Episode 5

Battle of the clones: Clone Wars - Deelina

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Episode 5

Season 1

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Deelina sang:

Under a tree, listen to me, I listen to your heed, I feel no love from you as i have not my me.

I feel for you, but you never listen, I believe my soul was never meant to come.

I was never me because I have not this soul, no spirit to accompany me and my love I hold.

Let me love you, give me feelings, take my hand, I need your soft love glance.

God: You never see what I don't need to bestow down, I look upon your face and see two more about, in your spirit, in your soul, I see two to three, in your mind and in your mouth lies cries for peace.

I adore you, I love you, it grieves me not to let you hold my hand, as I have your soft love glance.

Deelina:

Lord, Lord, was that your voice?

God:

Deelina, Deelina, take my hand!

I have your soft love glance.

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Deelina was cloned from a Pastor who rejected her because she was a clone, her mother regretted having her, thinking she was possibly dangerous.

It didn't help her mom was Jewish in a Jewish community where they hated people who came from Adultery and incest, her mom came from both and it caused them both to be considered mamzeruts, In Real Life, the conventional attitude to mamzers is closer to what was expressed by a rabbi who asked a man: "Would you let your child play with a mamzer child?! Would you let your child sit in school next to a mamzer child?!"

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People cursed at them, so-called "Godly People," using curse words is a sin, people threw rocks at them, Deelina got hate from Gentiles for being a clone and was told "You'll never be loved by God, you soulless clone!" As Jews told her "You'll never be loved by God, he kills most of you at birth, that's how much he hates you!"

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Deelina was so shocked when God expressed he loved her.

Deelina was so confused, Deelina didn't know God loves all mamzeruts and would loves clones too, so Deelina asked her mom "Why does God only love me and no other clones or mamzeruts?"

Which offended her mom, who yelled "You'll never get love if I don't!"

But, Deelina genuinely had no idea God loved the clones and other mamzeruts, too.

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Deelina's mother named Lina was married to her husband when she decided with him to hold a clone baby in her womb, but when he found out she was a mamzerut, he divorced her, being purely Hebrew like Lina.

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He was with Deelina for 3 years, it broke Deelina's heart when he called her evil on every visitation.

Her creation was to give him the lineage his parents paid for from the company they paid to clone her and his wife agreed, wanting children, away.

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The pastor was kidnapped by the company in secret and used and she hated Deelina.

When Deelina's grandparents from both sides found out, they told their family members who spread it around her neighborhood.

Deelina cries in her room, scratching her family picture out because nobody respects her, loves her, when the news got out she was a clone, her cloners got arrested and fined and she was blacklisted by her community.

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Deelina didn't come from incest and adultery, but because her mother did, and she was her mother's child, conceived in her mother's womb, she was considered a mamzerut.

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Deelina was ignored by all the children in school because of her social status as a Mamzerut, at home, her mom expresses to her "I wish I'd aborted you like the Rabbi told me to. They do it to all the other Mamzeruts and clones. Made it the way you were never born."

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Deelina prayed to God to cope with the pain of everyday life.

Deelina asked God "Why'd you make me if you hate mamzeruts so much?! WHY?! AM I ESAU?! I DON'T WANNA BE HIM, WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME?! YOU SHOULD HAVE KILLED ME AT BIRTH, IT WOULD BE MORE LOGICAL, YOU HATE ME MORE THAN ANYONE BECAUSE I'M A CLONE AND MAMZERUT, YOU NEVER MADE ME, YOU NEVER LOVED ME!" In despair and tears.

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God was angry at her mother for not supporting her daughter, her daughter was having so many issues and was even abandoned by her step-father.

The Bible says that when your father and mother abandon you, God watches over you and God takes care of you, instead.

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Her mom walked out on her, blaming her for the hate she got for choosing to birth a clone.

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God became like a father to this cloned Mamzerut, he taught her things and helped her take care of herself.

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Deelina got used to the revelation God cared about her and loved her.

God helped her take care of herself alone, her whole family blacklisted her.

Deelina had God to raise her. Jesus was her Daddy, The Father was her Father, The Holy Spirit was her DBF, meaning "Daddy best friend."

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Deelina would have conversations with God, he had them with her so that she wouldn't be so lonely.

God took care of her as if she was his own daughter.

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When she turned 12, which was when Alley was 13, she befriended Alley and Joe, they played all the time.

Deelina's mother came back to make amends with her daughter after so long, her mother abandoned her at 5-years-old.

