Chapter 9

When at 8 I came back I was asked many questions by the officials but I kept a straight face and lied that I don't know what happened after I fainted in the mist .It was tiring ofcourse but I was excused after I told them I have a headache .

My room was in the same way it was when I left I came to know that I was missing for 4 days and I found today in morning near Capitol bridge the one in south of the city .

I sat on my bed my bed sheets were all scattered and bed and study table were a mess so I cleaned up and then went to lay on my bed there was bandages on my knee as well as head .and I was told not move much .

I lay and sat thinking of the things the that had taken place.they were puzzling and made sense in there own way it seem but I was in mid of these things maybe I should ask the officials but I was scared maybe now was not time to do so maybe after I get some one to back me up it would be always better .

I was very fearful now I had lost very bit of self confidence I had in myself , I was very cautious in everything , slightest doubts seems very grim to me.I kept my doors locked I kept a watch as I had but now How do I explain that Damian was not what we thought the old man said he was same as us and was helping him get me to him .

I kept the distance I felt like an outcast an puzzling fear of being found out today was very down .It was gloomy for the first time I felt the need of someone to talk to me it was never the thing with me .I detested talking unnecessarily and to strangers and I seldom talked to people outside my friends group and they were my friends because of my dad not that I talked to them, they were children of my dad's friends. They were forced into me first I was kinda used to them .

As the life speeded up I went on being silent and more lonely always in my room ,going to people's house or parties and meeting people or going out of station or someone visiting home made me uncomfortable and frustrated I felt peace only in my room it was my place somewhere I felt I belonged ,somewhere I was free from eyes of people and there bothering issues .

Here I was feeling very uneasy even in academy and this house as many people came and went there chatter and talks and laughs irritated me. I was a person who loved to be in silence and music or book I loved only these things anything out of them was useless or completely not worth of wasting time for me .

It was partly because they soothe me and keep me cheerful but people they are very frustrating and to talk to them yields nothing as they talk of nonsense things like what that person is doing ? or what happened ? they dwell on these things not on the ones they should .

But today I needed to speak with someone diaries are a good way but I am too lazy to write as I feel it's exhausting to do so .

With all these thought I fell into an uneasy sleep .When I woke up it was mid night I went downstairs and from the fridge I took water and drank the whole bottle till my stomach was full .

There were many things in fridge like tarts ,sandwiches, cakes ,lasagna,chocolates and ice cream and many other delicious dishes. But my appetite was not comfortable with them .And water did the substitute work well for me .

I layed in my bed for a long time but the sleep betrays me so I take a jacket and go on balcony to check for stars and moon .

There is vast forest lighted full moon the tree tops create shadows like that of mountains and they look like they have adorned with crystals due to moon and vast path that goes to the mountains and beyond lays in between like a snake taking a sneaky peek .

The winds are gentle but very chilly and the stars are all shining in there own glory .It seems to me a very pleasant and calm place I would love to have days just like this sweet and calm with a breeze or two .

There were distant voices and hummings to be heard like a lullaby of forest.

Everything was peaceful and very good when I saw a guy waving at me It was Damian I was stunned to see him was he mad if they knew who he was I would be caught with him .Though the risk I still took it and went after him .My insides clenched and felt hella nauseous but yet I took the warm clothes and went downstairs.

"Are you crazy ?what are you doing here ?"I asked

"Don't worry they don't know what we know and also I am a regular student for them so don't have to freak out "

I was seriously filling in with urge to frustration why did this have to do things he shouldn't, I looked at with questioning glance he understood and replied that he wanted to add me in his group of friends who know of his true self as well as there parents who support us.I agreed this only made our things more easy for me .We talked a bit and I went back to room now my heart was aching like hell the things I have witnessed were way to not suitable for me .