Chapter 16 ‘No goodbye’

I was laying on my bed the day was almost over, well almost by that I mean that it is almost dark now so the light part of the day is over. It is 6:30 pm I think I have no idea I don't really keep an eye on the time. Yeah everyone probably already guessed it I think the all the time about Jayden. How is it possible that he could have won my heart? He's so perfect, no stop it Aurora come on he's a heart hunter let it go! He will probably break your heart again.

Let it go..

Can I let it go? Can I?

Someone knocked on the door.

"Who's there?" I asked the person on the other side of the door.

"Dad" He said in a tone that was very familiar to me from the past, he always used that tone when I were sad and locked me up in my room, not that I often did that.

"Oh come in" I sat up straight and the door opened.

"Hey honey..." he said in the same tone that he was already talking in.

"Hey dad" Would he know?

"How are you?" He asked cautiously.

Yes he knows!

"I am fine dad." And I tried to put on a happy mask, but I never succeeded and now I haven't either.

"I know what Jayden has done.." He said softly.

"From whom?" But of course I already knew the answer aka mom.

"Jayden " Jayden?

"Okay, he told it himself?"

"Well yeah, he told me how shitty he felt about what happened and 'shitty' is nothing how he really is feeling, Aurora have you seen his room?"

"Yes, his television, cupboard, chairs and bed have been completely demolished .."

I pushed my eyelids together and took a deep breath and looked at my father

"Aurora, he cares about you. I've never seen him like that. He even skipped his daily meal. It's just not like him!" I didn't know what to say.

"Come with me." My father ordered, and I followed him to Jayden's room. He opened the door, literally everything was broken, broken pieces were everywhere I could no longer recognize what what was!

I covered my mouth with my hands.

"Oh.. My.." This was bad!

"I noticed since you met that he isn't himself without you, Aurora."

"He's still my protector, right?" I looked at my father.

"No Pearl."

"No?" I said surprised.

"He is afraid that he will hurt you or something and that he cannot control himself."

"What? No he promised me that he would try to make it right! Where is he?"

"Jayden went home just half an hour ago."

"What? That can't be true! He wanted to make it up to me." I said with a squeaky voice.

"He also said that he doesn't want to put you in danger because of the way you two feel about each other." He said cautiously.

"So that's it then, he's not coming back? He is giving up, just like that?" I looked hopefully at my dad, but he shook in the negative.

I let myself fall on the ground. How can he do this to me?

"Dad, he hasn't even said goodbye." I said sobbing.

"I know honey." He got down on his knees and gave me a hug. It has been a long time since we hugged.

"How?" I said while crying.

"Shhh" He ran his hands through my hair.

"He left me, he would make it up to me! He can't do this to me I have fucking feelings for him dad"

"How stupid can I be? I chased him away!" I said miserably, because that's how I feel right now.

"You didn't chase him away, Aurora." He said with an assuring voice. I let go of him and got up.

"Oh no? Then why did he went home then? Not because he was homesick!"

My father had no objections, that means that I am right.

"You see!" I said. He looked at me compassionately and I walked away.

This is my fault!

I walked down the stairs. I wanted to go to the garden to take a rest or something, but probably just to think.

I walked in the garden towards the lake and I lay down on the grass on the edge at the lake. I closed my eyes and listened to the moving water that is stuck in a hole just moving around but not allowed to go anywhere else.

"I feel the same." I said soft.

And then time flew by so fast I couldn't count the time in the beginning, in my heart break process I found myself going to the garden a lot to blow off some steam, walk for a bit and to think for a bit. A few weeks later and I was again at the garden.

"Aurora!" It was the girl I didn't know the name of and who kissed Jayden.

But I just couldn't be mad at her, she didn't know anything. She just had a crush on him and took her chance, why would I be mad at her for that? I know I would have done the same.

I straightened up.

"Hey ehm what is your name?"

"Amber" she said.

"Is it true?" She asked curiously. I looked at her questioningly.

"What?"

"That Jayden is gone."

"Yes" I answered.

"He kept talking about a girl she was special. I had no idea who it was I hoped it was me, but a few weeks ago I understood it's not me." I still looked at her quizzically.

"I was blood bank so said, so well he did tell me things sometimes like about that special girl now I know that's you .." I sighed.

"I am so sorry Aurora that I kissed him a few weeks ago, I thougt that is maybe was me but I was so stupid to think that geez! I tried to find you but I couldn't find you anywhere and I couldn't enter the mason without permission and I didn't get permission."

"Well I am not as special as he said otherwise he wouldn't leave and it is fine Amber, it is." I sighed.

"Oh yes you are even more than just special!" She said, hoping to cheer me up.

"Thank you Amber."

"I know where he lives. I could take you to him, you guys deserve true love."

"You know where he lives? But how even if you could take me there, I could never leave! My father wouldn't allow that!"

"I know a way." she said mysteriously.

"Really? But I really think that is not possible, he left not for nothing. Sorry I have to go." And I walked away at a fast walking pace.

I was very attracted to that idea, but I knew better.

I walked inside and something that I saw called my name so loud that I could not ignore it.

The secret door

Jayden didn't let me there in because 'flowers die in there'. Well you know what, I am no longer a flower of his! I am Aurora Fucking meijer!