Deelina's mother, Lina, visited Deelina at their old house when she couldn't find the child in foster care, family or even neighbors' houses.

They claimed "She was always on her own since you left her!" In anger.

The family was disdainful of the girl.

They didn't care about the girl, so they had no problem with her abandoning the child.

Lina was adopted, so nobody knew she was a Mamzerut before it came out.

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Lina knocked on the door of Delina's house as Deelina played Inside-The-House Hop Scotch with her friends.

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Deelina opened the door, then cried in tears of happiness and shock when she saw her mom, again. She yelled "You escaped the kidnappers!" Because Deelina thought her mom was kidnapped when she went out to "Get Milk" Like a Dad who left.

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Lina said "I wasn't kidnapped, I left, I was so ashamed of you, but I'm sorry, I will never leave again!" In bewilderment.

Deelina was confused and asked "What?" The other girls were in shock.

Deelina asked her mom "You never loved me?" In concern.

Her mom says "I love you, now." Then smiled like it was all okay.

Deelina lied and says "It's okay." But she pretended she wasn't hurt, she thought this wasn't okay and she wasn't okay...

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Many women who had been separated from their husbands and some who waited years for divorces became pregnant by other men, giving rise to these situations if they were pregnant with Mamzeruts:

• women who had abortions rather than give birth to a child who would be labeled a mamzer

• rabbis who suggested women abort rather than give birth to a mamzer

• women who were sorry they had not aborted children now labeled as mamzers

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"WOMEN WHO WERE SORRY" Was so sad.

Deelina knew that some parts of society hated her. A LOT.

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In real life, A mamzerut is defined as one who is born as a result of sexual incest relations prohibited by the Torah or of relations between a married Jewish woman and a Jewish man (married or not) who is not her husband.

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A mamzerut is forbidden to marry someone considered part of the community of Israel. He or she is permitted to marry only another mamzer or a convert, and the offspring are forever considered mamzerim according to Jewish law, even after 10 generations.

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While the sages gave theoretical priority to a mamzer who was learned in Torah over a high priest who was an ignoramus, the conventional attitude to mamzers is closer to what was expressed by a rabbi who asked me: "Would you let your child play with a mamzer child?! Would you let your child sit in school next to a mamzer child?!"

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Deelina was a Prophetess, Deelina had the spirit of Discernment, and was a Christian. Deelina would speak other languages, and Deelina could understand languages she was never taught, these were gifts given to Deelina from God.

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Deelina went to her room and cried.

Mamzers live in terrible isolation while struggling all their lives to conceal their problem and somehow to solve it.

They are Israel's untouchables.

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Not all Jewish people are like this to Mamzeruts. Also, don't call them Mamzers, that's offensive.🩸

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Deelina was taught by God to love herself despite the hate, to throw away the blame she placed on herself for the sins of her grandparents, she loved herself, she was not at fault for the sin her grandparents did and was never apart of it, to be honest, so, she didn't have to be ashamed of herself for it.

Her grandparents did the dirty deeds. Not even her mom had to be ashamed of herself, her mom is supposed to be ashamed of her own sins, they should be ashamed of their own sins as well.

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Deelina ran to her mom and yelled "You know, I don't have to hate myself just because grandma and grandpa decided to get divorced because she had a whore on the side that was her brother, I didn't do any of those things, I was cloned from a pastor, AND I don't have to hate myself for being a clone, I'm not gonna sob all day for it, anymore, there's nothing to sob for!" In anger, Alley and Joe clapped for her, they've been trying to get her to love herself, too.

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Alley says "Yes, my child!" In happiness.

God was the main reason Deelina chose to love herself, though.

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Deelina: "You CANNOT pin the blame for those sins on me, grandma and grandpa have been living nicely, remember? EVERYONE FORGAVE THEM FOR SLEEPING AROUND, AND I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AND NOBODY LOVES ME, I DON'T NEED THEIR FORGIVENESS, EITHER, BECAUSE I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG, LETS TELL THE TRUTH TO RUFFLE UP SOME FEATHERS IN HERE!"

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Deelina then calms down sayin' "I'm not perfect, I've repented of all my sins, and I don't care how you feel about this mommy, I'm a Jewish Christian, I believe that Jesus is God." In anger.

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her mom yells "WHAT?!" In disgust.

Deelina says "Leave, God takes care of me, I only forgive you because Jesus says to, I have to force myself."

Her mother, angered, left.

Deelina says "She didn't love me enough to stay. I knew when I told her I was Christian, it'd be the last straw."

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To be continued...