To Have But Not Have

I am not psychic

If you won't tell me

I won't know

It's the same for me

Our only way of comprehension

Is by communication

But if this medium is broken

What's our connection

Our relationship is not based on understanding

It is beneficial

Our of convinience

It's an attachment for survival

A need for each other

When you force a connection with me

without understanding

It becomes a forced logic

It's ironic

I prefer isolation

for I don't have to deal

with the constant reminder

that we have no connection

We just satisfy our basic needs

I seek a connection of the mind

because without it

our emotional connection feels shallow

It's suffocating

It feels fake

Your 'I love you's'

feel like 'I need you'

then if am not needed

When our deal is done

When this exchange is over

What happens then

Do we continue to force

what is non-existent

into existence?

We ensure our survival

but socially we have no connection

How can we?

When we don't speak the same language...

Don't get me wrong

I'm grateful for what you have done for me

taking care of me

but we just don't click like that

Uou care for me I care for you

But my confidant you are not

My emotional pain you understand not

Mor can you heal

My ideals and thoughts

can not be communicated to you

So tell me,

apart from being with me physically

What else can you do?

Don't speak to me of things that don't exist

Know your place

Many times have I opened my heart to you

only to face a hard wall

I'm tired

I won't bother any longer

Do not expect me to

because just like I was to you

you will be disappointed

and you don't want that

Trust me it's not pleasant