killing time’s hurtful thoughts Chapter 7

the times spent trailing was nice, but things got blurred from time to time, so I got lost, but I ended up in a village where the name red and a other name came up Cressida; how pretty from there i followed back to an empty home and the was well care for and more this place was confusing and with the smells of death and blood ; it would seem the fire had liked the house, but not hurt it how lucky mmmm they left a bout a few days ago I can hurry and meet them I can finish my work and play so more in the dungeons the fun I had but seeing as i wasn't the only one to be sent out my fun has just begun her laughing ego off the walls of the horse soon we will see you soon

Finding my self the center of well everything wasn't new but what was new to me was all the love they shared with me and the look they had it wasn't fear or hate just love and this new feeling of family was so much but i took everything i had been given with a gran of sail for I only hoped this was not a dream i had a mother a loving one Hey pay attention what mom was speaking to you yes sorry what was that i was stuck in though now that you are home i must asked about your training with the sword oh I know it well yes she smiled then fight me what i could never mother brother she can't be for real she is and you must that's how she is but mother yes my son are you sure she moved at me we crossed swords mother ! fight me but i want to test you fine as you wish i through her off and attack back she was fast but so was I hit over and over she was just as mean trying everything to get me to yield this is fun i never had someone i looked away from her people had gathered of no i hope they don't get the wrong idea here i was then kicked and sent flying i landed with a thump against a tree she came running my goodness i am sorry Leo I got carried away mum i am ok but can't you help me up please you put up a good fight but you don't fight like your kind i will teach you how but for now get clean and eat something you will have a long day tomorrow for we start you're training with magic and the sword yes mother thank you she left I do need a wash and more then ever i started to make my way to my tent i was stopped many times i really need to know the customers of my people and fast seeing as they all call me the first star or first born or something like that i fond myself back at my tent but and a warm bath waiting fays i guess they seem to like helping me i strip down and relax a bit i soon realized that i was crying i can't seem to my mind was broken flashbacks happened to my father hurting me to the men i saw hurt the children i saw killed i was shaking the the men almost killing me and poor sam she went though all of it with me all of it she was even almost killed i don't know if i can lead my people or my family into the land i left but one things for sure i will have the kings head the tears stop but i grow warm oh gods i calmed myself i reached out to my brother i need some help if you don't mind what's the matter well um the magic hurts me what where you doing when this happened he asked thinking about this war and all i gained from it and what i have to lose now i see the only think i can say is keep your emotional control strong seeing as you don't know how to use it yet and mother plans tomorrow for you keep calm and all will be well thank you i closed off my mind that didn't help much but now i do know that i have to watch myself with emotions and ….i a thought ran through my mind i though that magic was not real but now that i know why couldn't i use it before why is it only now that i can i will ask mother tomorrow for now i need to wash and sleep my emotions are everywhere as of now and i remembered some really messed up things that i had pushed deep down i washed and dried off the tub was gone when i was dressed and a bed was there sleep soundly my love I smiled you as well mother the dreams less sleep took hold and i was out a soft hum helped with that no doubt it was mom how strange it feels to say that but soon it will feel normal

she's not a fighter she can't use magic what do i do calista she has been at it for days but to no effect she wants this i know but this does not want her i can't train someone if i don't know how i am training them she's better to find a elf to tarin her but seeing as that wouldn't do any good and seeing as i redid there training i am the only one to teacher her what did the queen see in her that i can not C it's been two days two days might i add you can't throw everything at someone and except them to master it one think at a time i mean look at her she didn't sleep for the two day let her rest and you take a bath you need one i will handle her magic training for the day you have been on grad sense we got her breath dam it your right i will do as you say but your cooking tonight have Adonis do it i can't cook and you know that have me do what now cook tonight please he lost this Battle her puppy eyes where the best but Adonis you're coming to the bath with me right he blushed yes my love i would love to i walked off have fun cooking nooooo

our tents where set up and the magic bath was nice it was calling my name but the reality hit me i just invited him to a bath with me oh gods help me now we haven't been that naked in a long time but don't get me wrong he has seen me but not the other way around i haven't laid eyes on any part of him in that way so this was a really big step for us cressy come on yes i walked in and he went to the other side of the of the shelf and began to undress i head myself the same way and went for a towel but fond none what the hell she didn't love yes where are the towels i don't know will there be more i don't know ok well just go he came around i instinctually hid my eyes but forgot that i was naked he took my hand with eyes still closed i followed him adonis yes my love do you have anything on right now open your eyes and find out you dirty man i stepped down into the warm water the hot water warming my self and cleaning my skin and arms i jumped adonis i could hear the smile he had on i swear to the gods that I am going to get you come on love you know all to well how crazy i am about you open your eyes and look at me nope i will open when i have a ring on my finger oh is that all you want don't we have two little ones who call you mom and if i do remember he pulled me to him that you love me none the less i do but i want to do this the right way the way that is right by the gods that keep me safe so i will wait to give myself to you my love but if you want to love on me and put that ring to say i am yours by all means do it fine i will wait for you and this war to be over and to have our life's back before we make it so

the warm weather was nice is cleaned all of my worries away I was pushing the poor girl to much and need to relax a bit I reevaluated my training for her she has no idea how to hold a sword so i should work slowly on that and strength was that but her endurance is strong maybe I can train her in short rang a lighter weapon like a staff or a bow might work just so she has something to work with and i then can work her more and magic on top of that she would be very strong and as the next queen i have to be careful mmmmm this is tuff i need to think about this if I train her to well in human ways then her kind will see her that way but she's not taken to the elves way i got out of the bathroom just as fast as I go into it not talking any time to look at my beautiful Man I call mine

I went out to hunt for a bit i know that elf's eat only what is given to them by the forest but seeing as i need meat i have to hunt and it helps take my mind off of things i went far into the forest hopping to find something if anything and I did some rabbits but i was looking for something a bit bigger I haven't had a minute to myself in a long wile I was on grade all the time and for good reason to many people want me dead and i can't blame them seeing as i am trying to change the life they have always lived it's hard to see change as a good thing but this is for the better i know it is seeing as the close we get the poorer the people are and are more then willing to help us and put up no fight i aren't the people who where really suffering to my home I know they will help keep them safe and the more the people the more money and i was told that my people had something planned for me when i returned and i could not wait someone snapped me out of thought a arrow shot passed me only because of instinct i shout back thump it hit something thump thump two more came at me the figure landed behind me hidden in a purple cloud of dust sleep lady red my king wants you alive and well I let my grad down dam it this dust was take my breath away and fast it was hard to breathe you like it it's something i made just for you

it will stop your breathing and your thinking will slow as well my eyes blurry and hard hurting crimson help yes he answered C is on her way and azusa as well just a little longer ok i don't know if i can the floor was hard as i hit it the blue monster saw this as an opportunity to show it's self you flash and smack the girl went into a tree but the blue monster felt it to fire it felt like it hid with i her mind letting her take the full brought screaming in pain clawing the ground make it stop please this sun is unbearable we are close to later a voce whispered she was gone the conversation cut short by this voce who she's mine now have fun gone they where gone every trace of them gone no smell no foot parents how is this the only think left was a purple hire covering the ground Cressida no

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