Chapter 26

I can't believe that he finally asked me this question, to be his girlfriend. We are official now, an item. I am pretty weirded out, I don't know why maybe because of the fact that he is my very first boyfriend or the fact that 4 months ago we hated each other's guts and I was bullied by him. That reminds me to ask him why he did it, I mean if I ask him now he might get pretty angry at the question and we fight on our very first day as a couple, or maybe he will answer it normally. I don't know, I guess I have to ask him to find out what his reaction will be instead of just standing here imagining scenarios in my head for something that didn't even happen, I just can't help myself, I am an overthinker. Okay, breathe Lori, what is the worst-case scenario, if he gets angry? I can handle him, what if he gets so angry and he hits me? That is enough with making things up in my mind. I should ask him, confront him.

"Hey, Noah can I ask you a question?"I am way beyond nervous right now, I'm pretty sure that a little pee just came out of me. Okay, Lori calm down, there is no reason for you to be nervous.

"Yeah sure, what's up?" He asked. I felt that there were a lot of people here and I want us to be more alone and talk in privacy.

"Let's talk somewhere more private."I sighed while shoving him towards the playground since it was empty.

"Okay, this is getting weird, what's going on?" He looked worried like I am about to murder him or something.

"Why did you do it?" I asked him, being more confident by the second.

"Do what exactly?" He was confused, I should've been more specific.

"Bully me, why did you do it?" I looked him in the eyes more confident than ever.

"Well," he sighed then started talking again. "Because I knew about the marriage thing since I turned 13 my parents were like oh so you're a teenager now, you should know that you're going to be forcefully married to Lorelai, they never told me the reason why until we went to your house for dinner. I was angry at my parents, angry at you because I knew that I won't be able to marry any girl that I fall in love with, yes I will date her but things can't escalate more than this, in freshmen year I met Sarah and she was the very first girl that I have ever loved and I know that you will laugh in my face like you're 15 for god's sake, how did you fall in love at that age. I am not the type of guy that lets anyone in or loves easily so for this to happen to me, it was a huge thing for me, a huge step. Then I noticed you, so the only thing in my head as I have to find a way to make you hate me so I can finally be happy, little did I know that this was never the solution. It's okay if you hate me now, I mean you didn't know about anything and out of the blue you just found a jock bullying you for no reason. I hate myself for hurting you. You're just like me, you have no say in this. But we're happy now right? That's what matters right?" He finished with tears in his eyes.

"You're going to leave me aren't you? I should've known better, I won't blame you." He looked down as more tears poured out of his eyes.

"No, I'm not leaving you, Noah, not now, not ever. I know that it sounds cheesy but I don't care. I just have one more question." I answered.

"Go ahead." He mumbled under his breath, still looking down.

"Why did you deny the fact that you knew about the whole marriage thing, most importantly why did you agree?" I asked, he looked at me with red eyes, god how can someone as tough as he is as fragile as him right now?

"Because from the start of senior year, I found out that Sarah was cheating on me, and it wasn't the first time, I remembered the whole marriage thing and I remembered that it was going to be you, I started admiring you from afar, I sound like a stalker I know but whatever. I realized how beautiful you are, I realized that I am so lucky to marry you and I started to catch feelings for you. The reason why I denied it when I was at your house was that my parents told me to never mention that I have known about all this for the past 6 years because they weren't supposed to tell me about it until the day came. And I agreed to marry you because I fell in love with you." To tell you that I was shocked was just a statement.

" I have got no idea what to tell you right now." I chuckled.

"You don't have to say anything just let me make it up to you. Because I was a douchebag these past 4 years and I would love to make it up to you." He answered with a smile this time.

"Okay." Was all I can say because he kissed me and god it was magical.