~13~

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I saw him leaning back and putting his hands on her hips.

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YO-- He didn't do what I think he just did right ?

"How the fuck can he touch her like--" the sudden pain on my tongue make me shut my mouth and close my eyes as I tried to not focus on the pain I was feeling. "This is what I get for making dick moves." I sincerely felt bad. I wanted to go and talk to her, but I mean I wouldn't have talked to me if I was her.

"I should stop being jealous, when all I'm doing is being a jerk." I sighed as I ruffled my hair and put my phone down to join the Hyungs downstairs.

-- M E A N W H I L E / Y / N ' S P O V --

"I'm ticklish, stop!" I shouted as I laughed "Oh my god!" I wiggled nonstop, while he took pleasure to see me die from laughter. "I'm gonna hit you."

"Okay, okay." He chuckled and moved his hands away from my sides "You will eat the rest at home all right?" He said waiting for me to confirm. I simply nodded and lied down on the little couch. "The Live was fun right?"

"Yeah, I really like to talk with Army when I miss them." He smiled "I wanna go on stage and perform." He sighed while he stretched his arms. It's true that it's been a little while since we performed on stage. It's still so fun to do.

"Hmm. Me too." I sighed and closed my eyes "I'm sleepy..." I murmured

"I'm almost done," He looked at me "I'll be quick, hm?"

I lazily nodded and closed my eyes again, waiting for him to go home together.

-- 2 H O U R S L A T E R --

I felt my body flying, it's like I was in the sky and the sky were caressing my body. I was like in a dream and I didn't want to wake up anymore. I wanted to stay in it longer, there was no stress, no grief and no one was there, I was alone.

"longer...please..."

"Yah, what is she saying?" Someone whispered

"I don't know she kept talking in her sleep and I tried waking her up, but I had to carry her."

"She looks tired..." Someone else whispered

"She cried in her sleep, I swear it's been a long time I didn't see her crying."

"She was sobbing y'all, it was painful to see."

"What did she say?"

"Where is Jungkook Oppa?" I suddenly murmured with a raspy as I slowly opened my eyes "Hobi are you done with the--" I widened my eyes "What are you all doing in my room?" I said surprised and kinda scared that we made an orgy or whatever.

"Daebak! She called me Oppa!" Jungkook suddenly exclaimed but got hit by Jin "It hurts!"

"It was the goal. Hurting you." Jin laughed

"Okay, but what are you doing here?" I lowly asked "Could you leave, please...?"

"I just carried you here, 'cause you were sleeping in the car." Hoseok explained "I'm going in my room." He looked at Jungkook and then at me as I murmured a little 'thank you'.

"Okay, guys we're leaving." Namjoon said as he gently pushed the boys out of the room. "See you later Y/n-ah." I smiled and waved at them. I felt extremely exhausted today. A lot happened.

I was feeling stressed and very hot, so I decided to take a shower. I needed it. At least, it's like I put my life on pause for 30 minutes. I would have time to reflect on what happened today. Just thinking about it, my heart sinks in my chest. I know I shouldn't be feeling this for Jungkook, but it's like hidden feelings that resurface at the wrong time. I'm not even mad at him anymore. We are not together and he does not have to justify himself. I have no reason to be mad at him.

"It's just a fucking mess." I lowly said

-- 2 D A Y S L A T E R - L . A --

"You can go in your hotel rooms, but don't sleep too late," Sejin took his own bag "because, we'll have to wake up early to go to the rehearsal arena." He smiled "I hope you guys are ready?"

"Oh it's gonna be so fun, I'm excited!" I squealed after being silent for the whole trip "I'm really excited." I smiled like a dumb kid who smoked weed. They all turned to me, surprised by the sound of my voice. I can understand, I haven't said a word since last night. "Mwo? (what)" I asked

"No, nothing." Jin said as a lips curved up

I found the program quite interesting. We are going to do a Grammy performance even if we have not been nominated, we have lots of things to do in the United States and I am so excited and happy.

"Gajyeowa bring the pain, oh yeah ~" I lowly sing with a little smile on my face as I took my backpack and--

"She is so tiny right now." Namjoon said as he UwUed and looked at me with stars in the eyes "Such a little cute bean."

"Ruby is very happy right now," I smirked as I did my aegyo "Ruby want to eat, Ruby is hungry. Is Oppa gonna buy Ruby some food, hmm?" I exaggeratedly pouted and widened my eyes in a 'cute' way. I puffed my cheeks and put my fingers on it.

"No fuck off, you're not cute anymore." He laughed

"See, that's why I don't call her cute or tiny." Taehyung added "She always end up scaring us with her 'aegyo'." He chuckled

"You guys are exaggerating." I chuckled

We then took our luggages and walked toward the elevator. The hotel was very beautiful, the floor was marble and it smelled cool inside. It wasn't the first time going in the United States, but it still amazes me.

When I was about to carry my suitcase, I felt a warm hand on mine. "Let me carry it for you." He gently said as he looked at me. "It must be heavy."

"Jungkook," I gently said "I can do it myself." I tried to take it back but he was already heading toward my room as he pulled my suitcase with his other free hand. "Bruh."

I gave up on trying to get my suitcase back and finally followed his steps. I wonder why he knew the number of my hotel my room, but whatever, I don't give a shit.

While we were slowly arriving in front of the door, I took my Electronic card and pass it on the scanner next to the door to open it. "Thank you Jungkook, you can give it to me now." I lowly said as I looked at him. It was kind of awkward right now and it's new for the both of us to be awkward with each other. "Jungkookie?"

"Oh...yeah. Sorry I was thinking." He gave my suitcase "Uhm...if you need something, my room is just in front of yours." He smiled and walked to the door in front of mine. "See you later, Ruby."

He did a little wave and opened his door to then close it behind. I closed the door and walked toward the bed. The room was kinda big. The bed was looking comfortable, so I jumped on it and lied down for a little while. A lot of thoughts going though my head.

After taking my mind back, I went to take a shower and I decided to put on high waisted jeans with a long sleeves crop top turtleneck and my favorites Nike Air Force. Yeah my outfit is not so fashion, but who gives a fuck?

I decided to let go of my hair and let it dry like that. I put raspberry mist on my hair and a little Gucci perfume. The one Taehyung offered me for my birthday. I felt fresh.

*knock knock*

"Yooooooo, we just arrived and they're already bothering my m--," I opened the door "Jk?" I said a little bit startled

"Am I bothering you?" He asked as I let him come in the hotel room

No. "Yes." I widened my eyes "I mean NO!" I shut my eyes

"Oh, don't worry it's okay." He laughed "I came here to ask you if you wanted to go out with me and the boys?" He came closer to me

"I bet Jin, Namjoon and Hoseok aren't coming, right?" I chuckled

"They aren't." He smiled "But the manager and 2-3 staffs are coming with us, but they'll be somewhere else, we'll just have to call when we'll be ready to go back to the hotel."

"Okay." I simply nodded as I widely smiled, revealing my dimples on both sides of my cheeks

Are we just gonna pretend nothing happened...?

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