Golden Gate

Loving you is my curse.

Xi Wang

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"Why?! You asked me why?" He barked at me while showing me his evil smirk. "I never know if in this lifetime you are still an annoying woman."

I still don't understand why he can't kill me even though he wants to do so. I don't know what he wants from me because he only gives me a lot of vague clues. He stepped forward and made me step backward. His violet eyes are shining like amethyst.

"Stop!" He is still approaching me and makes me scared. "Stop!"

"Why?! Aren't you brave enough to give your life for them? So why are you afraid now?"

"Just stop! If you want to kill me just do it!! I don't want to see you again." I am screaming in front of him.

He can kill me now and I will give my life voluntarily to him.

"I am not afraid of you! Just kill me now! I don't care anymore!"

"Owh?" He is laughing.

"Why? Are you afraid to kill me?"

He stopped. His sharp gaze penetrates me suddenly but I am not scared anymore.

"Yes, I am." He responded coldly.

What?!

"Fei Fei, don't test me."

"Why do I have to?! You are not worth it!"

His face becomes pale and his amethyst eyes become colder. I don't care anymore. He just kill me and all done.

"Fei Fei, I promise you that I will never let you die before you realize that I am worth it."

"What?"

"Fei Fei, listen to me." He stares at me. His right palm is rubbing my cheek bone gently. "I will not let you die. Even if your lives become hell, I will never let you go."

I promise to myself to be stronger. I realized, I am here alone and no one can help me from him so I have to fight back even if I have to die in his hand. He has to know that he cannot control my life.

"You want to fight me back?" He is laughing again. "Don't ever think that you can escape from your fate."

"I will not. Don't worry. You know my life is yours, right?"

"But I want your heart as well."

"I will not give my heart to you."

"Unfortunately, you have to give your all to me." He takes a deep breath before stares at me again. "What if we are starting from the oath? I am waiting for you at this full moon."

"I want to ask something."

"What?"

"Where is Bai He Lian?"

He stares at me and gives me his bright smile.

"You don't need to worry about your friend because someone will take care of her."

Then he disappears…

Xi Wang said someone will take care of her. Really?

I don't know what I should do. I cannot find Bai He Lian. She doesn't have a family. She never told me about her family or relatives either.

'Prepare yourself for our oath in this full moon.'

That man really something. He always makes me angry. Does he ever love someone? Or does he have a heart?

'Don't worry! I will do our oath.'

I take a deep breath. I am surrounded by silence and I am here accompanied by emptiness. Without Bai He Lian. Without no one.

I don't understand why Sky let me meet him? Am I not suffering enough? I shake my head before tears roll down on my face. I don't wanna cry. I have to be stronger. If he really wants to kill me he just can kill me but I don't want to let him win over me before I give my best effort to fight him back.

***

Tonight is the full moon. Rain is just going down heavily. I am here in my apartment, still don't have any idea how I have to fight him yet. I am thinking about locking the door then I realized, it is useless due to him can come through smoke then pop up just wherever he wants.

I cannot contact anyone because no one believes in my story. They must think that I am just a mad girl who is desperate and has anxiety disorder.

"Fei Fei, You were waiting for me here?"

Once again, that man just pops up wherever he wants and now he appears in my bathroom. How come he knows that I am bathing now? I wanna scream but I don't want to show him that I am a little bit scared.

He smiles towards me who is still on the bathtub then approaching me. He looks so radiant tonight. His eyes look darker. Same eyes colour like common people but I know this is not his true self. I don't care if he can see my naked body. I am ready to fight him.

"Just prepare yourself. We will go and you will never come back again."

What does this mean? Is he serious?

"I repeat again. You will never come back here so get dressed now. I will not touch you with this body."

He stared at me from hair to toe and I don't know why I am not uncovering my body in front of him. Perhaps I don't want to look so weak in front of him.

"Fei Fei, don't worry. I am not interested in touching your body."

I calmed myself down before taking a deep breath then stared at him back.

"If you are not interested in me or my body why are you not waiting outside while I get dressed?"

He raises his fingertips then in seconds my naked body is covered by a set of hanfu. What is he wanna do?

"What are you doing?" I asked nervously.

"Can you see? I help you to get dressed. Fei Fei, I don't want to waste my time. I don't want to wait for you on the outside."

I take a deep breath again. I just want to kill him now.

"You will never kill me."

"Have you read my mind?"

"You know that I can read your mind so why do you have to sulking now?"

"What?!"

"We don't have a lot of time. Let's go."

"Where?!"

I am shocked because he brought me to the same place where I met him ten years ago. Is he choosing this place to kill me? He is so smart and calculates well. If I die here then no one will know so the case is closed.

"Do you really want to kill me here?"

"Not here." He answered.

This place at night is so scary because no one here. I can see the moonlight on the dark sky just delivering a creepy atmosphere. He grabs my wrist and slash my palm suddenly. I am shocked but I don't realize until I see my palm bleeding. That man summoned the dagger that appears through the same tree when I saw the same dagger that night ten years ago.

"What?! what are you doing now?"

He doesn't answer me but I know he made a formation with my blood. He grabs my palms and let my blood fall on the ground until a few seconds later I can see a golden ray like a gate in front of us.

"From this moment. You never exist in this world. Your world is with me."

"What….What!"

Then he forced me to get into that golden ray gate. I cannot see anything except the golden ray that makes my body disappear in second. He disappeared also. I don't know. I do not see him anywhere. Only the golden rays are surrounding me now.

'Am I die now? Am I going to nirvana now?'