Longing for a love forgotten

why is love sometimes not enough ?"- anonymous

The next morning, Megan woke up, went to the gym where she did her morning exercises afterwards went to take a bath as she came out of the bathroom her eyes went to the full mirror where she could see herself naked.

She stare at her reflection her hair damp from the shower, her unshaved eye brows, her full lips with beauty mark at the right corner then to her huge breast down to her tiny waist and her huge butt. She has the kind of body girls pray for and do everything possible to achieve it including surgery.

While her face looks innocent the other part of her body doesn't, she was the definition of a seductress. Her kind of body was like a curse to her as it drew men to her like bees to honey.

As a teenager,she felt really akward about  her body built until she started seeing TJ who told her how beautiful she was with words and when they where alone with kisses and touches even though they never had sex she always felt satisfied afterwards.

He made her become confident in her body and she started to put on dress that suit her body type.

Her phone ringing brought her back from the thoughts of the past. She put on her bathing robe , picked up her phone as she sat down on the bed and stare at the missed call.

The phone rings again which she picked up immediately.

" hey! Girlfriend", her friend Betty yelled on the phone.

" Easy B, don't make me deaf" she replied the first real smile showing on her face.

The only person in this world who don't judge her, Betty Veronica Adams her friend. Betty was a beautiful blonde with an outspoken personality which she loves so much. Her realness was something she can never  trade for the world.

The first time she had discovered things about her from the the internet, she had been scared waiting for that condemnation and abandonment which she had gotten from other girls.

She had been so surprised when she had instead hugged her saying " why are they so mean? You are nothing like that, never".

She had cried feeling relief for the first time in 5 years at the time while she rubbed her back continuously.

Other friends she made following the incident had left her, some had even contact the newspaper, spewing more lies about her because they were looking for few minutes of fame.

Some had even pretend to feel sympathy for her but later on she had seen photos of her which should not have gotten out but did courtesy of them.

" How have you been?", Betty asked her bringing her back from her thoughts.

" I am fine", she replied " the party went well too"she added knowing why she called.

"Are you sure?" She asked her because few days after her marriage to TJ which had come as a surprise to her wondering how her friend could decide to marry him knowing their history. She had read about awful things concerning her friend which she never believed any having known her for a few years and she worried constantly about her wondering how she copes with social media bully all the time.

"Yes babe, truly", she said laughing so as not to make her worry.

" How is Ella?, Is she responding to treatment?", She asked her about her 5years old daughter who had to undergo surgery int hospital.

" She is getting better", she replied her voice brimming with happiness " I wonder who the good samaritan that helped to pay his bills, i don't know what I would have done you know", she told her, her voice tinge with unshed tears.

" You know I could have done the same thing now", Megan had replied tearing up too. " Married to a billionaire and all", she said laughing trying to lighten the mood.

After they spoke a bit they said good bye to each other. She got dressed and went downstairs.

"Good morning Madam" the chef said as she came into the kitchen.

"Morning Mrs Williams" she replied with a smile.

She took the already prepared coffee from her, thanked her and went to the dinning room where she met TJ sipping coffee as he read the newspaper.

" Good morning TJ", she said sitting down which he did not reply to only to look up at her then back to the paper.

She wasn't surprised by his attitude after all he had never responded to her morning greetings to him.

She had been the one doing it and hoping against hope that he will respond one day.

Guess it was just wishful thinking from her side.

As he drop the newspaper he said "we will be attending  a Gala on Friday get ready for it and it will be a black and white event so be prepared" after saying this he left her there on the dinning table without waiting for her respond.

It is only when it comes to stuffs like this that he communicate with her and she can't even say it is communication though it was an order, one she can't refuse cos she signed up for it.

She would be ready, it was one of the condition to obey anything he asked her to do and she has to as there is contract legally binding that states it which she can't disobey.

Even though, he distant himself from her, she can't deny that she still wants him and hope that as time goes he will be able to let go of the past and give her a second chance.

She has promised herself that since he forced her into marriage she will do her best to make sure he also acknowledge her as his real wife not in name only. She will make him go back to loving her. She just wants her TJ back, the only man who has genuinely love her for her and not her body.

The only one who had made life a meaning for her...

She never bargained that what happened, would change things so much for them.