A possessive feral wolf was even more of a pain in the ass to deal with than a hungry one. Even worse to have the person my wolf was so obsessed with nowhere near me, even if I had told him to go away. Adding the two together, and you had a mix that was driving me insane.
I'd always thought it was the hunger that would push me over the edge. It would have been so much easier if I was just hungry and killing people until I lost my mind. All the worrying, the wondering if he'd really want to go back, was destroying me.
Because it pissed me off. So much. That I actually cared about whether he came back or not. I really shouldn't. What had that idiot done to deserve me worrying about him? Wandered into my territory, gotten himself hurt throwing himself at an Alpha I told him was too powerful, and annoyed the hell out of me when I tried to help him. Even after I helped him. His default setting was ‘irritate the crap out of Alyx'.