Chapter 6

POV ALICE

I put down my cell phone as soon as I see the last message sent by Isabele, I don't know how things will be tomorrow, this year started in such a crazy way that I don't even know how to react about everything. I'm sinking into my own confusion, I even miss it when I felt lighter.

And all this because of her, even though it is difficult to assume.

I stop to think about how it all started, I saw her arriving all shy in the classroom, curling up inside her sweatshirt and the thin round rim glasses, which in my opinion perfectly match her face.

I don't know what happened, if it was due to the fact that when it appeared in front of the room, it ended up causing a certain explosion inside me, I can't explain what it was, but a mixture of sensations were present, something that never feel before, as if that cake of emotions was hidden, just waiting for something to happen.

Or someone shows up.

I always liked to be in control of everything, emotions, actions, behaviors, etc., but now it's different, I'm lost in all points, maybe that's why I created a barrier between me and her, maybe, my subconscious has made a anger growing inside me, to block everything I feel when I saw it.

I decide to talk to the person who understands me most, and who always helps me when I'm lost.

I reach for my cell phone again and call my sister, I think she must be awake.

I wait about 2 minutes and then she answers:

- Look who decided to show up, remember you have a sister? - teases Carol as soon as she answers.

- I'm sorry if I'm a busy girl now because of my studies - I say with an embarrassed laugh.

- Save me, Alice, it seems I don't know you, come on, you can start telling me what's going on. - sends.

As I said, not to anyone who knows me more than Carol, nor do our parents know so much about me.

- Tomorrow I will have to do a job at Isabele's house, it wasn't my choice, it was the history teacher who chose the pairs, and I don't know sister, this year I'm so lost, I'm more stressed and impatient, I don't know what to do or what to think about those things - I fire everything at once.

I think I needed to vent.

Well, you may be wondering, but why don't you tell your friends about these things? In fact, I don't know how to answer, I trust them, and I'm very grateful to have such amazing friends, but I don't know if they would understand me, so I keep and try to overcome my dilemmas alone, or try to talk to my sister when I don't have one. more output, which I'm doing now.

- Wow, I didn't think you would be like that at this level - he reveals, not saying anything for a while, but soon he comes back;

- Don't be like that Alice, you think too much, you worry too much, I've already quarreled with you about it, especially when it comes to your relationship with her, it hurts you so much, you don't have to think about the consequences of everything, just live and wait for what this can bring you, relax and do not cover anything, I know that Isabele brings you a lot of feelings, you know what this is, you just don't want to admit it, and I will respect that and I'll support you when I'm ready to admit everything, but first you have to give this situation a chance, fighting with it or storing your feelings will only make you more lost, go for me, I know how it is, but you are too young to be going crazy for such a simple thing - ends his speech.

I remain silent thinking and processing about everything she said and what I should do, but I end up choosing silence with an answer. She realizes this and soon changes the subject trying to make me forget all of this for a while.

13:30 and here I am, tidy and smelling, ready to go to Isabele's house, am I a little nervous? Yes, but I have to face it. I think about sending a message saying when I'm leaving home, but I end up changing my mind because I find this action unnecessary.

I keep fiddling with my cell phone until my mother knocks on the door saying she would be waiting for me in the car to drop me off. When I enter, I put on a song to help distract, but my mother decides to start a conversation;

- Why do you look so nervous? She asks, but without taking her eye off the road.

- Me? I'm not nervous, just apprehensive about doing a job with the person I fight most at school - I speak fast.

- Okay so, if you say, just know that I'm here to talk, okay? I know that your father and I spent a long time working, but we are still here for you- speak and look at me quickly casting a smile.

I just nod and go down to look at the view while some Ariana Grande music played in the background.

I come back to reality when my mother parks the car in front of the house that is probably Isabele's.

- Bye mom, when I see that it's close to over, I call you - I say goodbye after giving a short hug.

- Bye, my daughter, and judgment saw - she lowers the car window and sends a kiss, leaving afterwards.

I take a deep breath and head towards the door of the house, which is very pretty, by the way. I ring the bell and quickly hear a voice saying that it is already there.

As soon as I hear the door open, I lift my head and face Isabele, in his most casual way possible, this is the first time that I see her without her sweatshirts and school uniform. A blouse twice as big as her with a Star Wars print, black shorts, slippers from Monsters Inc. and hair pinned, but always with her glasses.

Simply cute.

She looks at me a little shy, I notice it because of the rosier tone that appears slightly on her cheeks;

- Oh hi Alice, sorry for the delay, I was finished fixing my room, you can come in - says an awkward landing and moving away a little so I can get inside your residence.

- Okay, can we start doing the work soon? - Yeah, maybe I'm being a little bit agonized, but it's the best I can do in this situation.

She nods in silence and heads towards the stairs, going after her until she gets to what should probably be her room.

There is literally the best place to define Isabele, it carries neutral colors on the wall transmitting a more calm atmosphere in the room, a space full of books on a wall, a television stuck to the wall that below is your desk with your computer and some materials drawing, on the wall next door is her wardrobe, and in the corner on the other side of the room is her double bed, with posters of these nerdy things she likes. But what I liked most, no doubt, was on this rug that covers almost the entire room, I could sleep on it so cute.

- Nice room - I speak as soon as I close the door, trying in some way to reduce this strange climate that is hovering.

She ends up looking at me surprised by the comment;

- Thank you, my mom ended up helping me to design it - Isabele says, but ends up changing the subject:

- As I said, I separated some notes on the subject of our work, as you probably are not well aware of the subject, this may perhaps help you to do your part of the review - he says and immediately after handing me his notes.

- Are you calling me stupid? I ask, looking seriously.

- What? No Alice, stop paranoia, I just wanted to help you, not everything I say to you is some kind of offense - she talks a little upset. I decide to keep quiet and head over to the desk chair to try to read what she did.

After that the weather got a little worse than it already was, but we started to do the work to get it over with. We didn't talk much, we just spoke the basics to understand what each one was doing and whether we were going the right way.

About 2 hours later, we finished everything.

- Okay, we finished everything, I think - Isabele says checking the work for the last time to see if everything was right.

- all right - I say, but soon remember what happened hours before, so I decide to follow the advice my sister said yesterday.

- Sorry for the accusation made by me earlier, I didn't mean to provoke you - I speak in a neutral tone.

She looks at me suspiciously, but then says:

- Alright Alice, I'm already used to all this, in all my situation and yours, I just don't understand why, I never hurt you, I never offended you, just tell me the real reason for being so angry for me - she crosses her arms and looks at me seriously for an answer.

I end up getting nervous about all this, I wouldn't imagine it would happen, that she would shoot all those words at me, but since we're here, we'll solve everything.

- Want to know the truth? I don't even know, maybe I'm an idiot, even today I try to look for a real reason for all this, but I don't really know, kind of things were turning into a snowball, until we let the situation we are in now - outburst.

- I understand Alice, but I don't think I can take it anymore, if you don't like me, that's fine, but at least we'll end all these fights - he asks in a calmer tone.

- It's not that I don't like you, I don't know, I'm very confused in my head. Let's do it like this, let's start from 0, we didn't get a chance to meet, let's do what we should have done on the first day of school last year - I propose to her.

Isabele looks at me a little suspiciously, but soon I see a smile appear on her face.

So I continue:

"Pleasure, my name is Alice," I say, extending my hand and giving him a smile.

She laughs, but then she takes my hand and says:

- Pleasure Alice, my name is Isabele - she says, destroying her smile.

Yeah, I think this job was better than I imagined, and maybe, now things can start to work out.