Lovett Had Her Back

 Nat POV

I have been restless all week, I just can't get to relax, sexual release therapy no longer work for me; thanks to Caro, now I have nothing to live for, life suddenly loses it deep meaning. The fact that I can't kill myself is the only thing that keeps me breathing. Now been on Net just asking how I can get this release I so crave for without losing my dignity, because undoing what I did to Caro is one thing I do not know how to do; without losing my dignity. I can't beg her, I am the victim here; now I understand what it means to truly cross the line when you did not mean to, is this what she went through; all those years I really do not want to accept she suffer this much. 

I browsed through dating site but found on girl interesting enough to catch my attention then my eyes caught a site 'Pay for virginity.' I click on it and I saw result 'sell your first night on first night.com.' you have to be kidding me, someone fresh and untouched is all I need to get over Caroline. I checked and found out I had to register to be able to order my first virgin, excited I hurriedly registered, giving details like my name, date of birth, location, employment status, bank card details, email address and much more then log in. in the site proper, I found out the faces of the girls where blocked, so I picked one randomly. I was asked to send message to her, so I said hi and gave her my name, and enter my Google account. this will surely beat Caro tightness and give me my release once more, if you have not noticed, I love sex and hardly can I go four days without my sex dose these days. when Caro turned me down years back, at first I had gone four years without sex, then I had become rich and so lonely my venting avenue became sex, mean less sex if you asked me, then I fucked no made love to Caro and I want more so much more and then because my love life has been jix Destined not to settle with the one I want, I had gone and blow it all up on my face.

what I feel for Caro is so much more than want, that I know but since I am in this state of lying to myself, I keep refusing to search the feeling through and identify it, reason I am going to buy virginity rather than saying "sorry Caro can we start over?" I laughed out loud at that, I can just imagine Carolina's face if I go on one kneel and say those words. I believe she will just look for anything heavy and smashed my head as hard as she can if not killing me in the process. ok she might not be that dramatic but a slap or two I will surely receive and then I will give her the chance to officially rejects me again no thanks not a good idea

I stood up from my desk and started pacing once again. Caro no virgin yes, with that I walked back to my desk, settled in and continued with the chat as she had already responded

Caro POV

Positive 

Positive 

Positive

Positive 

I came out of Lovett bathroom with the text result I still can't believe what the result is and to God who know me I do not care, I was not born yesterday. I know the drugs that will have this thing out of me in less than a day, and I know I will be taking it first thing tomorrow morning.

I look up to see Lovett studying me 

"I know that look, I know the result and I know your resort, but let me ask you this how old are you?

"Why do you asked? You know I am thirty years old"  

"Good" she said. "You are a lucky woman, I know you didn't plan this; but I want you to know you are lucky because most of us are too scared to let this happen. When it does to few of us then those few are truly lucky"

"I do not understand you" I said looking confused. where is this babe going on this, I thought it wise to listen through

"When last where you pregnant?" She asked me 

"I me never, why do you ask?" I said trying to understand the angle she is coming from 

" never like seriously you must be very careful" she said eyeing me.

l walked to a chair closed to me and say down slowly, "I was not careful in having sex, I was just not having any sex and my reasons I am sure I am not in the mode to talk about.

Ok but that is still exactly what I am trying to say. you are thirty with very little or no sex you are so luck to be pregnant, most women in your shoes will have been down with fibroid or something but you are pregnant. tell me what are the chances you will be pregnant again of you flush this one out. Don't lose this chance to have a child, because you may never have this privilege again. 

you talk a lot of rubbish and you know it I am thirty not forty dor. I can get pregnant once I meet the man I want to settle down with

"And when will that be next week, month, a year, ten years. please Caro don't give away this chance to be a mother" she said close to tears

"Who said I was pregnant." I said looking away from her now I know where she is going with this, no way; I can't let her dissuade me. I can't keep Nat baby any other man yes.  

"We both know you are, so please think about this very well before you make your decision"

Lovett I know where you are going with this but trust me I can't keep that muster's baby, he does not want me and will not want me to keep the baby, look at me I am practically not going too well"

"This child is yours as well as it is his." She said gently 

"I do not have the money or the place to race a child., don't you understand this basics"

"I will say this once, if you decide to keep this baby; I will be the husband you never have in all ways but one, I will not be there sexually for you because I am not a gay, but in every other way I will. If you choose to be a full time mum, I will be the dad with no questions, that is how far I am willing to go but this child will be yours as well as mine." 

"God!! Do you know what you are offering? That you will always be there are you not planning on….." 

"I do" she cut me off softly "there is a clause, the father of the baby must know about the baby and whether he rejects it or not I will be your back bone through all this" 

"That clause is one thing I can't promise; I do not want to see that idiot ever again"

I know, you are hurt but this has happened and the child needs its father, we can't purposely deny him or her that, if he says he does not want anything to do with the baby then we record his voice and play it to his baby when the time is right."

"You are too bad, you thought this through just now or when" she only just smiled. "What of if he wants to be in the baby's life, I can't stand that man I hate him"

"You hate him enough to open your leg for him in the parking lot, you my dear is no slut drink or not, there is a chemistry between; you will get over whatever this is, if not just know I get you back."  

"Thanks so much Lovett, thanks for been there always for me. I really do not want to kill my child but I thought I had no choice" 

"You do my friend, you will always have me, but I know you are one tough woman you will be fine and girl you have been there for me too; more than you know, without you I will not have been able to withstand Queen's manipulations. You were my back bone those days when she practically want to sell me off to some higher bidder, collects the money and give me peanuts. You were never gamed; at first I hated you for it, but as time goes on I draw strength from you and that helped me pulled out at last, but I guess it too late. I am forty two now, no child, no husband and my last result when I and my man were trying; says I can't conceive again. Seen that revelation, Kim has not been consistence, I understand it, must be the reason his friend didn't press on, on you, but I guess the joke is on him now you are pregnant."

I breathe hard "I will do this for you even if I mend this with Nat, it is a possible end, this child is yours as well as ours, I will make him understand that"

"Thanks so much dear"     

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