An ocean of thoughts part 2

Another problem in my own head, a conflict created through too many thoughts. I always think of things in front of me, sometimes even imagine dialogues that I might have with someone one day. For example, I might think now of a person in the future, maybe about the meeting with my brother Leon. What he would say, what I would say, and what would happen, how our fight would look like. What kind of a monster have I become since that day. What kind of things will I do to him, how much pain awaits him. Those are things I am thinking about, besides talking to myself in my own head. Repeating everything that is going on around me. I just have a feeling that one day, there will be someone, or there are already people that are watching me. My followers back in the dwarven kingdom, nowadays, maybe even more than that.