Ways to Gain an Admirer: Snap at Them

"are you fucking serious!?"

oh shit..

simple words came out of my mouth without even realizing, everyone froze in their spot including the emperor himself

he was probably not used to someone snapping at him let alone swearing, but for some reasons my anger didn't calm a bit, a storm was forming inside my body ready to destroy everything

"do you think just because you are a fucking emperor you can bodyshame others???" i took a quick glanse at Amadeus he was already facepalming thinking 'oh i have a funeral to prepare'

but at that moment i wasn't scared nor afraid, i was angry, so angry that if i didn't shut my mouth i'd lead myself to death by the hand of the emperor himself right at this spot

but you think i'm done ? nah it didn't even begin

"maybe you should blame your stupid Oracles for giving me such a name at the age of 5!! i was fucking 5 years old how can a 5 years old choose such a name ? are you kidding me ? i couldn't even pronounce that name heck i didn't even know such an ugly name can exist!! i named myself ? don't make me laugh"

"A-Aurelia my child" professor Alastair tried to stop me, my death was already confirmed but he was trying to at least make my it as peaceful as possible

"no let me talk! y'all never said anything that's why he exceeded his limits!"

oh Aurelia stop, you said all you could now shut up.. or you know what ? you will die anyway keep going at least die with dignity, as for the emperor he was taken back, couldn't even speak a word

maybe because no one tried to stop me i kept going ? i don't really know all i remember that i couldn't think at this moment

"as for my hair this is my natural hair color!! why would someone change their freaking natural hair color for the sake of people ???!! don't like it don't look at it!! you think you are too perfect that you can insult others simply because you want to ?"

ah i think i'm done now.. i took a look at Amadeus and for some reasons he felt amused yet worried, like if he doesn't know whether to prepare for my funeral or cheer for me, but everyone else looked scared, sweating and as pale as the walls behind them

well, i most be scared too right ? i mean i'll die and i don't even know if i'll have the chance to make my last wish

maybe this is the end written for me from the very beginning, ah i should probably say goodbye to Amadeus and tell him to send my farewells to my friend Flavia, and to my poor kitten i should remind him to feed her everyday.. she'd probably miss me

i think i should send a letter to my aunt as well, i mean she would be very shocked to hear the death of her niece like that

yeah i will just give my will to Amadeus and being the good friend he is he would make my last wishes true

i'd miss Eud-

a sudden audible laughter broke the silence of the room, everyone turned their heads to the source and were shocked to see the emperor himself, he was laughing like he'd heard the best joke in his life

i froze in my place, everyone seemed as confused as me, they started to look at eachother afraid of what's coming , but the anger storm never arrived

"honestly i thought i'd die before i could hear this tone again, it has been soo long since a soul dared to stand before me and here you are again Meliora" he seemed happy? is that a playful tone or he cursed me and i can't hear anymore?

did he just call me Meliora ? does he have hearing problems ? maybe he heard that Meliora is my main name or something ? but he said it correctly before

yeah he is a psycobath

i wasn't the only surprised one in this, everyone was frozen even his own royal guard standing behind him, but appearntly that royal guard is used to his psyco action because for a small moment he made a very small chuckle

for what felt like eternity, the tyrant finally spoke again "Aegeus", "yes your majesty" replied his royal guard whom seemed to be named Aegeus. ah he will probably give him the order of my execution..

"bring the medal of honor" he calmly said still looking at me, but his eyes showed different emotions these times, it wasn't tender at all nor the icy gaze anymore

wait what ?the medal ? am i not gonna die ?

the emperor stood up and went down to me, being face-to-face with him seemed even more scary, i couldn't resist turning my gaze to the floor avoiding every eye contact i can make with him.

"someone isn't as brave as they were a moment ago" he smirked, a playful smirk that reminded me much of Amadeus

they are really brothers.. i kept my gaze on the floor while he was putting the medal on my uniform, i am scared being so close to him

and what's with that familiar scent ? his smell was so sweet refreshing and familiar. a smell that brought many fast flashbacks and echoes, my mind couldn't focus on anything. everything seemed like a dream yet it felt so real, i was so distracted to notice blue eyes looking straight into my sea green ones, i almost gasped as he was so close to me i could feel his hot breath on my face

when did he become that close ? was i off-track i didn't sense him getting closer ? i held my breath of the sight of him being soo close to me, how could his eyes be so beautiful ? they are so similar to Amadeus' eyes yet so different , i wanted to take a step back but i was too charmed to move

he suddenly moved his face so his mouth can be close to my ears and whispered in a low husky voice "keep your face out of my sight, or you have to face the consequences" it wasn' the playful tone anymore.. it was something different.. a tone i've only heard in my dreams

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we went back to Eudora in silence, no one dared to speak a word, to an extent Amadeus couldn't find a playful remark, he was deep in thoughts. even our headmaster seemed distracted

that night i had the weirdest and scariest dream i've ever had in my life

darkness surrounded the place, pain was all i could feel, everywhere in every single part of my body. the smell of blood went straight to my nostril, my head started spinning as if i was the one losing blood

i couldn't lift my hand to see where the blood is coming from, all i know that i was wet everywhere, a sudden sharp pain came from my belly, i screamed till i've lost my voice... no one seems to hear me

i was alone.. dying, i wish death can come faster because this pain is unbearable, i started shouting calling for help, but it felt like i was alone in this world, i cried and screamed and tried to get up but my body was so numb and broken, i was certain that i had several broken bones

i wish i can die, just simply die.. please someone anyone please.. someone take this pain away, kill me please just let this pain go away

i couldn't stop my tears from falling, i tried to scream till i had no power to talk anymore. suddenly i felt sand in my mouth, my eyes and my nose

like someone throwing sand at me, i started to lose the ability to breathe, there were no oxygen anymore and my body was stuck. i tried to scream but the sand stopped me

every second pass by i lose part of my consciousness, slowly, like a very slow torment

my eyes started to feel heavy and my heart started to beat faster... a tear rolled down my cheeks which are becoming more numb with every passing second

"ambros-" were the last words coming out of my mouth before i completely lost the ability to breath..

i woke up breathing heavly, i was sweating in every inch of my body, i felt tired and sore, my heart was racing like i've run a hundred miles.

it's just a nightmare, a terrfying realistic nightmare.. i felt small pain in every part of my body but it was nothing to the one i felt in the nightmare, even Zoe, my kitten, sensed my fears and jumped on my lap to snuggle my hands.

i could see the clear sky through the window, the moon shine above the city in its magnificent light with sparkling stars around it, making the sky even more beautiful than it already is

i went to the balacony to get a fresh air, grasping my jacket as i felt the cold night air. i've been having these dreams since i came back from my quest to the Tree of Gnosi, they were lights dreams without meaning similar to flashbacks, but today's one was different, i felt every little thing like it was real

my belly still hurt from that sharp pain, it's like i've been myself throught that situation.

ugh today's accident has affected my mentality

"keep your face out of my sight, or you have to face the consequences"

huh it's not like i'm so thrilled to see your face, i'd probably never see your face in 10 years, i may even die before i get the chance to visit Ourania again..

i'm safe for now.. for the time being

or that's what i thought..