chapter 10

POV ALICE

Three weeks. That's right what you just read, three long weeks since the event at Isabele's house.

If I was going crazy before, believe me, it got worse after the kiss.

Then you ask me why, well, I will summarize what has been happening since then.

After the kiss happened and we fixed the cake, her mother came home with the shopping and accompanied us for the afternoon snack, and with that, Isabele started to pretend that nothing had happened minutes before.

I think her mother even noticed that something had happened, but she didn't comment.

I thought she would later call me to talk about what happened, but no, she just treated it as a collective outbreak and said nothing.

Exactly, NOTHING.

And as a good proud of myself, I ended up staying on my own about it too.

I will not deny that in relation to our friendship things are going well, oddly enough. Despite the kiss that Sunday afternoon, we have been talking more and more, and walking more together as well. I'm not going to lie that I really liked it, it's good to have her around and discover every detail about Isabele.

But on the other hand, being so close to her, especially after what happened, has been driving me crazy.

With each passing day, I have been discovering myself more, and also accepting my feelings for her. I never imagined liking a girl, not that I dislike it, ever! I always liked to go after and understand about the LGBTQIA + community and I love to discuss these things with Fernando.

THAT! How could I forget this detail?

The best way to deal with this is to talk to the person who is part of the community.

I know I have my sister who is always ready to listen and help me, but she is straight, Carol would not understand 100% of the dilemmas I am going through, so I will turn to my beautiful friend.

We were in the courtyard at break time talking about what Marina likes to call: The best day of the year.

Her birthday.

Marina always liked to throw parties and celebrate her birthday. You have no idea of ​​the size of the event she did on her 15th birthday!

But now that she is going to complete her beautiful 17, she decided then, in her words, to do a more peaceful thing.

- So guys, this year I think I'm going to have a pool party at my house, just for the people closest to me, of course, all of you are being invited, but interpret this invitation as a must, I want everyone present, whoever don't show up, I'll block it - said Marina looking at everyone in the group.

As I was propped against the wall in the covered part of the patio, Isabele thought it would be a good thing she would lie on my lap to do her daily reading.

I am not a beast or anything, I took advantage of this situation and started to make a light affection on her hair.

- Are you going to Marina's birthday? - I spoke quietly intending to only hear her.

- What? What birthday? - She said confused, taking her head off my lap and sitting next to me.

- You were really focused on that book, you just missed Marina's speech about your party, it seemed like we were being called up to do military service - I say with a grimace.

She laughs at my speech and says:

-I don't know if I will, you know I don't like these things - she said a little awkwardly.

Marina who ended up listening to the girl's speech, then shouts:

- WHAT?! you're not even crazy, Dona Isabele, you go and I won't take no for an answer. Who's going to endure Alice's boredom? - Marina joked.

I look offended at her and say:

- You never let go of my foot, right, if you fall and drown at your party, I already say and advance that I will not be responsible. - I speak and end up getting slapped on the leg by her.

I hear a laugh beside me and then turn towards her;

- Please, come on, you saw it, I can't stand this bunch of plague alone, have mercy on my patience - I make and end up making the biggest puppy face I can, but I just get a laugh and a squeeze on the cheek from her.

Yeah, that last act made me a little embarrassed.

- You are very stupid Alice, stop it. Okay, I'll go then - says Isabele looking directly into my eyes and then smiling.

I stay there lost in his smile, when I hear Fernando's voice:

- Hey couple, wake up for life, already played and we have geography class now, leave to date later - joked.

I won't even say that we look like two red peppers. She got up quickly heading towards the stairs in an act of hiding her shame, and I went to Fernando's side and said:

- I need to talk to you later - I said looking seriously at the boy.

- I'll call you later and talk with more privacy, okay? - She spoke in a serious way, already feeling what could be the subject.

I just agreed in silence and went like that to the classroom.

- I can't believe it happened and you haven't said anything to us until now, Alice !!! - exclaimed the boy on the other end of the line after I talked about the kiss.

After I finished studying the afternoon, I heard a call from Fernando and decided to tell at once about the kiss and all this confusion inside me.

- Hey friend, you know how complicated this is for me, and you know me, you know that I wanted to resolve all these issues before telling you anything to avoid expectations in you, but it's all a mess and I don't know what to do! -I regretted my friend.

- Calm friend, I know this is new for you, and you are going through all of this for the first time and soon with the girl you did not "support" until the beginning of this year it may be even crazier, but let's be honest right Alice sooner or later this happens - said Fernando, but soon continued;

- I know it must be difficult, mainly because she is also a girl and you must be in the moment of questioning what you are and the like, but you know that this is not wrong, friend. I am here for you, your parents, your sister, your friends ... we will always be here for you and we will love you the way you are, even if you are a mackerel sometimes - laugh in the end.

- I love each one of you and I am very grateful to have such people in my life, but what am I really? And what do I really feel for her? What if she doesn't like me and just wants my friendship, why did she pretend that nothing happened? What if my parents don't accept me? I'm not ready to be disowned, Fernando! - I lift and soon I feel some tears come down.

- Seriously Alice, calm down, you're thinking too much, try to relax, you're putting the cart in front of the oxen. You don't have to come out now, you only speak when you're ready, everything has its time! Until you talk about it with your friends, we will not force you to do anything, even though we have long been aware of your real feelings for Isabele. We just want your good, my love. But know that we are here, we will always be, and I am sure that no one will deny you, your family loves you, Alice - says Fernando in a comforting tone, and then continues;

- And you know that the only person who can help you answer all these questions, is Isabele. You don't know if she doesn't like you or if she doesn't like the kiss. She is shy and reserved, and even if she is a lesbian, she must be very young to all of this, imagine the confusion in the girl's mind because she is going through all of this precisely with the girl who caught her most - speaks in a tone more relaxed.

I laugh and wipe away the tears I shed seconds before.

- Life is crazy, you see, I don't even know what's going on in her head, she doesn't give any clue - I'm sorry.

-Fuck right fagot, you are now being blind, you are in the greatest love every day at school, I never saw Isabele so open and so affectionate with someone like she is being with you now! I think the chances of her liking you are also high, "teased Fernando.

- Really? I think it is just a matter of your fanfare, "I say.

- Stop being a clown and open your eyes to what is really happening! Not only am I the one who sees it, all of our friends already see it, and I can assure you that the crowd for you two is great, you see - he teased.

- The way you are, I don't doubt it, but I can't deny that I have the best friends in the world. But the problem now is, what do I do? I ask.

- Friend, this won't be a problem, the best event to start acting has arrived, baby, Marina's birthday will be perfect! - exclaims excitedly.

Soon after that, Fernando started planning several things that are going to happen.

I just listen and laugh at his travels, but I couldn't be happier and more grateful, I am very lucky to have people like him in my life, who will always support and love me the way I am, and this is really a privilege.

He's right, Marina's birthday is coming soon, let's get in on the action.

My father, may I at least come out of this as dignity.