Mixed Feelings

Austin's POV

"Hey Jess. What's up?" I nervously asked her-rubbing the back of my neck. Her eyes widen as she looked at us like you serious?. "We were just talking Jess..that's all" I assured her even though I was lying through my teeth.

"Oh okay then. I trust you" she giggled and skipped over to me kissing my cheek. Damn I feel like a asshole now. I looked slightly down and saw Mia rolling her eyes.

I decided to ignore what she said about Jessica not loving me because I believe she does. I think?. When we were done shopping at one to many stores we left-heading towards the parking lot to go home. Jessica came to Texas with me. She's on tour with me right now. We have been dating for a few months, my crew has mixed feelings about her. Some thinks she's a slut and others like her. And my best friend thinks she doesn't even love me. I can't believe Mia told me she loved me though. Ever since high school?! Wow. I love her to-to be honest. I've always loved her she's perfect in my eyes, but I never told her because I didn't think she felt the same way. In high school I was just a band geek that's all. She was a cheerleader and I remember she looked so good in her uniform. Damn.

We reached our cars in the parking lot. Mia currently lives with me while I'm at Texas. I'm only here for a few more days before tour starts again. I want to invite her on tour because she doesn't have anywhere to live at right now since Kyle..yea. I don't know if she wants to leave her town though. Even though she said yes to move to Utah with me she probably would wanna come back and visit. Which I'm fine with so maby I don't have anything to worry about after all. Jessica gave my a kiss goodbye and got in her car. She staying with her friend because she told me she doesn't wanna be around "24/7" apparently it wasn't "healthy." I was fine with that I guess. But I have 2 extra bedrooms in my house I'm staying at for the next week or so-taking a little break from your. So Mia can stay in a separate room if she wants to-I hope she doesn't. Mia and I got in my car-I started to drive off. We were talking having a fun time-giggling-making jokes. I had to ask her.

"Mia I was wondering" I asked her. You could tell I was worrying. She looked at me and smiled. God I love her. She's perfect. I don't know what I'm going to do about my love life right now.

"Yes Austin. Why are you worried?" She giggled. Damn she knew me to well to not know.

"I was wondering if..you would like to go on tour with me?" I asked quickly. Her eyes went wide and her jaw dropped as she scream yes. I had a huge smile plastered on my face.

After that we were still talking as we drove home our fingers touched a little-we almost held each other's hands. She then said my name concerned about something.

"Yea?" I asked her now worried.

"We can't keep having sex" she told me. I asked her why even though I think I knew the answer. Jessica. "Your with Jessica and we can't keep doing that no matter how much I don't like her. Your with her not me, even though I love you and I think you love me? We can't" she explained. I knew it.

"I do love you" I assured her. She smiled and looked up at me. "But your right..shit I know" I added. She looked down and there was pout on her face. I wanted to take her hand that was in her lap but I was scared she would flinch and pull it away so I just looked back on the road-driving home.

We arrived at my place after we spent all day shopping it was already 11 ó clock. Like what?? She got out of the car, hugged me, then went up to bed. I missed her already. I got a text on my phone. I looked down and saw it was Jessica-I didn't bother looking at what she sent.

I went upstairs exhausted so I laid on my bed and my mind just starting thinking about Mia. Her perfect brown hair that goes down to the start of her ass. Her perfect lips. I remembered a time at high school when she was cheerleading and her ass just giggled when she was doing her cheers. I felt my cock twitch. It was getting hard fuck. I get up to shut and lock my door then decided to take my shirt off before I got under my bed covers so I wouldn't be as hot. I pulled my pants down along with my boxers. My dick was so fucking hard just from thinking about her. I slowly started to stroke it I closed my eyes thinking about her. About her body, her touch-imagining shes the one stroking me right now. I feel myself about to cum as I stoke faster. So good. I stroke faster and grip my dick tighter right before I cum. My cum running down my dick and getting some on my stomach. Is it weird I whispered her name when I came? I don't know.

I got up and saw the mess I made on my sheets and myself. I cleaned myself off then looked at my sheets. I had to change them. I took off the sheets and went in the basement throwing them in the washer- just in my boxers. I grabbed a new pair of sheets out of the basket downstairs of clean blankets and went back upstairs to change my sheets. When I changed them I snuggled under the blanket and snoozed off.