Chapter Two : Group Chats Are Exhausting

Three days.

It took them three fucking business days to add me to their "parkour group"

Ew. Like WTF is "parkour"?

I scanned the group to check if I knew anyone.

Obviously I didn't. Obviously.

TDUFHG seems active on the group. Mostly because he posts his daily workout.

I only watch the videos , because- hello chiseled abs. Not like I want to try that weighted pull up anyway.

It was Wednesday afternoon, and I was day dreaming about wacky Wednesdays at work. Karen planned wacky Wednesdays , and we always got sloshed.

Wednesdays don't feel like mid week anymore. It's another extended weekend.

With all the hot TDUFHG shit going on , I completely forgot about the crossfit peeps.

Our CROSSFIT trainer , Ryan kept asking if I was OK. Ryan was like a brother from another mother. He always had my back. Even when I puked after my first snatch push press.

Ryan convinced me to join crossfit 2 months ago. But then the lock down happened and.. I .. pretty much got lazy.

Bros before hoes right? Right.

I DM Ryan.

" hey , sorry not ghosting you guys. Just been out of it since of late"

Ryan , my friend from collage. Sigh.

He doesn't reply back. So I check my emails and reply back to all the pending " I hope this email finds you well " shit.

Less meetings. More Emails.

Starting to miss Karen now. She would love narrating responses to emails.

There's a ting and I check my phone.

It was MBG. They were meeting up in the park at 6pm and wanted to know if I was joining.

This is what loneliness does to you. You just.. say YES to every fucking thing that walks.

I didn't even get a chance to respond because the group kept buzzing with immediate confirmations. I take a deep breath and respond " OK"

3 HOURS LATER..

I wished I had not send a confirmation. WTF was I thinking? I was clearly the most unfit person there ( I blame cheetos and the alcohol ) . MBG kept reassuring that I was good.

I know I wasn't. I sucked.

But, he would always smile and give me a thumbs up sign.

TDUFHG was constantly asking me which rep I was on. Was he for real? I cant feel my legs and he wants to know which rep??

When I got home that evening I was exhausted. I had to get some of my mates in that group. But that would mean, taking them away from Ryan's crossfit.

I felt like a scheming bitch.

It's just that.. I was lonely there, and extremely distracted by TDUFHG. Ryan would understand.. right?

He didn't. He left me a cold AF, message, telling me he was disappointed.

1 week later, Steve , Kaylee, Rahul and Mia joined the outdoor sessions with me.

There are times at night I feel like a shitty friend. I lie in bed , and stare at the ceiling wondering if all this was just worth it.

It wasn't.

I did not know what I was looking for and what I was destined for during this .. awful pandemic. My life was about to change.