea of Mark, but to actually date the guy was just another story.

After that little confrontation, I distanced myself from Mark so Stha could have her dreams fulfilled. Shame he didn't understand my cold demeanour and I couldn't really explain it.

Ohhhh, my brother just woke up my sister, we are gonna go sneak a swim outside. My mom is asleep, so here's to hoping that she wont hear us. My brother's best friend from the hood is visting. His name is Nkule. He was literally only supposed to stay for an afternoon, but he has been here for a week. My sister is so mean to him, like the other day she kicked him on the chest when he finished the milk making a second bowl of cereal. And I feel bad, so I over compensate and I am extra nice and play "catch the rock" with him( it's when we throw little rocks in the pool and whoever catches the most, wins) when my brother is also sick of him and locks himself in his room watches and watches South Park. So we are all going swimming, despite the fact that Mondli and I need to wake up early tomorrow and that Caitlin (Head Girl) is picking us up early. Night Night, Diary.

Lotsa Love