Devious Intent

Everything was a blur. 

Just breathing, just walking, even just blinking, it all felt to me just a little surreal. My lips were still buzzing, tingling, stubbornly refusing to part with that feeling, with her, and as such, now it just wouldn't stop squirming around my face. 

I left Ash at the front lawn, waiting… while I scurried away inside the house, mumbling something about sleeping bags and tents or whatever, and had said anything in response, then I clearly didn't hear her. 

All the way in, dazedly staggering into my room, almost failing to even twist the knob to swing open my bedroom door, and once in, I didn't dare another go with that dastardly knob again and just slammed it close… the back of my head slamming along with it.

Right there, it was precisely right there, my heart had throbbed and gathered enough energy to beat out nuclear fusion, and because of it, was also on its way to a complete catastrophic meltdown.