Goodbye my Country

In one of the cities in Netherland, i was lying on my bed dreaming to be successful in my life, to make my life perfect after a lot of hardships i went through. i heard the steps of my father who was yelling at my sister.

Father: be obedient when I order you.

Sister: you are a tyrant, and stop making me all the time listen to your bullshit.                   I got bored of this daily fight, so I decided to close my ears and sleep. Suddenly, she heard a beating and ran to see what happened. Here is the surprised view where I found i sister bleeding on the floor and couldn't wake up 

Father: wake up! I'm sorry please don't die, we should take her to the hospital

      i was shocked and couldn't say any word ; i couldn't go to the hospital, but with sad expressions, my sister died because the harshness of my father , no love and no tenderness. These are the hardest moments for any person, but i got depressed and sad, I could not talk or express my feelings to someone even to my closest friends, this is like a stone which is thrown on you and you have no clue to put it away.

Ray: I am really sad and I can't taste the enjoyment in every shitty things. What is this feeling? , he did that, yes, he pushed her that's why she died he is aggressive in everything, I don't know how mom could endure all of this with a man like him, I'm dying inside. I wish I could leave him I hate seeing his face.

     When I went out from school, i sat on a chair where i started contemplating and having inner discussions. A man came to me 

Callum: Hi young girl.

Ray: what do you want mister.

Callum: I came because you are crying and I know I don't have the right to interfere, but you seem so sad.

Ray: No I'm not, I have nothing to tell you so I have to go, bye.

Callum: sorry. I'm Callum from Germany.  

Ray: Wow a German man!. I'm Ray 20 years old.

Callum: you are too young, I'm 45. I know I'm old hhhhhh

Ray: I have not said that. It does not matter if you are old or young. I'm sorry, I'm late my family will punish me for that.

Callum: Aaaa ok. I give you my number to contact me if you want or my Facebook. I may have a friend from Algeria.

Ray: ok, your Facebook, see you. (To herself while having a walk) he seems kind and nice I think we can keep in touch, there is no harm in this.

   We Kept in touch and met once again. Callum is a man who is intelligent and able to discuss about hard subjects. i was hiding a lot of secrets about my life i never spoke about, i thought maybe i would reveal all my pain to someone who is really comprehensive.

Callum: hi again 

Ray: hi, how are you doing?

Callum: I'm okay, what about you?

Ray: I'm doing well.

Callum: I noticed you don't talk too much. 

Ray: No, I do, but these days I don't feel good I went through hard things.

Callum: AAA ok I see; you don't seem good 

Ray: yeah my sister died, and this is making me think a lot how I can bear it.

Callum: I'm sorry to make you remember your sister's death, I didn't know.

Ray: Don't be sorry; the one who should be sorry is my father because he is the reason of her death, but he is cold hearted.

Callum: how could that be real? Your father is the reason, is that possible??

Ray: yeah of course why not, he is insensitive no feelings inside him.

Callum: But how that happened???

Ray: that day I was sleeping and I heard him quarrel with her as usual, until I heard a crush on the floor he pushed her and she was bleeding, then she died 

Callum: oh my god, this is really sad, but how can you be with a bad father like him??

Ray: No clue in my hands, but to stay with him I have no place and no one to help me. 

Callum: ok I see

Ray: I endure every bad action comes from him, he is not tender. Unfortunately he is my father.

Callum: You know what Ray I never saw my father because he left us me and my mom alone, he was not a responsible man who could take care of his family. My mom suffered a lot to raise me, and after all this I became a man and reached what my mom wanted me to be. But she died before I could give her my last kisses, that day I had a conference and I could not see her and touch her hands for the last moments.

Ray: ohh, your mom is dead. It is so painful when you lose your mom she is the only person who can analyze your pain and she has the ability to purify it.  Anyway, my mom is dead too. She died when I was 12 years old and was never treated well by my father that is what made her sad and depressed. You see my father is a shit in every single thing I live.

Callum: We are sharing almost the same things, but you have to be strong and never let anyone destroy your dream even if this person is your father. Do what you want, you are free in your life.

