10

Andile

"I've laid her down, now unstrap the adhesive strips"

She is so small, she is staring at me with her big blue eyes. My daughter is very beautiful

I did as Andreas told me, she is playing around

"Fuck she smells bad"

Fuck she pooped! Yuck!

"Hey Andreas, why don't you wipe that and I will carry on from there", she just laugh and shook her head before she placed her hands on her waist

"I'm not doing anything, you said you want to learn now you are learning. Focus!"

This woman hates me!

"And be very gently", she is smiling when I have a huge problem, my nose is very sensitive, if a smell is very intoxicating then I'll have a running nose

"Wipe her, here are the wipers", she place a box of wipers on the bed

"Don't forget you were once this small and your mother and father were not disgusted by your horrible smell when you shit your self"

I don't think they changed my diapers, maybe they hired a nanny to do that. The Coltons are very cruel and have too much pride

"Nice one. Now grab her ankles and lift her up. Wipe everything and don't have that look on your face", she scolded smoothly

She is not a bad woman sometimes

I gently lift her legs by her ankles and wiped her butt, she is busy giggling while I am wiping her butt.

Children!

"That's like a good dad, wipe her clean, wipe it son"

She is making fun of me!

"Pat her dry"

"How am I supposed to do that?"

"Take your shirt and wipe her again"

"What?"

"Let her dry first then strip the new diaper on"

I leg go of her ankles and striped the new fresh diaper. Is it comfortable? Will she have a rash? Will it fit?

"Hey Andreas, will it fit? Will it be comfortable for her?"

She smiled, but her eyes showed pain.

Is she in pain because she couldn't do this to her first son?

"It will be comfortable and it will fit. Now close the adhesive strips and put her pants on"

"Okay"

I did as she said

I did it! I changed my child's diaper. I'll be able to take care of her

"Do you want to hold her?"

"Yes please"

She gently took her from the bed and gently placed her on my arms

Wow, I love this feeling

"Where is their mother?"

Their mother. I'll have to take the kids to visit her

"She's late"

Her death scared the shit out of me

"Oh sorry, were you two married?"

"No"

"That is why you are not gay?"

"I'm starting to doubt that, Alexandria is making me doubt that. I don't know how to feel and I don't want to be in a relationship. "

Alexandria is too fragile and I don't want to hurt him

"Do you still love her?"

Who? My brows crouch in confusion. Who is she talking about? I don't love anyone

"Their mother"

Oh. She thinks me and their mother were in a relationship

"Me and their mother were not in a relationship, I adopted them. They are now my kids. I promised her I will love and take care of her children"

She looks at me with a look I can't figure out, it's either proudness or appreciation

"I'm proud of you son"

Will I ever hear that from Mr Edward and Queen? This woman is a nice person, she has lot of love.

She even called me son, even though I'm an asshole to her.

"I wish you were my mum", maybe if she was my mum then I wouldn't have been like this.

"Augusta, why are you always rude? Why do you always snap? Who made you like that?"

So she doesn't want any extra son. All women are selfish!

"Mr Edward, Queen Colton, Emmy Colton, those people changed me. Sometimes I think I was adopted but no, they said the woman who gave birth to me didn't want me, she said I was a curse, I don't believe but. It started when I was ten, they would always taunt me about my colour skin and how that woman didn't want me. It got worse when I was fourteen and Queen with her mother in law Emmy started touching me in an unappropriate way. I told Mr Edward, but he didn't believe me. It got worse when they started threatening me and forcing me to sleep with them. They raped me, I was young and stupid. Then one day the beatings started, I told Mr Edward, but he didn't believe me and made me his punching bag. I was happy when I finished school and went to university, Ferro became my best friend and he helped me. I graduated from university and started my own business, I thought maybe when I came back after so many years they will leave me alone, but no, first day when I'm home I don't remember what happened but I woke up to someone on top of me, Emmy Colton she was raping me, my hands and legs handcuffed, I had a cloth in my mouth, they took turns. I told Mr Edward and he threw me out of his house, I was grateful and that how I got my freedom back. I still get nightmares at night"

Phew! That was a lot, I hope she doesn't hate me. I don't want to feel rejected. I want to be loved

"Who are these people?"

"Edward Augusta Colton is my father, Queen is his wife, Emmy is his mother", yep I was abused by my family

God please don't let another child have a family like mine

"I'm sure they lied to you, your mother would have never abandoned you. If she did maybe it was due to her helplessness. I promise you that. Your mother loves you wherever she is"

I wish that was true, I can't seem to believe that. If God loves me then he will let me meet my real mum, I have a lots of questions for her

"Sometimes Andreas, the way you take care of me and my children, you make me rethink about the way I hate women. You are a good person"

"Don't judge a book by its cover. I'm not a good person. I couldn't protect my first born, my own baby", and she started crying

I know she feels emotional, but how will I help her feel better?

"What happened? How did you lose him?"

Her eyes are filled with regrets, she starts sniffing, it's the first time I have seen Andreas so vulnerable

"I was young, naive and in love, I really loved him. In the process I got pregnant, I told him and he said he never wanted a child from a mistress, he told me he was married and he have a wife. I was shocked, hurt, broken, he lied to me. He told me to terminate it, I refused, I couldn't do it. Before he left he told me the truth, he lied about who he was. I was even more shocked, my dad hired a private detective to find out about him, he said no such person live in Mexico. I was sad but happy. Nine months later, after giving birth to my son I lost consciousness and when I woke up my child was not there, there were two policemen and they told me my child was stolen and the person who took him left a letter. I looked everywhere for him, I looked everywhere for my son. I worked hard and built my own businesses so that I can have higher connections and I can track that bastard down. Then my evil sister took everything, I still don't know how, my other two young sons don't want anything to do with me, they blame me for Andile's disappearance. It okay though, my friend got me this job, right now I desperately need it. I'm starting to lose hope, I put everything in God's hands, if he want me to meet my son then he will", I don't know what to do

I gently place Praises on the bed, she's already sleeping. I walk up to her and wrap my hands around her, I hug her, she hugs me back too

I'm scared of the feeling I'm feeling right now, why do I feel safe with her? Who is this woman?

"It's alright Andile, just do what your heart want"

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Love Nqorh