Chapter 4: Lost

Lance's pov

Who is he, how does he know me does he know of my past ,why does he have a ring similar to mine,is he wearing a mullet. So many questions popped into my head but I must say that the guy was cute. Ok he is actually hot but wait does that mean I'm gay ? no no no no I'm not gay I'm straight. Go away thoughts.

Keith's pov

How does he not remember me. After those words I felt my entire life shattered to pieces. The love of my life does not even remember me. And it hurts. I could feel tears coming through but I pushed them back. I can't show weakness in front of him he will know something is up. "  Umm excuse be but do u know about my past? U see I was in a car accident and lost my memories so I couldn't remember anything from my childhood. "Lance told me. And instantly my heart was broken again. He had suffered and I wasn't there to help him. He forgot me all cuz I wasn't there for him. I quickly put on a smile and said" My name is Keith Kogan. U and I were childhood friends. " It hurt so much to tell him this with out telling him we were lovers too. Lance smiled at me with a goofy grin on his face that he always wore on his face as a child. The train stopped and I got off at the station that led to my school and started walking but I heard footprints behind me and turned to see Lance following me. " Umm why are you following me?" Lance then looked to nervous to speak, I wondered if I did something wrong but he finally spoke up and said" this is the way I go to school. I go to school at NYU." " Well guess we are school buddies then cuz I go there too." I said with a hurt smile on my face. But Lance only made it worse with his smile that shined bighter then the sun. Man today is going to be a long day.

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As we continued on our path to the school I spotted James hanging out with his little friends . Man I hate that guy he is always picking on me and trys to annoy the living day lights out of me. Me and Lance continue to walk in until James saw me and screamed

"Yo fag". Me and Lance turned around.

" I thought I told you to go jump off a roof." James snarrked. Man how I hate this guy.

"And I thought I told you to fuck off."

I growled back. I started to walk off when James then said,"I see you got a new fuck buddy. How about letting us have some fun sometime." This made me really mad. Before I knew it I ran twords James punch the crap out of him.

"Don't you ever go near him or else you will regret it." I warned. James little friends started to run away but James was still on the ground holding his face in his hands. Just when things couldn't get worse the principal saw and told me to follow him. I looked back at Lance and he was scared. His eyes looked like he just saw a ghost. When I tried to go twords him, he started to back away slowly then  turned around and ran away. I felt a sudden pang in my heart and in that moment I knew I had lost him. The sky began to turn gray and the reason started to pour as if on cue.

" Mr.Kogan " the principal shouted but I didn't turn twords him instead I went in the opposite direction and headed home.

The rain was my only comfort so I started to sing my feelings out

How can I say this without breaking

How can I say this without taking over

How can I put it down into words

When it's almost too much for my soul alone

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

Yeah it hurts like hell

I don't want them to know the secrets

I don't want them to know the way I loved you

I don't think they'd understand it, no

I don't think they would accept me, no

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell

Yeah it hurts like hell

Dreams fight with machines

Inside my head like adversaries

Come wrestle me free

Clean from the war

Your heart fits like a key

Into the lock on the wall

I turn it over, I turn it over

But I can't escape

I turn it over, I turn it over

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

I loved and I loved and I lost you

And it hurts like hell.

Once I was done singing  I was at shiros house I went inside and the first thing I heard was him yelling at me .

" Keith! Why did you punch another student and skip school I thought I taught you better than that I'm so disappointed in you."

At this point I didn't even care what was going on and the tears just started to come out.

" I lost him Shiro. I found him and I lost him." I cried. Shiro and Adam started to come twords me and they hugged me. As they were hugging me I started to cry harder and harder man im so weak. If I wasn't so weak  Lance would have never left. I could of make him stay with me and we would still be together. I don't know what else happened that night but I knew that I felt broken, alone, and most of all

Lost.