Ray: Yeah you right. I think I have to go now. Thank you so much for this discussion.

Callum: never mind. I hope we can meet again.

Ray: I hope so too, ok see you.

       (To herself while lying on her bed) I recognized that I'm not the only person who is suffering from his family.

Suddenly, my father entered with an evil eye slapping my face and putting his hands on her neck. i couldn't breathe and my tears was falling. 

Father: what were you doing with that man people told about you hanging out with a stranger? Say who he is.

Ray: Nothing. I swear.

Father: liar! I'm going to kill you little slut.

Ray: Yes. do it as you did it to my sister because this is your only job in this world is to keep your eye on people and that's why you are a looser you have not done anything in your life. 

Father: Shut up! 

He slapped her face then she fell on the ground and could not wake up. In addition she was taken to the hospital where she saw Callum again with her.

Callum: How are you feeling now Ray?

Ray: (with tears) take me away from him. I cannot stay here anymore, please.

Callum: Okay, I will. Just calm down I will take you to hotel where I am staying now. So get dressed and we will leave.

Ray: yes.

 He succeeded to take me out of the hospital and took me to the hotel where I a deep sleep after a hard day.

Callum: good morning Ray. How do you feel now?

Ray: I am fine

Callum: Take your breakfast. You have not taken anything from yesterday.

Ray: ok, thanks.

Callum: I need to tell you something.

Ray: Yeah, what's wrong? Tell me!

Callum: I have to go back to Germany next week and I cannot leave you here alone. Do you want to come with me?

Ray: But how can I go with you? This is so weird for me to live with a strange man.

Callum: Then we can marry.

Ray: Whaaaat? I am not sure about this. It does not seem a good idea.

Callum: You have to think first either to come with me or to suffer more with your father's humiliations. I am not saying that in term of using you, I know the feeling of being offended and how much that hurts.

Ray: Okk. But let me think first, I have to think deeply.

Callum: ok I am leaving now. When you want to talk to me here is my phone number.

Ray: okay. Thank you so much for your help.

Callum: Never mind Ray. I care about you that's why I want to help you. Bye.

   i spent my time contemplating and thinking about what Callum told me. Staying on the balcony made me asking and questioning myself.

Ray: Is there any harm if I start another life in another country and with a strange man. I want to be happy this is my aim in this life and I want to be far away from my father because he is the reason of every shitty thing I am going through. The only thing that I need to do is praying for god to be with me and making Callum a good person who would never trick me. Omg please help me please. Ok, I have to be brave and rely on god. He is my saver. I will tell Callum I agree to go with him to Germany, but he needs to accept my conditions first.

Here is his phone number I am going to call him. His phone is ringing, ahhh he has answered.

Callum (on the phone) yes Ray!!

Ray: Can you come? We need to talk.

Callum: ok. I am coming.

   After 10 minutes he came.

Hi Ray You said we need to talk

Ray: yeah about what we spoke in the morning.

Callum: yes then…

Ray: I agree with your proposal.

Callum: good then.

Ray: but I have some conditions.

Callum: like what??

Ray: I want to finish my studies there in Germany if this is possible. And another condition I don't want to you to impose on me anything I don't want or I don't like. I am free in my thinking.

Callum: agreed. I have a condition as well.

Ray: yes. Which is....

Callum: you must tell me about everything you are going to do.

Ray: yes agreed.

Callum: ok. I have to make a new passport for you so that you can travel to Germany. Then next week we are going to move. 

Ray: yes ok

    i spent my left days in the hotel overthinking a lot about my new life in Germany, i was scared a lot from everything, from Callum, and from my future there.

    When the day came and everything became real, i was obliged to face the truth and to leave my country where i was born.

Ray: ( to herself with sad face ) this is my country where I met a lot of people good and bad, here is my mom who took care of me and loved me, also my sister whom I spent my 20 years with, is here. Every person I love is living here 

I am dying inside and every piece within me is destroyed now. Am I going to forget all this pain and have a wonderful life? I am wondering but I am not sure if it can be true. I will miss you ☹ 

Callum let's go Ray. The plane is ready.

Ray: I am coming.